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Hi guys,

Yes, I said marriage. I got married to my beautiful beau on April 16th of this year. We also moved to the outskirts of California, on a 2.5 acre ranch for our online business and it WAY more affordable living out here. We live in a trailer home thats pretty nice but want to build a house here instead. 

My weight is still high, I'm currently at 260. Not proud of it. I got married at 245. I dieted for a whole year before my wedding, most of it on WW's which I kept losing the same 12 pounds. Then towards my wedding I jumped on Keto and lost more but I was eating WAY too much fat. Made me feel tired and sick most of the time.

Now, I'm back to basics. 1200 Calorie diet, 10k steps a day, Water, water, water. Low carb, high protein.

Basically what I'm supposed to be doing. 

I start a new job working at Amazon Fulfilment center on July 29th. You walk 10 miles a day in the warehouse so that takes care of my steps. Just need to continue the low carb/High protein. 

My business is doing great but my husband and I want to have extra income too so we can build our house faster on our land.

Lot's and lot's of changes. I'm far from my family, 1.5 hour drive to see them. Its just me and my husband here. I'm used to always being with my family and sisters. Its hard but I'm finally getting that, if they want to come and visit, thats great. I can't be going to them all the time either. 

And... M y husband and I got a dog. A pug puppy we named Piquin. He's adorable to say the least and FULL of energy. We have our little family for now and I'm very happy and Thankful for everything we have. It's just my weight I need to get under control.

And its not like I want to be 140 pounds, size 0 or anything. I just want to get to 175. Still be healthy and have my curves. Have the mobility I want and the health. Curvy girls are gorgeous and that's what I want to be, curvy yet healthy. 

Will be blogging more since I love to write and keep you all updated. 

Here's to getting to our goals. 

-Kiki

Hi All, 

I have been MIA for a while and have let myself fall back into bad habits. I fell in love, started eating out of happiness. Fast forward 2 years, 3 months later and I'm 50 pounds heavier!!! 

I am still in love, my boyfriend and I now live together and I've been trying to get back on track. 

Its been VERY difficult... BUT I'm not giving up. 

I'm getting back to basics and being patient. Im accounting, being consistent and using my sleeve. With this I have gone from my highest afyer surgery, 256 to 248 in one month!

8 pounds down and counting. 

I hope to give another update soon with more pounds lost. 

Stay strong, stay accountable, stay consistent. 

You got this! 

-Kiki 

Thank God I am back on track... Whoop whoop! Lol

I bought an elliptical back in October and honestly I used it as a coat rack for a couple of months. But now I'm doing 35 minutes of cardio and every 7 mins jump off and do weights, push ups, resistance training... Ect. And I feel awesome. 

I feel closer to goal more than I have in months and I am definitely pushing forward to reach it. 

Pits a relief but its not over by a long shot. My plan is to account and eat my calories and take it day by day. When I do extremes like no carbs or 800 calories only or shakes only, I tend to fall off the wagon and gain way more than I lost. 

So it will be a bit longer till I hit goal but hey.... I will get there.

i knew when I first got sleeved I wouldn't have a typical WLS story. It would take me a while to get to goal, I'm too fucked up in the head with food to get away that easy. It's a journey and almost two years out I'm almost at goal and I thank God everyday for my Sleeve. 

If I didn't have it, I'd be easily over 350 pounds and depressed out of my mind.

taking it day by day and ready to kick some ass in hitting goal and at life.

Take Care

Kiki

Hey everyone. 2012 SUCKED for me. After the NorCal meet the shit hit the fan for me...

My dad was diagnosed with colon cancer (he got it removed on aug. 3rd and is cancer free). Yay!

My mom was hospitalized twice and almost died... Twice (she's done a 360 and is doing well).  Go mama!

My grandma died on Oct. 3rd. RIP my grams. and...

Two weeks later, my daughter , my baby, my shadow... My doggy AppleTini died (after searching for a whole week before and after work, night and day and plastering numerous flyers a good simaritan text me a pix of a hit dog and I knew it was my baby). She's buried in my back yard. Rip my princess.

And what did do...

i ate.

i ate and ate and on January 1st 2013 I weighed in at 213.5 pounds (my lowest 192).

OMFG!!!! 21.5 pounds gained in 7 months.

