Still going...

Jan 26, 2014

I'm fully back on track and it feels great!! I am doing lower carb, tracking my food and getting in exercise.  I am losing weight again and I love watching the scale go down.  That's almost the scary part about being (relatively) so close to my goal.  I started out with so much weight to lose and now that I am about 30 pounds away from goal, I am starting to get a little scared.  It feels good waking up in the morning and hopping on the scale to see what I've lost since the day before.  It makes my day when I've lost even the slightest amount and I can log it in My Fitness Pal.  Once the losing weight stops, I feel like that's when I'll really start to struggle with what my motivation will be.  Maintenance was always hard for me.  Losing weight is exciting and rewarding but just working to stay the same... that feels boring and the pay off isn't as big.  I definitely need to find a therapist and start going at least once a month.  I went to one before but we didn't quite click so I quit.  I need to try another and find one I really like and trust. 

So I am about 218 right now.  144 lbs down! 31 left to go.  Hitting 150 lost will be amazing.  I already can't believe how small I am sometimes.  I went to my meeting yesterday morning with a tank top tucked into my skirt and a short cardigan over it.  I looked down at my stomach and it was flat! I felt so confident in my skirt.  I had on ankle boots and tights with it and I wore that outfit almost all day.  My feet didn't kill me even after I walked around Marshalls and Walmart with them on.  Wearing heels hurt like heck at 300 pounds! I could barely wear them a few minutes without my feet screaming for mercy.  I am so glad I can finally wear my cute shoes again.  Now I just have to hurry up and wear them all again before I get too old and tired.

Last night I forgot bread crumbs (for the boys' dinner) at Walmart so I decided to walk to Publix which is exactly 1.5 miles from my house.  It was a great walk. I feel so much healthier now and I really enjoy exercise.  I get out and move and listen to music and I get my head right.  I think with the weather change and the days being short, I have had a little bout of depression or just sadness for no reason.  The exercise outside definitely helps.  Even with all the great stuff I have in my life, I am still prone to being sad in the winter.  I guess I'm just wired that way.

I'll check back in another week or so and I hope to be down 150 pounds within a few weeks. I'm not gonna pressure myself but it would be nice to continue to see the steady drops on the scale.  For now though, I am just enjoying being this small and loving my new body. :-)

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