horizontallychallenged
Getting personal here...
In 1999 my life kind of fell apart for me. I've always been overweight but I was very muscular, worked out on weight machines multiple times a week and pushed myself to lift more weight each time. My job as a Paramedic required me to lift people, hike, be kind-of in shape. In March I was jumping on a trampoline with some other people (don't do that) and one of the kids fell into my knee, tearing my ACL, MCL, meniscus and causing me to need a total knee repair - I've have 3 surgeries on my knee to completely repair it now.
Then, same year, I went to have a hysterectomy that I chose to have - I was done with my babies, it was giving me problems and my GYN said it wouldn't hurt to rid myself of it. I scheduled the surgery in June. Up until now I was perfectly healthy accept for my knee. As they did my hysterectomy, they discovered it was full of cancer!! Undetectable by a PAP, fast moving, deadliest form. It caused my uterus to be very vascular so during the removal, they tore major blood vessels in my abdomen that went unnoticed, I bled to death internally on the OR table..... I coded on the OR table ..... they had to give me COLD, blood to save me. There wasn't enough time to warm it up! I woke up 5 hours later thinking I felt intense pain like I was having a heart attack and I saw I was wrapped in a big bubble with warm air blowing all around me, my body core temp was 92 by that time (99 is norm).
I had a vision while I was "dead" - I didn't know I was dying for real but in my dream I was in a peach room with warm, good smelling fog all over. There weren't real walls but I knew I was on a bed in the peach room. I was covered with a white blanket, it didn't have one wrinkle in it anywhere. I remember moving my feet under the covers. I wasn't scared, there was an incredible scense of peace, very drawing and comforting. The room was so warm and smelled so good. A voice came to me and said "YOU CAN DIE IF YOU WANT TO, IT'S OKAY" I right away thought about my surgery and coming out of the anestethia... Again the voice said "IT'S OKAY, YOU CAN DIED, IT'S ALRIGHT" ... I'm thinking of the pain I'd be in, and how the room was so comforting and drawing. It was so a peace and relaxed, I said "YES, I WANT TO DIE, I WANT TO DIE". As soon as I said that I started seeing visions of my husband, my son, daughter & new son in law (they had been married 1 month). I saw laughing faces of my family, happy smiles, I saw my daughter & son in law standing on a grass hill - she was pregnant and a little child stood by her leg that I didn't know .... at this moment I became instantly scared and started screaming "I DON'T WANT TO DIE, I WANT TO STAY HERE, PLEASE, I DON'T WANT TO DIE".... at that second the room went black, became cold and I woke up on the recovery table - cold from the blood but alive. I believe I had a chance to go to the Lord or stay on earth. I know I made a choice to stay here on earth. I know I could have died and my body did die, I have the records of it. The Lord gave me a choice!!
I now have 4 grandbabies (5yrs all the way down to 4 mo old) a son-in-law I know well now and a daughter-in-law I never would have known if I would have gone home in 1999.
Since that experience my body has gotten worse, the hysterectomy bleeding was controlled by them cutting me open from hip bone to hip bone and burning the vessels closed, this caused a blood clot up near my belly button in the vein that is bringing blood up from my left leg going to my heart. SOOOO, after about 24 hours or so the blood is getting backed up down my entire left leg and forms a blood clot the length of my whole leg. By the time they catch it, I've gotten 8 pulmonary embolisms from it. I'm having a hard time breathing, they won't let me out of bed or allow me to sit up, I don't understand why because they're keeping me extremely drugged up and I can't rationalize by now. They decide to give me a shot to break the blood clot up....... wait a minute!! Not good, it breaks all the clots up in my body, including the ones in my pelvic area from my hysterectomy. I bleed almost to death again!!!! I need another blood transusion, this time it's warm at least!! The nurse comes into the room and tells my husband and son, in front of me, I'm going to die tonight, they can't stop my bleeding. I have massive internal bleeding all over inside from the shot! My husband gets ahold of our church which happened to be in service at the time and the entire congregation prays for me - God does a miracle!! My clotting factor starts going up and my blood loss stops. I have a vena cava filter put in place now to catch clots from my leg and I had two venous stents put in to open the clot up.
Ok, that's all for now. I am truly blessed, happy and I thank the Lord for what He has blessed me with.