Through everything I saw the light at the end of the tunnel. I am SO much stronger than I thought I was and with that strength I'm not settling for 200 pounds anymore. I got my Sleeve to get to 158 and by God I'm going to get there. 

Since New Years I've gone from 213.5 to 210 today. I'm taking things slow and following my surgeon rules, protein first, under eat my Sleeve and lots of water and thank God it's working.

i want to hit 175 by my 2 year mark on the 24th of March. Nod by July 4th I want to hit  goal of 158. I'm  so glad I came back to OH. Just reading the VSG forum posts have been inspiring me to stay on track and get to goal. I never knew just how much I missed and needed the support.

My journey is still alive and strong and soon I will be at goal.

i'll never give up on myself and neither should you.

xo

Kiki

 So the past few months have not been going so well. I hit my lowest when I went to the Norcal meet up at 192 then I just started not caring. And its not like this whole time I've been just eating whatever. I've been on stupid diet trips, like all protein shakes (would start off strong then crumble towards midweek), drastically cutting calories (never works out end of day), Over exercising (one word "ouch"). All of these "diets" were just that, a diet not a lifestyle change. 
By Labor day I was at 209 pounds!!!! The past couple of months I've been around 195-197 then stress and denial got me up to 209, not to mention binge eating on the weekends (lots of foamies and tummy aches... not fun).
Life is good right now, my moms in good health and recovering, so is my dad. Work is GREAT I love it, its challenging and my coworkers are GREAT. I guess I just needed to get to this point.
So Tuesday I weighed in at 209.4 pounds and this morning I weighed in at 206.2 pounds. I'll take the three pound loss. I've been eating protein, protein, protein and have been walking with my Dad at night to build his stamina up from his cancer removal surgery. 
It took me SO long to actually come clean about this, with myself, my family and my extended family online but I feel like this is the best way to get past this and move on to goal.
I've actually stayed away from myfitnesspal. I don't think I'm ready for all the calories and fat grams and protein grams yet. I'll just trust myself and eat smarter.
When I start throwing carbs back into the mix I'll start logging it in but for now, this works for me. 
I'm taking it one day at a time and one meal at a time. I'm hoping to make a youtube vlog soon for all my youtube followers. I've gotten so much since my absense and I apologize for not having the lady balls to get back on. I promise soon I will get on and give everyone an update. 
Everyone take Care and Keep Kickin Ass
XO
Kristen

 Started my new job today and I LOVE IT. For a while there I thought I wasn't as smart and talented because my old boss was a DICK and kept telling me that that I actually believed it.FUCK him. Today I kicked ass and impressed my new boss and everyone there. 
I also started insanity yesterday and am on day 2. OMFG!!!! It SO HARD but I LOVE IT. lol Its exactly what I needed. 
I'm back on track eating protein and trying to get in 5 meals a day. I'm trying to get in 1500 cals but its so hard when everything you eat is fresh and lean and low calorie. I'm barely hitting 1000 but on the protein front I'm hitting 110. Crazy. 

I feel really good too and I'm so thankful for all the good in my life. 
Even though my moms in the hospital and my dads having surgery for his cancer on the 3rd of august I'm NOT going to let those things drag me down. I'm going to push myself and be there for my family. I'm going to make time to make my meals and account for what I put in my body and I'm NOT going to eat my emotions. I'm going to exercise them out of me. lol

I hope everyone had fun at the meet up. Missed you all and hope to go next time.

Everyone Take Care
Kiki

 Not litterally... (ew! that would be TMI)
Nope just crazy stuff happening like I got sick, like close to dying sick... lol and I still went to work boogers and coughing and all. 
On top of that, I got pink eye on Thursday, still recovering from that. AND my mom went to the Emergency room due to her intestinal bypass from 1976. Her pottasium, calcium were extremely low and we found out the intestines that were cut and set aside are harboring bacteria that is messing with her whole body. Her liver, Spleen and Kidney have all been attacked by it. There treating her with meds but can't do anything until her electrolyes are back up.
One thing I'm grateful for is getting the Sleeve and not Bypass because everytime we go in the nurses shake there head and say something like, "Its typical with malabsorption WLS's." So I THANK GOD, I waited for the Sleeve.
So my lifes been all over the place. As you can imagine, not a lot of Sleep and eating crappy food. I'm also in the process of getting a new job because I TRULY despise my current one. (Not really the job itself, my boss is cool, but I'm being WAY under paid and he KNOWS hes under paying me and just says "i wish I could pay you more" when I KNOW he can. Just that fact makes me want to leave). lol
Still have a heinous cough put am going to hit the gym tomorrow. 
Pray fro my mom, every time they pump her with pottasium and calcium her body barely absorbs it and they don't know what to do.
Sorry this was a downer post but I needed some writing therapy to clear my head.
Every one keep kicking ass
Kiki

