Excited or Nervous?

Jan 16, 2011

I can't decide. I suppose I'm somewhere in between! I'm exicted for obvious reasons - this is a monumental change for me, and I look foward to the changes I'll see in my body in the upcoming months. I'm also excited that my surgery date is so close - that means the scariest part for me - the actual surgery! - will be over soon!

Surpsisingly, I'm becoming more and more comfortable with the thought of surgery as the big day gets closer. Not sure why - and I'm sure that won't be the case the morning I leave for the hospital! - but now my overactive amygdala is focusing on post-op issues. Am I going to be able to get in enough protein? What about water? And vitamins? Am I going to have the energy to do my job? What if I need more than 2 weeks of sick leave? Is my position going to be in jeopardy? What if when I do get back to work, I'm still experiencing post-op fatigue and job my performance suffers? What about my skin? How often can I pray to the Gods of Elasticity to snap me back like a rubber band, or at least don't leave me looking like Jabba the Hut. 

Okay, so I may be focusing on a LITTLE too much at one time here.

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