kerri323
It must have began when I was 5. My father left my mom and I and it was terrible. I remember eating brown sugar for all meals because we had nothing. I felt I found a control of my enviorment through food. When we were having decent meals again, I would eat so much and get angry when my mom would say for me stop. I had issues let me tell you. When I was 5 years almost 6 I was 105 pounds. I weighed as much as my mom, although not as tall. LOL I went through a battery of test as to why I was so heavy and they did not know why. I was a lost case I guess. Well as the years progressed I got larger then smaller and then big again. I could never keep it off. Puberty was a totaly nightmare let me tell you! In my teen years I went through the whole starving and throwing up stuff and it worked for a short time until I developed an ulcer and vowed to never puke on purpose again. That really and truly changed when I was pregnant. ( We all have been there.) I found out when I was 33 years old that I have PCOS and metabolic syndrome. I have a genetic marker in my system that tells my pancrease to never stop working and thus makes my liver produce cholesterol and then sugar. The insulin that is in my system is way too high, tons of it and it does not know what to do. It just kinda floats around until it finlly decides to get into my cells and get use by the sugar which is eaten. This is why when I diet it never works, I always end up neever loosing as much as needed or feeling so frustrated I quit. I need this surgery to save my life literally. The RNY does something to the pancrease thus stopping the production of so much insulin and the liver gets a break too. I pray each day that I will be able to spend the day with my twins and husband again and not have a medical problem, I pray that God will allow me to have this surgery, and continue to live.
