April 2, 2006

WOW! It is April, and my surgery is only days away. I am doing much better than I was in my previous post. I am just excited now and ready to "get this party started!" ha ha Really, I know the first few days are going to be touchy, and I just want to get the show on the road so I can get the yucky stuff over with and be on my way to my new, healthier life. I am trying to get things ready, the house cleaned, and laundry all caught up before I go on Thursday. I am trying to get my household organized to run without me for a week or two. And, I am trying to write letters to my Dh and my daughter, just in case. That is very hard for me to do. How can I possibly write all I would want to say in one short letter? Impossible, really. So I will just do the best I can. I had breakfast with my friends from highschool this past Saturday. They are all supportive and happy for me. I told them, if the worst happens, they all have to step in to be a mother figure for my daughter, as I can't stand the thought of her not having a mother to help her. Of course, that made us all shed tears. But, it had to be said, and I feel better having said it. Anyway, I work Monday & Tuesday and then I am off Wed for the dreaded bowel prep. Yuck. I have to be at the hospital Thursday at 5:45 a.m. Yes, that is a.m. I have been trying to lose a few pounds before surgery, as I had gained 8 pounds from my consult date. Dr. Anthone had said that I absolutely cannot gain weight before my surgery. I did not eat any differently, I just think my weight fluctuates 5-10 pounds throughout the month. Hopefully I can be down a couple pounds at least. I sure hope he doesn't get mad and cancel my surgery. That would really suck. The nurse wanted me to try to drop a few pounds, but didn't seem overly alarmed or anything. Also, at my physical on Friday, they said my white blood cells were up (urine test) and so they were going to culture it to see if I may have a bladder infection or something. I hope not - cause that could cancel my surgery date as well. Hopefully they will call on Monday to say it was nothing. Well, that is all for now. I hope to update again before I go in for surgery. If not, then I'll see you on the other side.