 So I am setting up my running journal and have exactly 20 weeks till the Rock N Roll Marathon in October. Last week I ran 6 miles (3, 2 mile runs) testing out the waters. lol So I am now taking it seroiusly and going to try to run mon-fri and save sunday for my "long" runs. I'm excited because I've always wanted to run a marathon and after reading up on it, I feel I CAN condition myself to be ready for it. (Big shout out to ABC Brown for telling me about it!)
Every morning I'm getting up early and running. 2 miles at first, then adding 10% more every week. I feel like I need to do this, I need to push myself and get across that finish line. Its exciting and I'm excited. I'm going to start planning out my meals and uping my calories. If the rest of my "clinging for dear life" weight comes off and I get to goal, that will be a plus, but mostly I'm doing this for me. 
I remember when I went to the Dr's and they said I had worse knees than a 60 year old due to being overweight my WHOLE life and now, I'm training for a marathon. Freaking awesome. 
I'm just so proud of myself and looking forward to the future. There's a lot of life out there I NEED to live and I'm ready for it.
Big shout out to my peeps on here, supporting me and others.
Kiki

 Today was my cousin Alex's wedding. It was a beautiful ceremony and rocked as far as weddings go. With weddings comes family and they were all stoked to see my weightloss but for me it wasjust a reminder on how I've been losing SO DAMN slow the past few months. Since the new year I've lost 12 pounds. 12 pounds in 6 months. Thats it.

I am happy the scale is going down but I know I need to step it up. If you don't know already, I have severe bingeing disorder and even with WLS you're still going to be a binger. Sad but true. And yes, I still binge, its rare and has happened a whopping 6 times since surgery, my last one, 2 wednesdays ago (found out my dad has colon cancer) and what did I do, eat and eat till I puked. 

Its a sick vicious disorder and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. But I'm not going to use my disorder as an excuse.

So my GRAND REALIZATION?

I am SO DAMN CLOSE TO GOAL. I feel like I wasted these past months just settling. Hell yeah, its great to be this weight, this size. I'm smaller than I was in 5th grade BUT I've enjoyed my size 12 ass enough, its time to get back on track and get to my intial objective, to be "normal."

I'm not talking about a "normal" BMI or anything scientific or precise. I just want to get to a single digit pant size. I want to be healthy and lean and strong. Its not just a number to me, its a day where I get up in the morning, look in the mirror and feel acomplished. Where I can know I have my bingeing disorder under control. 

A Day where I'm good with me.

 Hey all my OH friends. Its truly been forever. I'm up here in San Jose, sharing a room with Alison (ABC BROWN) typing away on the FREE internet (oh how I've missed you) just a few hours away from the Meet. 
Last year, I had just had my surgery and was 27 pounds down and now I'm here again, a little more than a year later and just 30 pounds from goal. Insane.
What a year can do right? 
I've been stuck bouncing from 193 to 189 for the past two months. No one said this journey was easy but here I am struggling. I don't want to say struggling, I guess I'm trying to find a balance in eating and food. More than weightloss right now I'm trying to achieve a WAY of eating for the rest of my life. 
Some days I hit, somedays I miss. I'm only human. But I am so happy with my weightloss and how much I have lost.
Being just 30 pounds from goal is surreal and scary but exciting. My whole life I've been either morbidly obese or super obese and to be here in "Over weight" territory is pretty new. I mean, its really nice to walk into a store and know I can shop in the "regular" section. Yesterday, Alison, Jenn (Shagdoll) went trying on clothes and I grabbed all these XL shirts and pants and they all fit too big... lol Its just crazy. 
But all in all life is good. I thank God for everything that he's allowed me to do and I know I can lose this rest of this weight.  
Again, I'm going to focus on eating for life and I know once I'm good with that, the rest of this weight will come off and I will reach 160 pounds.
Everyone Take Care and keep Rocking it.
Kristen