One Year Down

Jan 13, 2014

My one year surgiversary came and went! I can't believe it's been over a year since my surgery.  I remember the day before my surgery was such a stressful day.  I had so much going on at work and I actually worked that night until about 8 pm.  My mom was in town and helped me try and relax some.  I was so overwhelmed by all the changes I was about to go through.  Everything was fine and here I am one year later and 136 pounds lighter. 

I have been maintaining since November.  I haven't been doing what I need to do to lose but I am watching the scale and keeping it within a 3 pound range.  I really would like to lose at least another 25 to 30 pounds.  My ultimate goal is to lose 175 total but I really don't mind if I only lose 160 or 165. I actually feel pretty comfortable at this weight but I know I want to lose more.  I am a size 16 now and my ultimate goal is 12.  I started at a size 28 so 16 looks so small to me.  The smallest I've ever been in my adult life is a 10. I weighed about 150 pounds then and I was very skinny.  My bone structure is just big so for me to get down to a size 12 will be small for my frame. I bought some size 12 jeans and a size 12 bathing suit for the summer and that's my goal right now. 

I had a funeral to go to of a family friend this past weekend.  I have gotten used to my size but a lot of my family and people I haven't seen in a while were blown away.  They were all saying how skinny I am and how great I look. Some of my parent's friends that I haven't seen in years didn't even know who I was.  Once I told them who I was, they just kept saying how beautiful I was.  That was an ego boost! :-)  It felt really good to get those compliments and reminded me of why I want to work hard to keep the weight off and lose even more. 

I don't have any time limits or goals that I want to meet by a certain time.  I just want to start back running every day and be able to run some full 5Ks in the spring.  I also want to make healthier choices.  My body really does like lower carb so that's my goal.  I always seem to lose weight fast with lower carb and my cravings disappear. It is also the easiest eating plan for me to stick to because there are so many options and I can eat a lot of what I love (CHEEEEEEEEESE!). I got a discount and decided to join Weight Watchers last week just for the meetings, weigh-ins and accountability.  I don't know how long I will go but it's nice to talk to others that are losing weight even if I'm not following that plan. I tried to do their plan for about 2 days but the cravings in the afternoon from all the carbs are just not working for me. I know what works for me so I'm sticking with that.

2013 was an amazing year for me.  I changed so much and I got to a weight that I haven't been in over a decade! I'm smaller now than I was when I was 22! I have a picture that I took when I was around 22 or so and I compared it with a picture from New Year's Eve.  It's so funny because I look the same (with the exception of a few wrinkles and some aging!). I was doing a similar pose and everything! I just never imagined I would ever be near that size again.  Not with how big I allowed myself to get. I went from huffing and puffing just walking from my car into Publix to running miles without stopping and being proud of my body and my looks.  I am far from perfect in my quest to lose weight and I don't expect losing more weight to be easy and definitely know maintaining will be a struggle.  But I have my tool and I intend to take full advantage of the new lease on life I have been given. I want this next year to be amazing also. I'm so in love with my new body and my new outlook on life. Yes, I have some jiggly bits and I'm no supermodel but I feel like I am part of society again.  I felt like a huge outcast this time last year.  I felt either invisible because people didn't want to acknowledge the huge girl or that I stuck out like the elephant in the room (pun intended). 

So that's my quick check-in for my one year anniversary.  It's been an awesome year and I want to keep it going. It's all up to me and my choices everyday. I know I can do this if it's really important to me... and there is nothing else that I want more!!

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