Jords
Hi! My name is Jords and here is my story. I've pretty much been over weight since I was a young girl like many of you it started in childhood. Growing up as a child between the ages of 5-8 I'd say my weight was probably average, in elementary school I was a very active kid always running around, bike riding, running thru the neighborhood with my brother & our friends, playing soccer during recess, etc. My parents didn't have a lot of money and worked double shifts at their jobs, with no money for a sitter my brother & I would be left home alone during the times they were working. My mom would prepare foods for us to eat through out the day I remember she'd like us like 6 hotdogs in the buns, soda, and chips or something for us to eat through out the day which is ofcourse not a healthy meal but they didn't know better.
As I began nearing 4th grade I was heavier then a lot of the girls in my class and I knew it, it wasn't a good feeling. I would ask my mom to enroll me in gymnastics, soccer, ballet, but we'd never have the money to pay for the classes. So as I grew older I just ate and ate and didn't exercise much.
Junior high was a good experience for me for the most part. I had a lot of friends but my weight was still an issue and all I ate was junk. I used to skip gym class cause of feeling embarrased of my weight and not being able to keep up with my peers. I remember during games like dodgeball we'd have to wear these jerseys that were like mesh so we'd each be in our own teams and the jerseys were so tight on me it sucked, it didn't drape over my body like it did all the other girls it was just tight and uncomfortable. One of the worst memories for me is being teased and picked on by the other kids, being called really mean hurtful names was not fun.
Entering high school I was probably weighing in at like 260lbs but I just brushed it off like it was no big deal. During freshman year I made friends with these two girls who I'd end up spending 90% of my time with and we'd walk around town everywhere for hours. Drinking water or iced coffees and eating small things here & there, after sometime I shed a large amount of weight. Everyone had noticed how much thinner I'd become I'd say that was probably the time in my life that I was at my lowest weight. I was able to keep most of that weight over thru the course of high school, during my senior year we moved to a new town and I remember weighing in at about 225-230lbs, now I'm 5'10" so because of how tall I am I looked pretty thin and I loved it. I was happy (I could've been happier) but my clothes looked good on me, I wore high heels all the time, everything was pretty good in life.
A few years passed and I started packing on the lbs again. A lot of it had to do with being unhappy and loving food. I love sweets & salty which is a bad combo in itself. I rarely weighed myself so I didn't really notice my weight ballooning until my jeans started fitting tighter and giving me a "cupcake" effect, my shirts began to look unflattering in every light. People started asking why my feet were swollen but they weren't they were just fat. Things just began to suck, again. So at the weight of 285-290lbs I went in for the Lap-band surgery, unfortunately it wasn't successful for me. I didn't lose a pound, infact, I gained more weight. Today I weigh 330lbs give or take. My mother's friend referred us to her doctor and told us about the gastric bypass, it was something I knew about but didn't consider until now. I need a change. Everyone will tell you, you don't need that surgery just work out I'll work out with you and eat healthy, but it's not that simple for some of us. I've tried the gym, portioning, weight watchers, etc. I need a drastic change. Thats why I am having the gastric bypass. My goal weight is 145lbs. I pray that with God's help and the support of everyone in my life I will reach that goal! :)
