It_is_SO_happening

Send Message

Block

Add Friend

Well....it has been an interesting month to say the least!!!

Lots of decisions to make... life is definetly different,... still struggling with getting a handle on my MIND and MAKING myself believe that im yep.... a size 3 now.

I dont get it? Im not doing anything different...i feel fatter... not thinner... yet my size keeps going down... I READ it yet dont believe it.. SEE?? still the same old issues LOL

ahhh well... what can ya do.. You know i have a lot to say to the world.. A LOT... especially about WLS... the question is: DO I HAVE THE BALLS.

Thats all im gonna say for now, but keep your eyes open.

thinking...thinking... planning... moving into a new aprtment...got a shitbox because my dumass decided to sell my BMW.... got promoted at work..... so much has happened in just one month!

I swear my life isnt complicated LOL.. its a beautiful life, but alas, i am a GEMINI after all so i have to keep it entertaining...

HOW ARE ALL YOU butterflies doing??!!! Ive received SOOO many messages and comments from all my wonderfukl freidnds here and im LOVING it... you make me smile even though half  the time im like: "they are actually talking about me? F*** that lol..."


Till next time!

Im so sorry to all my OH buds.. life is definitely interesting!

AND i feel like i OWE it to update more often.. but its just sooo tough lol... I want to thank EVERYONE for all the comments and well thoughts i have been receiving... would you believe it if i told you im a size 4?? I still cant believe i just wrote that LOL


its kind of surreal... its been so long now.. BUT i still go to the store and pick out large and extra large clothes... and end up getting xsmalls... its ridiculous how much of a MIND FUCK (sqooooze the language) this ride truly is... i mean i know i lost alot of weight... but did i really?? its just odd!

i still look in the mirror and say to myself...YOUR FAT.. you are disgustingly fat and UNHEALTHy.. NEED to lose weight.. isnt that CRAZY?? im typing it but its something that i feeel... ive battled with the realization of this from the first 60lbs loss... i could never actually see it... forget about believeing it.. BUT I HAVE to or else i swear ill go off the brink... lol

anyways how is everyone doing?? let me know,.. im around :)

Well-- Its been a WHILE since i updated my profile...

Lots of changes this past year! All things great of course..

I am now divorced-I have been dating an amazing man for the past 3 mths! Life has never been so good.

I am now called "skinny" almost EVERYDAY! The people that I once Reassured did not need to lose any weight that they were fine, are now saying these things to me! Can you freakin believe it.

I never ever in my life thought i would be thin. I never thought i would ever FEEL what those THIN people felt.. how it was to wear whatever i wanted... to go to any store i wanted... to feel confident going anywhere... to have my health be TOP NOTCH... to not worry about having a heart attack... to not worry if i will fit in chairs/rides etc...

This is a roller coaster ride. As i approach my full year out (WHAT THE HELL 1 FULL YEAR are you kidding? it flew by...) i feel like it was JUST yesterday i was in bed crying--- looking at myself as a fat mess.. wondering how the hell i ever let myself get so big.

Now---i have the body I SHOULD have... well with some saggy skin LOL... not too too bad though thank god. I thank god every day for this present called Weight loss surgery.. for the blessing that i came out ok.

With the divorce happening and adjusting to life on 1 income.. things have been a little tough financially, but I'm re learning to live on one income... The problem is that i do make good money--but was living a life of COMFORT and now i need to tweak it a bit to be able to continue on with my savings.

Life as a single gal was GREAT... i dated i met lots of nice people and now have found well not FOUND he kind of just popped up unexpectedly--someone that treats me like a QUEEN. Its weird because I still don't know how to handle all the attention.. its like IS there really all this fuss about ME>? are you kidding.. people don't even RECOGNIZE me.. literally people i went to school with for 4 years have no idea who the fuck i am! Its appalling and surreal!

Its like I'M MONIQUE... the SAME PERSON HELLO you sat next to me for 4 years! they haven't a clue!

Ugh---i welcome questions and have advice for anyone that needs it. I'm here daily and post regularly on R&R and the SBAWL boards! You can catch me on the Main board SOMETIMES as well... i hope you all continued success and I'm here if you need anything!

Time to pay it forward!

(i have received numerous Pm's in the last few weeks.. i am still writing back. I do this @ work between deadlines so bear with me! I will get back to you and keep the questions/updates coming! Its a nice treat on my lunch break!)

LOVE YOU ALL :)

HOLY CRAPTARD the mths just flew on BY!!!

So a little update about me-- im now a size 6..yep i said it a freakin 6!!!!!!!

I dont update my profile much as I am mostly on the boards M-F so everyone pretty much 'KNOWS" me lol

WLS is a very hard thing... it takes lots of work and energy.. willpower ALL THINGS... its not a quick fix its a tool that YOU have to work to get where YOU want to be...

Im at a point in this journey where ALL i think about is what i put or DONT put in my mouth... I am not sure if i want to lose anymore weight necessarily... BUT i do want to have plastics to get this extra skin off...

It DOES make a difference.... I have extra skin in the WEIRDEST places... dont get me wrong i am LUCKY compared to tohers but FOR me it would be nice to have the little odds and ends fixed... ITS been a LONG road and i deserve it.

I have gotten LOTS of friend requests lately... people calling me an inspiration and beautiful etc... IM glad i can be that icon for them as MANY were for me... I remember not even 9 mths ago the 23yr old girl who WANTED surgery.. who NEEDED the surgery and BROWSING through all the OH profiles sending warm wishes and thoughts on other peoples profiles... telling them THEY were MY inspiration... its amazing how in a few short months... im on the "other side" of things...

