So not done yet!

Nov 06, 2013

November is here! I can't believe how fast this year has flown by!  I am 10 months out from surgery as of this weekend and it doesn't seem that long ago.  I will be doing another 5K color run on Saturday.  I have also gotten together with a girl that lives in my neighborhood and we are going to start running together tomorrow night.  I hope I can keep up! I am hoping that this will snap me back into my strict weight loss mode. I am doing pretty good and have lost some weight but I haven't gone back to low carb.  I know my body loves low carb and I feel sooo much better when I'm doing it.  I am still eating healthy, I'm weighing every day and getting in my water and protein but those carbs are getting in too.  And my calories are way higher than I need them to get me back into real weight loss mode. 

I think with the weather change and the short days, I've been thrown out of my routine. I also know that it has something to do with me losing the weight and feeling pretty happy with my current size.  I don't have a huge desire to get much smaller.  Don't get me wrong, it would be nice to be in the 190's but I don't have this huge pressing desire to get down that low.  I want to; I want to have a BMI of at least overweight and get out of the Obese zone. I definitely want to keep trying but I don't really have a huge motivator right now. 

I fit into normal size clothes, I fit into all chairs and cars and amusement rides.  My husband loves the way I look and I feel sexy and small in his arms now. I don't have much extra skin at this size at all.  I look in the mirror and I see Karin again.  I see a pretty girl whose eyes and hair and smile you might notice first and her size isn't the first thing that people see or remember her by.  But, no, I don't want to be 224 pounds forever.  I am not done yet.  I know I'm not.

I have been considering joining Weight Watchers that meets about 2 or 3 miles from my house.  I could even walk there on Thursday nights! :-)   I don't want to follow the plan but having a weigh in and a weekly meeting to talk to others about my weight loss efforts may be what I need to stay on track.  I got an offer for 3 months for 62 bucks.  I think I could swing 20 bucks a month then i can quit after that.  That would get me through the holidays and into the new year. 

Honestly, I am so happy right now.  Work is stressful and financially, we aren't so great but I can deal with that. What I love is that the picture of who I am in my head matches the girl in the mirror now.  I finally see who I want to be again.... and that's so amazing.  I really thought that girl was gone for good. I'm glad she's back.

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