long time,no write

Aug 18, 2009

 wow, it has been a while since i posted.   I went to Greece and Turkey for three weeks.  Honestly, I was disappointed I did not lose more during that time since I walked all day every day.  I did really well with my eating, living off protein shakes and slices of salami and cheese and egg for between meals and lunches.  Dinner's were a lot of Greek salads and the feta cheese there was exquisite.  Fish was good too.  Soups helped.

But now i am back and i am enjoying swimming most.  i actually go to the pool in a bathing suit only and don't feel I need to wear a towel around my waist to cover heavy heavy thighs.  I'm swimming 50 laps a day mostly now and it is relatively easy.  Just a matter of putting in the time.   The other day, Alan and I rode our bikes for 7-8 miles going at a good clip the whole time. He is amazed at how different I look and comments frequently.

I even surprised him with an old,carefully put away, lace outfit the other morning.  The results were everything one might hope for.  It is so fun to feel good about yourself.

It's funny to hear comments at work.  People don't always know what has changed ( you are really tan, I like your new haircut) and they are uncomfortable to comment directly on weight as it might imply you were fat before ( which I was) but  you know they know.  And I am happier all around and that shows too.

Two months til my son's wedding.  Nope actually more like 6 weeks.  I hope to be in the 160s.  That's ten more pounds off and stablized.  Then I get to shop for a new dress.  I am still not buying much in new clothes.  I am afraid doing so would indicate I was done losing.  And I want to lose those other 40 lbs.  But I have so many clothes that were too tight to wear and now are loose.  It is really fun to wear them.  Plus, I am a bit afraid to shop.  Those awful days of having to look at yourself as you try on new clothes and feeling like an imposter in a store.  Why would you bother shopping!!!????  So, I will get up my nerve for this just as I have for swimming.  Right now, it is fine just to be comfortable swimming and exercising.

Step by step. Day by day.

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