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I had my psych evaluation this morning and it was pretty uneventful.  I must say that I did get some valuable information from the eval.  I realized that "eating out" has been my choice activity for years.  It's the outing that most people choose.  Relatives come to town and you "go out to eat".  Decide to spend time with some friends and you "go out to eat".  A night out with hubby and we "go out to eat".  I realize that I am going to have to make a conscious effort to replace those "go out to eat" moments with something else.  That is, if I want this thing to work for me.  What am I going go to with all the time I will spend not eating? 

I'm going to have to think on this for a while.....,,.

  Today I had my initial consult with Dr. Macik.  I was very nervous (not sure why).  Because of all of the information that I have gathered over the weeks through forums and chatting with others,  really didn't have any serious questions to ask him.  He is definitely not a talkative fellow, but was there to answer and questions or concerns that I had.

So now that I have gotten through the consult and it's been confirmed that I am in "need" of WLS, it's odd that I feel better.  Not sure why I needed a medical professional to tell me that I could stand to lose 100 lbs to make me feel better.  Maybe, at that moment, I was confident that this person could actually help me to lose the 100 lbs as apposed to telling me what I needed to do on my own.

I have been overweight for so long that when I looked in the mirror all these years, I saw a cute " big girl" and I didn't have a problem with it.  It wasn't until 4 years ago that the pictures of me started to look very different that what I saw in the mirror.  People that are anorexic often see themselves as fat when they look in the mirror, but I saw myself as thinner.  Not skinny, but smaller than what I really was.

Anywho, I am happy that progress is on it's way!  I have scheduled my psych eval for 11/5 and hopefully my PCP will write me a letter without seeing him again.  Blood tests were already completed in June and I don't have to repeat them.  Yea me!!!  I just have to find a NUT closer to home.

That's it for today..............standby for updates.............