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Jeeeez, reading my struggles was a bit insane and it made me sad that I didn't keep up with this blog.

to whoever gets the surgery WRITE IT UP!

It's such a help because you see and you push yourself to do better. I got lazy and I've been unhealthy. Nothing dramatic has happened except the hair loss. Eat your protein! It's really all that matters and though I know this information I chose to ignore it and well...I'm paying for it. 

BUT

im back at it! It's 7am and I'm drinking my 30grams of protein! No gym because I have finals but believe when this week is over it will be my home! lol 

 

you can do this I believe in you.

tell yourself that.

weight overall: 248 surgery weight 226 goal weight 145 current weight 160 

Wow...haven't been on here for a while. 

So let's update ya'll...I haven't drank a protein drink for maybe 2-3 weeks now? Trying to get it strictly through food which then is not even cutting it but I kinda stopped caring and was getting angry as to why I did this to myself. I can barely eat and when I do no matter how slow or how little I eat I fill up like a balloon and feel nauseas for 20-30min until it actually goes down. So I just got angry and plus every single protein drink I tried made me want to puke. They disgust me so much...I need to find one I actually like. Recently, like last week I started having diarrhea after EVERY SINGLE THING I ATE!!! So tomorrow I'm calling my doctor to see what's going on. I've been trying to find good amounts of protein in bars and foods so I can get as much protein as possible but I mean. You can only get so much in this tiny little stomach. I've hardly seen any weight loss...then again I understand why. But I did start working out in the gym last week and let me tell you how exciting it was to get in the ambiance of people pushing themselves and working out! So awesome! This week I will get back on my protein groove as well as monitoring my eating.

 

unsure of how much I weigh. My scale is broken so until the 10th week I will tell you guys my weight.

 

i want to put my goals here because so much is coming up in life and it's so exciting!!!

1. I hated the beach and I went. Loved it. 

2. No more lazy Jazmine, she's going back to school YAY!

3. Gym everyday going hard or I'm not going home! Thank god it's open 24/7 lol

4. Positive vibes, being more kind to everyone and anyone

5. Putting in my protein

6. Be happy Be healthy

7. TRY TRY TRY

 

 

 

if goal weight (145-150lbs) accomplished by December I will treat myself to

1. A tattoo 

2. Maybe...boobs. They are ALL gone. And I'm still fat. -____- lol

 

Time is seriously flying! This is pretty exciting stuff! 

Not sure how much I weigh due to the fact that my stupid scale keeps saying 280lbs when I'm 99.999% I'm not. But yeah, I doubt I've lost much. My scars are healing very nicely and so far it's a struggle. 

Going out with friends, seeings them eat 5 burritos from Taco Bell is pretty hard but I'll get the cheesy fiesta potatoes and maybe eat more than half. I did find out I'm more lactose. Can't hold down yogurtland or anything super milky. What else...oh I finally puked my lungs out. Is it weird that I liked it? Idk ate some veggies from Yoshinoya. Made sure to chew them extremely well, made the accident of biting into a chicken and blaaaaah. Everything came out. I learned my lesson. 

Honesly my diet has not been any good. I'm sick and tired of protein drinks so I haven't drank them but I do eat a lot of meals with protein. Like if it doesn't have protein I won't eat. I am getting pretty frustrated with the tiny amounts. Like I don't enjoy food anymore and it gets me so angry...everything I eat drink brings such a pain to my chest while it's "going down" and then if I accidentally eat too fast (which is always) or don't chew correctly it's like pain for hours!!!!! It sucks..but hopefully that gets better throughout the time. 

I'm on my 2nd week! Whoo-hoo! 

I'm still lazy but I'm pushing everything seems to be going great. 

Last night I forgot and I was thirsty around 3am so I just grabbed a water bottle and took a big chug. Gosh that hurt my throat so bad but I lived. I was always one to drink fast so this is going to be hard to get used to. I wanna go buy some more protein and maybe some refried beans for breakfast! I'm so excited for next week when I can actually chew and actual foods. I haven't weighed myself but I go to the doctor Wednesday so we will see how much I have lost which I don't think is much. But i don't mind. I just want to look good and feel good in clothes. And so far even I've felt like that. And it's pretty exciting! So I'll check back on Wednesday and show my weight loss :D

I feel like I'm on top of the world! Have I lost weight? Nope. Still 228lbs. But I've never been one to accomplish anything for MYSELF. And this week I have...it might not be big to any of you but I'm still very proud of myself. I committed to doing this right and I have. I've officially been on liquids for 9 days (3 days pre liquid). I thought I'd be a cheater and eat some puréed or something but no. Just darn liquids and I'm so excited to finally get out of this stupid stage. I don't crave food since I'm not hungry but thinking about food has been at an all time high. I even wrote a "Once I'm at Goal weight" lists of fatty foods. I might not tolerate them but it gives me a sense of peace knowing I'll eat them one day. Like guys I'm not even joking, who watches cooking shows all of a sudden when they can't eat. Ughhh life sucks being fat. lol but anyways I'm great. I get no pains, can drink water like a normal with sometimes slight pain in the chest but very rarely, and I've been drinking the proteins. One a day actually, it's 30g so I'm not super far behind I know I should be trying more but it's just so nasty. So hopefully this weekend I can buy some non tasting powder and start sprinkling on my pudding or something. So pretty excited, Saturday I will introduce gerber and pudding and chocolate sugarfree Popsicles in my diet so I'm pretty excited lol so that's it about now! :D

Okay let's give the run down..

I've been battling the obesity since out of the womb. I'm 19 years old. No diseases or medical problems but very close to getting them.

highest weight 246 (2 weeks before surgery)

weight before surgery 228 (day of surgery)

height 5'3

i had the sleeve on May 2nd  and so far so good. Pains come and go, swallowing is a bit hard but I can manage.

this is going to be a bit tough for me. I love food especially the portions of them. Like sometimes, I wish I was an old Italian mafia man who can have all the pasta he wants! Haha but I'm not and so I decided to better myself with spinach and water. So after high school I gave myself spring and summer to start a journey of a lifetime! Making me healthy and happy.

So here I am in the process.