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Not My Week

Feb 18, 2007

This definitely has not been my week.I have not gone to the gym at all this week,partially due to the snow and ice and partially due to just plain ol laziness.And since I haven't been going to the gym....of course I've fallen into old habits and have been eating comfort foods....could you believe frozen pizzas almost every day....I am so disgusted with myself.I am pissed off with myself for giving into old habits and I am so pissed off with the nurse at my doctor's office who schedules fills every six weeks.I will be having my 3rd fill done on February 26th and its loooong overdue.I've been told my others that the 3rd time should be the charm and I will feel more restriction but if not,I am giving it 2 weeks and I am demanding to have another fiil.I am so frustrated because I have something good going on in my life and it seems like the people that I have supported and encouraged through all of their issues have now turned their back on me....isn't that something.The very same people that you have listened to go on and on about their issues,the very same people you have prayed and cried for and shared words of encouragement with are now hating because you have done something good with yourself.Crabs in a barrell.The funny thing is,the same excuse is always that "You've changed"....well heck yea I've changed.....I'm trying to save my life and have more confidence in myself....when has that become a BAD thing?Well I am down in the dumps...not feeling sorry for myself because I know God has a plan and purpose for me.....I just have to start walking in it
Well anyone.....that was my vent for the day......will update soon

Playing Catch Up

Jan 31, 2007

I haven't posted in a while so now that I have some down time,just wanted to fill you in with whats going on.Well I will start off with talking about the 1st BAF Philly Meet N Greet that we had on Saturday,January 20th.I hosted the first meeting and it was so much fun.It was quite a turn out.I met Daises,Tia,Andrea,Courtney,Dawn,Sonya and so many of the fly divas of BAF.It was such a breath of fresh air to be in the midst of a group of people that understands my journey.It seems since I had the surgery,so many things have been changing,good and bad.My weight loss has been progressing,which is a GREAT thing and my confidence level is even better.But it also seems that I am receiving some HATERATION from some so-called friends since surgery.Right now I am at a point that I have to work on ME.Not being selfish but I guess I am,I have to much going on all at once to worry about what cowards are mumring behind my back.But anywhoooo.I'm also still dealing with relocating from Pennsylvania to Florida.In a way,I am looking for a change and taking this move as a brand new start but at the same time,I am screaming on the inside.I am not a small town chick,just can't see myself doing it,but who knows what waits for me around the corner .I'm going to have faith in God and let him lead me wherever He needs me to go and to do whatever He needs me to do.As far as the love life.....PLEASE....DON'T EVEN TALK TO ME ABOUT THAT.....NEXT SUBJECT......I'm scheduled for my 3rd fill on February 26th.They say the 3rd time is a charm so I am looking for even more progress on this journey.I'm also looking forward to the Orlando Meet N Greet.Hopefully I will be moved by then but if not I still plan on attending and having a good time

If It Isn't One Thing Its Another

Jan 04, 2007

Okay,well here is how the story begins.After Christmas,I started back into my workout regime at the gym,but one paticular day,I decided to take one of the classes,since I haven't been to a class since my surgery.Everything was going fine in the class until it was time to do the abs work out.Well I tried to lift my legs to do some lower ab work and I felt the worse pain in my life,still trying not to quit,I tried to continue the work out but finally gave up and just laid on the floor.Feeling scared that I may have damaged something,I decided to take some time off from the gym and see how I feel after a few days,well the pain went away and back to the gym I gleefully go.I go back into my routine,an hour on the treadmill and 30 minutes on the weights,well when I get to do my pull ups,POP!!!!I feel a pop in my side.So of course I am freaking out again.The pain starts again and this time I call my Doc's office and set up an appoitment.Fast forward to yesterday,I had an appt with Dr. Williams at 10:15,I was told I was given an early appt. and would be seen very quickly.I was not called until 12:30.I was too worried to be pissed.So while I am waiting for Dr. Williams to come in,I realize that I have to go to the ladies room really bad.Of course someone is in the restroom,so I decided to wait in front of the door to my exam room so I could see when the person leaves the restroom.Well while I am waiting,Dr. Williams walks up and is wondering why I am waiting outside,I tell him my reason and just decided to hold it and get the eaxm over.We go back into the exam room and I lay on the table thinking I am going to be examed,he tells me to come sit in the chair.Of course silently I am wondering how is he going to check my port with me sitting in the chair but I just wait and see.Dr.Williams goes over my chart and starts talking about Pysch Evals and nutrition classes.I am wondering what is he talking about,does he think I am crazy because I am having pain.It finally hits me that he has the wrong chart.I told him that I had my surgery already,he asked me who was I and we had a good laugh.Dr.Williams left to get my chart and I thought that would be my chance to go to the restroom,struck out again,while I get up to go,in comes the nurse,so again I have to sit.After the nurse examines me,back comes Dr. Williams,he examines me.He tells me that he doesn't think I have a hernia but he wants me to get a CAT scan of my stomach to make sure everything is okay.Well by that time,I was more interested in making it to the restroom before I had to make a call for cleanup on aisle 3.The pain has settled down but I am still going to scheduled the CAT scan to make sure everything is okay.I have an appt scheduled for the 15th for my second fill and I am really hoping that I will be able to get it because the holidays have been crazy for me.I haven't been going to the gym since I hurt myself and my eating habits are going downhill.I'm going to go to the gym tomorrow and just walk on the treadmill because I can't let my hard work go down the drain,I have come too far.My 29th birthday is coming up on the 8th,I am excited about that.Its just another day but its another day on this journey to freedom from this overweight prison.

On the Right Track

Dec 04, 2006

Monday, December 04, 2006
I had my first fill today.The nurse told me that I lost 26 lbs.I am so excited because I lost the 26 lbs without a fill, just by eating healthy and working out.I was a little frustrated today because I had to wait 2 1/2 hours before I was called back for my fill.My mother has been laughing at me because I am always weighing myself on the scale but I am just happy that I finally have a tool that will help me in new healthy lifestyle.

On the Losing Journey

Oct 17, 2006


I had my first Post-Op check-up on Friday, 13th, 2006 and I am feeling great.I wasn't feeling very well the day before.I was dizzy and my blood sugar was at 254.I called Dr. Williams office and they said it was probably because I didn't drink any protein and I forgot to dilute the juice that I had been drinking.At my check up,the nurse informed me that I lost 15 lbs.I was so happy.My mom told me that it looked like I lost weight but it didn't seem like it to me.I am just excited to go even further on this journey

 

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Philly Girl In the Sunshine State, FL
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10/02/2006
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