KelB2000
It's been a while...
Aug 17, 2009
It's been a while since I've been on OH...went on a family vacation in the Poconos...It was a challenge at times and I learned a few things...
1) My immediate family is made up of people who love junk/high fat food, and eat way too much. Too bad I'm the only one that got slammed in the face with obesity as a result. 3 of my 4 siblings (half siblings...different mother) are quite thin, though they eat like it's going out of style. I'm not gonna lie...I'm jealous, lol. I told my sister that she is channeling her inner fat girl when she eats. hehe. Anyway...on vacation I was faced with temptation, but for the most part stayed on track. I have not yet had a fill, and I have noticed as time has gone on, that restriction, as it relates to limiting the ounces I CAN eat, is minimal. There were a few occasions where I ate more than I usually do. When we made a campfire, I actually had 2 smores, and it was the first time I have had chocolate since my surgery. I felt regretful that I allowed myself to have a weak moment, but at the same time also felt a little frustrated because at the time I just wanted to feel normal, like part of the rest of the family who was enjoying roasting marshmallows. It's a double edged sword because I don't want to steer off the path, but yet I worry that if I never allow myself to partake, I'll feel frustration because it's total deprivation. In any case, I had a weigh in at counseling yesterday. I was really fearful as I stepped on the scale...as it turns out, I was still down a pound despite my slight indulgences. That's good I guess. But I've now noticed that I'm starting to become "scale greedy". I'm down 21 lbs one month out, and I wish it was more....I hear stories about people who lose weight so quickly...in fact, one of my friends on this forum is down 60 lbs and we were banded on the same day (that's amazing!!). I don't want to start stalling...Part of my issue is that I've been battling the decision on which gym to join. One where I live, or one near where I work. Trying to decide where I'd be more successful motivation wise. I'm leaning toward the one near work since I fear losing motivation on the 1/2 hour drive home from work each day. The catch 22 with that though, is that I'm a teacher, so when you consider the summer months and school breaks, I will then be kinda far from the gym....I wasn't totally thrilled with what seems like the only gym around, in the town where I live....argh...I just don't know. Feeling kinda blech and melancholy in general tonight so my decision making skills are kinda floating in the abyss....That's all for now
PS- Can you guys see my pictures? I can't tell if they've posted correctly and no one has left any comments....not sure.
