Ack!!

Aug 27, 2009

I am so excited.. my little horse ticker is over the halfway point!!  This means I am more than halfway to goal (admittedly just by a couple of pounds but I am so happy!!)

This is so exciting to me - I am so afraid I will be the one who does not get there but I am getting there 4.5 months out and I am over halfway there!!!  I am really starting to feel good about myself. 

I feel pretty again.  That is huge for me.  Ha - I told my husband as I get skinnier I will be looking at myself in the mirror more!

I went to a wedding last weekend and danced my A$$ off all night - in 3 inch heels.  My thighs were paying for it for 3 days, but I had the energy and confidence to go out there and dance!  I used to go out dancing with my BFF (before I got pregnant with my daughter) and I did not think I would ever have the stamina and energy to do that again.  I had gone with her one time after I gained a lot of weight but I felt embarrassed - like eveyone was laughing at me (even though I know that was all in my head) Now I feel like no one is laughing at me because I am cute again!  It is totally superficial and vain but it is what it is I guess.

My husband has started to compliment me more often - not that he didn't before but I think he sees a change in my self esteem and likes it.  I do my hair and makeup again.  I take care in choosing my clothes.

Why is it that when people get fat that let themselves go?  I did.  I had heavy friends who always took utmost care in their appearance but I felt I was not worth it.  To anyone who has not had or cannot have the surgery - you are worth it - fat or thin.

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