Happy Anniversary

Jan 24, 2011

Hello All,

Wow I don't know where to begin? First I will start by saying that this has been quite a journey so far.  My life has changed so very much.  Some for the better, other things not so good.  A lot of people places and things have changed in my life.  I see life in a different way.  You know the old saying," if I knew then what I know now".  Well I feel like I have been given the opportunity to have back my youth and know what I wish I knew then.  I don't take things for granted the way I use too. 

I am grateful for me. I appreciate me. Shhhh don't tell anybody because God knows the haters are every place. I have lost all of the friends that I thought I had. All of the people who I thought would be there for a life time are gone.  I mean I still see them but they don't want any part of me. I can't understand it I thought they would be happy for me, but it appears that they enjoyed the sad pitiful me more.  I check myself to make sure that I don't get to carried away.  I try to stay focused and positive although it can be very lonely at times. It is worth it, I would not go back for anything.

My husband is hot and to me he will always be, I love him soo much. I think that he is the sexiest man alive.  He on the other hand thinks that I am going to leave him because I am ten years younger and look like a brick house now. He worries himself and thinks things that are not there are happening.  It really hurts at times because I refuse to be forced not to enjoy being happy.

It has been a long two years I started out at 283lb size 22.  I am 195 size 14 and still losing every month. I don't go to the gym like I should but I am going to start LOL!  My mind set has changed about food, I don't need it like I use to. I long for me more then I long for food.  I can still get emotional but thank God for this Lap-band it will not allow me to go overboard.  I am free from food. I don't let it control me, I would eat like I had no choice but to eat it.  Now my new way of thinking has changed. I love this thing.

Well thank you for celebrating with me I am going to try and write, but I am in school full time and working full time and church full time and family full time and everything else full time. LOL!!!

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