This is truly a blessing and MY LIFE HAS SO CHANGED... I am now a yr older... a yr wiser YET im being told i look 5 yrs younger... HOW FREAKIN IRONIC....

i count my blessings EVERYDAY... im happy with myself... and i only wish happiness to you all...

For anyone who reads my profile, keep the messages coming and the questions WILL be answered!!!

i love this website!

So How is everyone>>> ?? Good I hope?? I have been having the TIME OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   

I am melting away and am now a size 10!!! Can you freakin believe it>??? i cant... i do have some new pics that i need to put up so you all can see.. Life has been wonderful in this new smaller me... I can shop ANYWHERE now and its fantastic... I hardly have any skin issues which was another worry and all my hair is still intact!! Must be the lebanese in me hahahah just kidding!!!! 

I still do all the same things as before its just that now i can dance longer... eat slower and smaller... shop at regular stores... i can bend over without hurting myself... hahah just a few things..

I also bought a new car!!!!!!!!! 2004 BMW M3 cpe.. .OMG it is the SHIZNIK!!!! it was my reward for all of this i guess... I still have some struggles... but nothing will ever change this healthy lifestyle i lead now... I will NEVER succumb to food again!!/................... Hopefully LOL...

Well more later please drop me a line as I would love to hear from all my OH buds!!!

Hi everyone!! i havent updated in a while but i have been lurking!! To be honest with you.. i dont have much news other than the weight is REALLY coming off! I feel FABULOUS and never thought this day would come ! I am trying to get or find a before pic with my full body shot.. so you can ssee the difference.. but 82lbs later i am finally realizing that this was my right decision!

i hope everyone has a Happy Holidau and New Year!! i know i will... Love ya lots and drop me a line 

GOd is good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Long time no "see" everyone!! how is everyone doing? i am finally doing better and am back to being "ME" well MINUS the food!!!!

I finally had the operation on 10/10.... my experience was very painful and I have opted not to right about it publicly. If you would like to know about my hospital experience pls private msg me...

Other than that I am finally in minimal pain and returning to work on MOnday!!!! Yesterday I had a follow up docs appt and i have already lost 27% of my excess body weight in 3 wks!!! HE WAS AMAZED!!!! he thinks/anticipates I will surpass the "70%" mark and hopefully do really well with this surgery!!!.. My only downfall is that i SUCK with protein!!! omg so tough to get in but I AM TRYING!!!!! He also ok'd me starting on sold foods and my hubby made me tuna with mayo to try and guess what.. 1st "lick" of the fork and everything got stuck!! OWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
I literaly almost pushed the whole plate off the table LOL.. someone on OH warned me about this happening so thank god i knew before hand.. it feels like it is stuck right in the middle of your chest and wont go down!!!! so i stopped and waited 2 hrs.. and had my ice pops!!!! oh well maybe today will be a better day!!! Well , i will try and post more but things have gotten crazy busy around here!!! I cant believe people are noticing already.. i mean i only lost 33lbs... to me thats still nothing cuz i have SOOOOOOOO much more to lose :( but its a good start :)

I would love to hear how everyone is doing so pls drop me aline !! :)

wow its been awhile everyone! this is my last post b4 going in tomorrow morning.. thats it its finally here and I am a nervous wreck and cant sleep! Dont have too much time as im fidgety but pray for me and wish me luck.. As soon as i get back ill relay my experience! Thanks so much for being my friends through this.. i couldnt have done it without u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OCTOBER 8th!! YUP thats my SURGERY date @ 6am OMG I AM SO NERVOUS :(

I am sorry to everyone I havent written back yet----I have been SOOO busy @ work and all these appointments lately.. I will have time to catch up this weekend... there are alot of WINDERFUL people that i have become friends with on here and I DIDNT FORGET ABOUT YOU I JUST HAVENT HAD A SECOND TO BREATHE.. this weekend I will write back and update all of you.. and I NEED TO FIND OUT HOW YALL ARE DOING!!!!!!!  PLUS I MISS THE MESSAGE HEHEH I LOOK FORWARD TO HEARING FROM MY OH BUDDIES!! YOU GUYS ARE THE BESTEST :)

SO I am at work... SWAMPED and dont have much time to post... my dad is getting married today @ 5pm.. and i wont be there   I have to work .. i have been taking SO many days off.. I had yesterday off and could have taken today too.. but the dont deserve that.. my work has been AWESOME through this.. yes I am taking my own days but I still have responsibility!! Since my dad cant get married in the church again (he was married to my mom by the church for 24 yrs and has 3 kids., as a catholics do not acknoledge divorce only annulments and since he has 3 kids they cant annul the marriage)he is doing a JP at his friends house.. then in 2 mths having another ceremony & reception... so I can go the the "real'' one later hahaha  :)

OK well other than being scared I am excited and feel all up in knots.,, this haas come so quick and I know these 2 wks are going to FLY BY!!!!!!! 

More updates soon :)

EVERYONE!!! MY APOLOGIES FOR NOT UPDATING SOONER... THIS HAS TO BE A QUICK POST BUT GUESS WHAT??????? THE HOSPITAL JUST CALLED AND I GOT MY sURGEON APPT NEXT WEEK 9/20 AND ON THAT DAY YES ON THAT BLESSED DAY HE WILL GIVE ME MY SURGERY DATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM ON CLOUD 9 TODAY... NOTHING CAN BRING ME DOWN
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO