krispers
03/03/03
I have been overweight all my life... I have been on every diet imaginable!! I started dieting in HS ...beverly hills diet, cabbage soup diet, cambridge diet... you name it!
I have yo-yo'd so many times.. I'm sure its horribly unhealthy!
At work I increased my hours so I could get benefits... will be getting BS California Choice PPO and am hoping they will cover the insurance... if not, I will take a loan out and have it done... I WILL have surgery!
March 13, 2003.
Guess I can take some time and write more about me. I'm 38 and live in the Central Valley Ca. I have been married 18 years and have 2 children.
I first looked into the RNY back in 97. My husband was (as well as my best friend) totally against the idea! I have been reading more and more on it.. I went back to the md in Jan to check into meridia... My doc said NO... he suggested the RNY.. and told me that Dr. Coates does it in our area.
I came home and talked to my hub again... (and my friends!!) and all agree that it has come a long way. Now I would be lying if I said I didn't think anything could go wrong.... but to me it is worth the risk... I lost both my parents March of 2001... I know for a fact that weight played a huge factor in the death of my father. I am too young to be an "orphan"... and I don't want my children to go lose me so young... (make sense??)
I did already know that my hubs insurance (delta benefits/teamsters) wouldn't cover the surgery.. there is a clause in the plan that will not cover anything to do with obesity! ... of course, they have paid for 2 knee surgeries... they've paid for lipitor (rx)... so.. whether they like it or not.. .they're paying for it! (just not a way to help 'correct' it)....
I have been working part time for the past 3 years and decided to pick up the extra time so I could get benefits at work... I will have my insurance on 4/1... paying the big bucks to get the PPO...but I've already checked before hand and they said if it is medically necessary they will cover the surgery... Now.. is it just me, or do you think that is goofy.. how many people would do the surgery if it wasn't necessary!!!! I don't think most people wake up and say .. gosh.. think I'll have surgery today! I've researched this quite a bit (as I'd think most people do!)
Well... need to get to bed now... (have to work tomorrow...but do it with a smile... cuz I know I'll be healthier soon!)
btw...
have started a list of what I will do when I've started losing weight and getting thin!
1. take scuba diving lessons
2. take golf lessons (my hub won't scuba dive with me!)
3. go on a plane ride w/o wondering if my butt will fit in the seat!
4. RUN...ahh...what a thought that is! LOL
and so many more... but I won't bore ya with it!! heehee
April 10, 2003
Ok.. I've gone in for the "video" at the surgeons office.. For whatever reason, I thought I'd be meeting with him on that date, but nope... made my appt for the "shrink"... that is on .. um.. like the 23rd ?? of this month... and then I don't even get my consultation til May 27th!!! ahhhh.... In the meanwhile I am busily requesting Med records from all my docs that have done anything with me dealing with weight....
I've had both knees operated on... lateral releases as well as repaired meniscuses... I've been on "pill" diets.. so I'll get that info... bla bla bla...
Sitting here listening to my Christian music... and just being mellow... or trying to be... LOL... I wish this was happening FASTER!!! Even though I just started this journey... I've actually started it before... way back in 97...(that is when I found out my hubs ins would NOT cover the surg.. or anything to do with obesity...which btw.. I still don't understand??!!!)
April 30, 2003
Hi... Lets see... Well.. I've been thru my psych eval (last week) ... Was kinda interesting... He is really excited that a lot of people are getting surgery to help them live a normal life (or is it the fee he's getting for all the people that have to come see him??) lol...
He said that I have the right attitude and want to lose weight for the right reasons.. (are there wrong reasons???)and since I have a 'tragic family history' I should have no problem.. (not to mention the co-moribidities i have)....
Anyway... took that huge personality profile... (only had to answer like 371 of them)... faxed that back.. he said he'd let me know if I was a crack-pot (my word.. not his !!) and I've not heard from him... YEAH!!!
I've been getting my medical records together... got my ob/gyn ones today... what is nice about them is they go back to 1989.. .talks about diets I've been on.. phen/fen ... WW... etc... Sooo.. I was happy about that... My reg doc is gonna call me when they're done copying those...
I'm hoping this all goes well... I see the surgeon on 5/27... and I'm hoping for a quick (hahaha) insurance approval...
Gosh.. I read so many peoples stories.. .can't wait til *I* am one of those success stories!!!!
May 26, 2003
wrote a letter for my surgeon and insurance co if needed just describing my a little bit of my life... thought I'd add it here too It's long!!
When I was in the 4th grade, I knew then I was different than everyone else. I was in a 4th /5th combo class. As part of our health class, we were weighed at the beginning of the year. Not only was I the heaviest child out of the 4th graders, I was the second heaviest of the 5th graders. I was 109 lbs. Most of the other children were in the 80 pound area. I continued being the biggest child in my class throughout junior high and on to high school.
It was when I was a sophomore in high school that I discovered “dieting”. By the time I was 16, I was over 200 pounds. I joined a local health club and started doing fad diets such as The Beverly Hills Diet (pineapple diet) and The Cambridge Diet (protein drink). I stayed with these types of diets throughout high school and went from my all time high of 220 down to 180 when I graduated.
In college I got to pick my PE classes and took Conditioning classes. I also found out that if you didn’t eat, you could lose weight pretty quickly. I got down to 160 by starving myself and doing excessive exercise. I really thought is was an OK thing to do until I passed out in the shower one day.
I got married at 20 and was still holding out around 175-180lbs. After I got married, I started putting weight back on. During the first few years of marriage, I tried Weight Watchers (exchange plan) and Nutri Systems…. Then back again to Weight Watchers were I got to 175 again after hitting 220 once again.
I got pregnant in Oct 1989... I weighed in at 199 … that was the last time I have seen under 200 pounds.
With my baby, I gained 60 pounds… lost 20 pounds fairly soon afterwards. … In Oct 92 I was pregnant again … and at that time weighed 230 pounds…. My doctor suggested that I see a nutritionist , which I did… With that pregnancy , I gained 40 pounds.
I started seeing a “diet doctor” where I was prescribed phentermine. I did that on and off until Feb 1996 when I changed doctors and began taking phen/fen. I had gained weight back to 270 by then. By the end of 96 to the beginning of 1997 I was back down to about 220. Phen/fen was then taken off the market. Within 8 months, I had gained back all that I lost and more! I was horrified when I joined Weight Watcher (yet again!!) to find out I was over 300 pounds!!!
I struggled with Weight Watchers on and off for about a year, as well as The Zone (as suggested by my physician) . At church, they started up a bible based weight loss program called the Weigh Down Workshop. I tried that … and being a Christian, I felt like a failure not only at weight loss …but also as person trying to have a relationship with my Lord!
From there I subscribed online to Ediets… (this was 2001).. .for 2002 I switched over to Weight Watchers online.
It was in January of 2003 that I saw my PCP and asked about Meridia… I knew that something had to be done. He suggested WLS saying that Meridia may help for about 30 pounds, but I’d most likely gain it all back.. I needed something more permanent.
I started researching WLS back in 1997. My husband was completely against it… I knew it had come a long way, but he wasn’t ready for that kind of drastic measure. It was after Dr. Bob suggested the surgery and research that he agreed it was my last chance for a healthy life.
I had never heard of co-morbidities… but while researching, I kept finding symptoms that I was dealing with.
I had to have surgeries on both knees in 1999. I knew from that that I had arthritis in both knees. (surgery was for lateral release and meniscus repairs on both) . In 2001, I had a hysterectomy. I had had problems with my period for quite a long time … now looking back on the medical records I obtained for the WLS, it appears most of my problems (as noted) were weight related.
I have gone to the MD for plantar fascitis. (not that I knew what it was…thought I broke a toe!! !!) Also have arthritis in my toes, and I’m sure my ankles aren’t far behind.
I have quite a bit of edema (pitting at time) in my legs/ankles. I have lower back pain (that has just started within the past year). I have reflux which I take Prilosec for prn. I did have a test and they couldn’t duplicate the reflux … but it seems to come and go for weeks at a time.
With in the past year, my blood pressure has been staying around 140/90... So I am borderline hypertension. I also take Lipitor for cholesterol… my HDL is below 35 and puts me w/in heart attack risk.
I have a horrible family history… My mother had breast cancer (as well as her aunt), kidney disease, stroke, hypertension and death because of heart attack at 62yrs. She battled obesity throughout most of her life.
My father had diabetes, heart disease, hypertension, was morbidly obese and also died due to a heart attack at 63 yrs. His mother and sister both died of complications of diabetes and obesity.
My parents both died in March 2001... Mom on the 8th… .Dad on the 28th …. When this happened, my world fell apart. I was an orphan as 36. I was MUCH too young to lose my parents. It made me take a hard look at my life. I have young children who I’d like to live to see grow up. I’d like to be healthy!! I’d
Like to be able to participate actively in their lives. At this time, at this weight, it is impossible to keep up with them.
I know WLS is my only hope. I have tried desperately to lose weight. Listed above is the majority of the diets tried… but not all… I have lost weight and regained more each time. I need help! I need the surgery to let me live.
5/27/03
I had my consult today... first of all was pleased to find I've dropped 11 pounds since Feb.. (whoohoo) ...
The consult was great... I didn't have a lot of questions since i've been researching for quite awhile but he spent a lot of time explaining the procedure.. .the possibilities of complications etc...
He feels I should have no problem getting my insurance coverage and we are penciling in the first week of July as a surgery date.... WHOOHOOO!!!....
June 6
Hello God...it's me again
not feeling so patient today....
FINALLY got in touch with the drs office.. she seemed bothered that I called... yes she knew I had left messages but has been too busy to call back...
yes she knows that I have to be back at work before 8/27 because another employee is going out for surgery (not wls) and she is just sorry ...but even if dr told me he could pencil me in ... she can't until she has auth...
NOT TO MENTION... the girl who does insurance wasn't there... she can see my stuff is all together... but can't tell if it has been submitted... sooo... she asked that I call back on Monday.
bla bla bla!!
(anyone have a wine cooler out there???) LOL
switched surgeons to Dr. Coirin in Manteca...
I saw him on ..oh gosh... 6/26 I'm thinking.. (I have no memory brain cells left...)
Dr. Coirin's office is AWESOME!!!! I just love Sonya! I talked to her on the phone and basically whined my story to her.. she got me right in and is working hard to get me authorized...
I do have a surg date... It is July 18... I'm almost scared to get excited... I don't have my auth back from my insurance yet.. (so I'm secretly saying hooray...shhhhh)... Should hear
something back tomorrow.. or maybe Monday since we have a holiday this week!
Went in for an EKG today... my heart looks beautiful! !!... I go in on 7/8 for a 3 hour meeting at the hosp (i'm thinking its a nutrition thing????? I'm sure she told me... but again... I'm a bundle of nerves lately...
Today is my oldest daughter 13th bday!!! She keeps telling me not to cry!! LOL... wait till she has a daughter of her own! (and it better be a looooooooooooong time from now)... My baby girl will be 10 in 10 days... both big bdays... one's a teen.. ones on the double digits! LOL
I just know this surgery will allow me to be a more active participant in their lives... make sense??
So...that is what is happening here in my life!!
7/8/03
Hi there!!
Holy moly!! what a emotional rollercoaster I've been on today! I had my 3hr nutritional meeting (a 3 hour tour... LOL) scheduled today... So I get up..drive myself to Manteca (ok..its not THAT far... ) and then realize about 1/2 way there that I don't remember the name of the woman I'm suppose to meet with .. or where in the hosp I'm suppose to be... I'm ok with that since Dr. Coirin's office is right across the street.
I stop in to get the info... and my buddy Sonya (i do just love her!) says she wants to make sure the woman is expecting me... I guess generally, if you don't have ins auth.. you don't get "scheduled" and don't go to that meeting... Well.. Sonya is nice and 'bends' rules... but the lady teaching the class... NO WAY... she didn't even want me there... SOOOOOOOO... it was actually ok.. found out I was suppose to have my binder with me and have read it and done a test... well .. I never got a binder.. (have one now..and it was very informative!! )
So... I go home and since I had already taken 1/2 day off I read my book... got to work at 1... and shortly thereafter i got a call from Sonya... She said that my ins (BS) was holding up my auth till I saw a nutritionist.. .and the bad news was that she didn't have an appt til 7/24... (after my scheduled 7/18 surg).... LOL...
Ok.. I'm LOL now..but when she told me, I went into a panic....
I called my ins to see who I could see... and they told me that it wasn't covered anyway so it wouldn't matter.. .but be sure that I submitted it anyway because since it was THEM who asked for it... they'd most likely pay on an appeal...
Now I'm freaking out..there is no way I'm gonna find a nutritionist that will get the info there pronto... I still have preop stuff that has to be done and I'm down to like 10 days.
Well... my boss tells me that we have a nutritionist/dietician working for our company.... To make a very long story short... (yeah I know... like that ever happens with me!!!)... I got in touch with her and she will do it for me tomorrow... I about cried (happy this time...) ...then got so excited that it really is gonna happen that I just about threw up!! nice huh??
So that is my rollercoaster today.. I'm sure I'll have more of these updates in the next few days...
In the meanwhile!! Have a great day!!
7/13
wish I could say I had an answer...can't... in fact... my insurance company asked for a more recent H&P from my md... called them and they were going to send one over... This is getting to be a bunch of cr@p.... I think they just don't want to auth it... My date did get pushed back... they gave me a date in the begining because the ins co told me it was gonna be an easy 48hr turnaround... HA!...
sooo.. now I'm tentatively scheduled for 7/31...
have to say tho.. if that date doesn't work out (because of auth) I'll have to wait until my coworker comes back from her med leave...so then it will be pushed back to Oct...
summer 2003 pic
Sept 14,2003
Yes I was approved... and my surg was rescheduled for 7/31...
then I got this nice note on the bottom of my approval telling me that I was still in the pre existing period of my ins coverage ... and that they could deny payment.. (hows that for a blow)...
SOOO... I postponed my surg until Oct when it would be a covered expense.
In the meanwhile, there isn't much to say... I actually stayed away from the website for awhile.. felt a little let down...
BUT.... my surg is less than a month away now.. It really did go pretty fast...
Got my packet in the mail yesterday.. have my ultrasound on 9/17...
another pre op on 9/29 (since my last one was in July.. guess they're just gonna recheck that everything is ok with me still)
I have to say, I'm getting quite excited again.. I'm so afraid tho that something will postpone it again... Think that is about it...
9/23/03
not that it all isn't personal...but this is...well..personal girly personal... LOL
Had my ultrasound.... I was kinda suprised when they said I'd be having a pelvic one too ...I figured that if it meant I'd have the surgery, I'd do it... (but was confused since I'd had a hysterectomy and the only thing left was my left ovary!!)
(see.. i warned you above!!)
Anyway... got the whole sonogram thing over ... and was counting down days to 10/9!!....
Got a phone call yesterday from Sonia tho... kinda shook my world up a little... seems there is something wrong with my lone ovary...think she said there is a lesion or something like that on there... it needs to be taken care of before my surg (which is scheduled for less than 3 weeks from now)... I have to say.. Sonia is on the ball!! She has me going in to see my gyn on Thurs...
You know....after the whole news... (i talked with her on my cell phone as I was going back into work from lunch)... I sat and cried... no.. not even cried... I BAWLED!!! A couple things when thru my head... first of all.. my surgery could be postponed.... YET AGAIN!!! I'm sure there have been others who've gone thru some reschedules.. but this is getting ridiculous!
Then.. I was thinking.. it will probably have to be removed... so then I go on Hormone Replacement therapy... (will i lose my sex drive.. am I gonna be a raving B*tch trying to get balanced... bla bla)
Then.... I was thinking... what if its cancer... (won't go into all that..but funny I freaked out about not having surgery on the 9th before I thought of anything like the "c" word) which they will rule out I'm sure !!
Anyway... Never a dull moment in my life... I still think its all a bit incredulous...
Called Sonia back after I calmed down.. that is when i found out that she made me an appt with my gyn... and that they MAY be able to do a needle biopsy (ouch).. so we'll see... oh...and she still wants to see me for my second pre-op (since my first surg date was postponed... LOL ) on Monday. I was relieved at that!
9/25/03
went to my gyn appt today... He told me it could be something called a 'functional cyst' that develop during ovulation. He wants me to come in next week (thurs) for another sonogram to see if it is shrinking (they do it right there in the office and he'll see me right afterwards)...If it is, he'll know its a functional cyst (they go away) I also had blood drawn... a CA-125 test to check for cancer.
If it turns out that its not a functional cyst, it may have to be removed. I asked if he and Dr. Coirin could "tag team" on me while I have having my gastric bypass... He's gonna call Dr. Coirin and talk to him about it.
So basically... I'll know something in a week... My surgery is STILL scheduled for 10/9 at this time!! and I'm still hoping that it stays that way!
10/2
OMG..its Oct!! I'm loving this... one week til I'm on the other side!
Btw... had my pre op yesterday... I think I like Dr. Coirin even better! He really is a warm person... and has a sense of humor... love that in a person! He did tell me that if my ovary wasn't cancer... I'd be ok for surg...
Of course, as soon as i got out of the office, I called my gyn (who I have an appt with today) to find out how the CA125 test came back....
Met JulieAnn over at DMC Manteca where she gave me the Success after WLS book (and I'm about half way thru!!) She looks fab!!
Came home.... was reading my book...got a call from the gyn... my test is negative.. whoohoo... tho I do still get to go in today for another sonogram to see the progress of the ovary.
Wanted to say thank you!! for all the prayers sent up for me.. I know the power of prayer is awesome! Thank you again!! (and Thank you Jesus for no cancer!)
10/4 (good buddy! ;)
Ok... Saw my gyn on Thurs for another sonogram... The orig mass was a bit bigger than 7cm... it shrunk down (since 9/17) to a bit over 5cm ...My doc called it a hemorrhagic ovarian cyst. (basically a cyst with blood in it) I guess they happen sometimes when you ovulate. It is shrinking tho so he is just gonna keep an eye on it. I have to go back in December for another sonogram to see how its doing.
Have to say.. I'm pretty darned excited tho... that was my final clearance for my surgery. Just right around the corner now. I have to work on M,T... have Wed off for my bowel prep (lol) and then thurs at 730am .. i'm there!
Well... Its almost 8pm... I did my mag citrate around 130ish.. Thankfully... "things" are slowing down ! I am about ready to get off the puter (i've been on almost all day reading, reading, reading!!....
I need to go pack my bag... and get ready for bed... have to say I'm a bit HUNGRY!!! I've been on my clear liquids since after breakfast (miniwheats ).... I am soooo looking forward to a small amount of food filling me up!!
Anyway... will update when I get home... hugs to all.. thanks again to all who've been praying for me!!
Hi everyone!!
Well.. its done and over.. I"m on the losing side!!
I got checked into the hosp on Thurs am... they got me right in... no waiting at all.. I got into my gown and they started all the paperwork etc.. they got my iv started... got me weighed...(and i was already down 6 lbs from my pre op appt... Ter joked that I didn't have to do the surg afterall.. i could just drink that mag citrate every week or so.. LOL)
They gave me a pre surg 'coctail' so I'd be all mellow... (omg!! i totally forgot the name of the drug... starts with a 'v'... not valium....) anyway... i was feeling pretty darn good... I do not remember them taking me out of that room. I vaguely remember coughing in the recovery room... and i remember them putting me in my room. (ter and deb were there).... duh...versed!! Doreeen was in the pre op room with Ter btw...
I was hooked up to morphine and hydra that first day.. and i was told I wasn't able to get up til about 8 that night. I had quite a few visitors... and I'd say I got to talk to them for about 5min as then the morphine would kick in and I'd go to sleep!! LOL... Got a lot of phone calls too... I really appreciate all the warm wishes too!
I did get up that night... got to walk the halway...and PHEW!!! I was sooo tired!
Friday was pretty mellow... OH... the swallow thinger... Had to go in about 830am that day for the leak test... I got on the table.. took my sip of the stuff... (it was gross.. but not throw up gross)... then they set me upright... that is when i started with the nausea... my poor knees started feeling wabbly... thougth I was gonna end up on the floor! I litterally made it thru by singing praise/worship songs in my head!!
They took the pics.. then let me sit down.. had to wait 5min... then wait again..then more pics in 5 min... no leaks!!! I had to tell you, I was soooooooooooo glad to get that over and done with !!! As I think of it now...my days are running together... think it was that day when I got my drain out... as soon as that happened... my pain was gone... that was the only thing I think that caused discomfort! That was also the day I started with major nausea and had a slight fever at one of my checks... fever was gone by the next check.
Got to come home on Saturday...I deleted the majority of my "loop emails"...should have gone on no mail for awhile...but didn't think of that!
Today is good... I got up and made me my wonderful breakfast of chicken broth (strained chicken noodle soup) and sf jello... I'm still pretty tired... and go thru little bouts of nausea (those of you who've been thru this... when does this subside??) I also BURP all the time!! geesh.. .tell me this will pass!!
Wanted to say thank you to everyone who called, came to see me, sent up prayers, etc!! I really do appreciate it!! and I know I was in God's hands... a very comfortable place to be!!
love and hugs!!
kris
Kristin In Calif
RNY 10/9/03
Ok... so now I'm 5 days out... i have my 1 week appt scheduled with Dr. Coirin... it will be at 930... right after he's done doing surg on my angel Danni!!! I'm so excited for her!
I have to say.. I feel pretty darned good! The only real "PAIN" I have is in my neck/shoulder area.. got that the first night home, and I think it was cuz I slept weird... I left my pillows at the hosp on Sat.. (and I'm weird about my pillows...sleeping with the wrong ones make my neck hurt...LOL) I figured I'd be ok til I went back on Thurs.. (since its 1/2 hr drive away) but after crinking my neck I figured it was time to go get
em!! Deb took me yesterday... (thanks deb!!!)
I am on a med that i only had in capsule... my surgeon told me to break it up and put it in to my jello.... tried it yesterday... think I'm ruined off jello for life!! LOL... it was so gross... called my reg doc and he got an rx for liquid to the longs last night... so Deb (once again) carted me up there to pick it up... Walked around for a bit.. and was pretty
darned tired yesterday... Had my best night sleep since surg last night... think it was a combo of all the walking, no naps... and yes.. my pillows!! !!
I'm still on my liquids... I can have water, broth, sf jello and sf popcicles. Have to tell ya... I've never had any problem drinking water...but now that my pouch (now the name for what is left of my stomach) is so small (and still swollen i'm sure)I'm really having a hard time getting in all my water... My goal is 64 ou... but I think yesterday I probably had... mmm... MAYBE 24 ou... plus about 20 ou broth... and a couple bites of medicine ruined jello ... (shuddering) and 1 or 2 popcicles... (think that comes out to about 5 ou fluid)... so I'm a bit short on the total... but will keep trying (heard that broth becasue of sodium only counts for 1/2)
Food... I get my first REAL food on Thurs.. I get an egg... and if I'm still hungry.. 1/2 piece toast with butter... yum... sounding really good... I have felt "hungry" a few times... after I drink my broth tho... i'm done!! Last night tho, I'm watching Hollywood Homicide... and Harrison Ford's charactar has a hamburger that he's complaining about the mayo.. .OMG!! it looked sooooooo good!! Think that may have been my first real HEAD hunger... I know one day again, I'll have a hamburger so I'll just remember to look at it that way...
For my first month, I'll be on soft proteins... eggs, cottage cheese,cheese, soft turkey or chicken , lentil, split pea soup, fish, stuff like that... string cheese never sounded so good!!
Lets see... weight loss.. I'm not sure of anything yet... but I do know for sure that since my pre op, (as of Sat), I'm down 9 lbs... I'm sure as of Thurs, that will increase!!!
oh get this.. i have ANKLES!!! all that water weight coming out of me was from my ankles!!! they feel weird!! LOL
Other than that... life is good.. no real 'complications"... got a bit 'coughy' last night and felt feverish.. so of course, I assumed i was getting pneumonia!! (started back on my breathing toy that i got for pre/post op)... funny how a little scare makes you do what you're SUPPOSE to do!
Oh... my incision sites are sooo itchy!! but I hear itchy means healing!! so I'm healing... also, I'm apparently allergic to adhesive... the bandaid thingers they used over my holes are all red, raised and blistered... yeouch... have vit e tho... so that helps some!! OH!!! my mole that I had taken off... I get the stitches out on Thurs too.. whoohoo!!! to me it still looks a little raised...but Dr. Coirin said it will flatten out...
Aside from that... I'm right where expected I'm sure... a bit slow on the water intake... a bit dizzy..
(feel like i'm on a starvation diet) !! but my caffeine w/drawl
headaches are gone... and life is good!!
10/25/03
Had a get together with other wls peoples!! Had a great time!!
Carrie, Andrea, Denise B, Stephanie, Danni and Abigail, Bev and hubby, and Sabine came... We had lots of great food for lunch... Made me think of different things to make for dinner too!!
Am already looking forward to the next one... I'm just kicking myself that I didn't get any pics... (and darn it... I had my camera out......
Andrea is scheduled for her surg in Dec... I think she got to hear in great details what we've been thru and even more so from the further out peoples!! I'm excited for her upcoming surgery!! It will be here sooo fast!!!
Anyway...think I'm gonna take a short nap... gotta love em!!
11/4
Had my (not quite) 1 month appt today ...I'm down 24lbs in 26 days. I have to say.... I'm a bit disappointed not at the overall loss... but a few days ago on my scale, I was down about 4 more lbs... whats up with that!? Dr. Coirin said it just depends on your water weight that day... weird...guess that is a REMINDER for me to stay away from my home scale!! LOL ANYWAY... I went to Curves afterwards and I've lost 17 inches... Ok.. I feel better with THAT!! lol!!!
Bust: -2" Waist: - 5.5" Abdomen: -4" Hips: - 3.5"
Thigh: -1" Calves: -1" and my big ol arms are still the same!
Not bad for starters huh?!!!
11/12/03
I'm back at work again.. .Started back on Monday... Have to say that I get tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiired... .really easy.. I think it will be good for me tho... Ter and I have been walking the past few nights... My arch is killing me... I have plantar fasciitis (sp??) and it is really hurting bad lately... I think I may have to break down and get some supports?? I have good walking shoes.. shouldn't have this problem.
Oh.. for those of you who know Stephanie... We went out shopping Sunday night.. .It was a special shopping night at Macy's... well, we're standing in line to get in and some streaker runs by!! I about died!! (i LOVED it)... had to start the crowd with cat-calls!! (whoooohoooo)... hehehehe...
Oh..stepped on the scale this morning.. according to my scale I'm down 30lbs.. Not bad!!
I got my calcium wafers in the mail yesterday... OMG>>they are sick!!! You have to eat 4 of them to make a serving... I can hardly choke down ONE!! What I did find that i like tho is propel water... especially the lemon.. .yum....
Think i may have to get brave and try some pills for calcium intake.. I know I can't take those crappy things... (barf!!)
11/29
Hope everyone had a good holiday... I'm in the middle of 5 days off work.. and LOVING it..
Thanksgiving was good...We had dinner with our friends... it started out that we were just gonna do Horderves (or as I refer to as.. scooby snacks!!) but the menu got bigger and bigger and we pretty much had a normal Turkey feast... Was fun putting bites of everything on my plate...certainly didn't finish it all!! Went to another friends house for dessert.. I contributed a chocolate caramel pecan cheesecake (omg.. the calories in that thing!!!) and even tasted a couple bites of it.. (i don't have sugar probs) It was fantastic!! i know that had I not had the surgery, I would have gorged myself and been miserable!!
As of this am, I'm down 41 lbs... not bad for 7wks and couple days... I still look at other peoples weight loss and am astounded at how fast their losing... I know I'm a slower loser (as compared to how much I have to lose)... but the results will all be the same in the end...
What trips me out is the dropping of my bmi.. started at like 52.7 ...now I'm in the 46's I think... amazing! OH!! I'm off my lipitor too.. whooohoo...
12/9
today was my 2month check up... I am down 44lbs... My bmi has gone down about 7 points... amazing!! I feel good... I can pretty much eat anything... I'm not nearly as tired as I used to be... Life is good.
Weird thing tho... this morning I started freaking out cuz it was 'weigh in day'... I was so sure I'd make the doc upset that I haven't done well enough... how pathetic is that?!?! I think I've screwed up my head from so many years of dieting that I panic at the moment of truth weigh in... weird weird weird...
12/15/03
OMG!! I dumped BIG time yesterday....cookies are evil!! My daughter made choc chip cookies... of course i had to partake... yum yum yum... about 20min later I was sick!! bad sick!! I swear, I felt like my guts were tied in knots!!
Went to bed early (after a nice tub soak) cuz I felt so icky.. and woke up this am STILL feeling like crap!!! I started wondering if I had the flu...but after I talked to Sonja, she said that the dump feeling could go to the next day.... HOLY MOLY!
On a GOOD note, I actually hit the 50lb mark... I'm sure the dumping actually helped in clearing out my system.. (sick!!) Lets just say... I won't be eating choc chip cookies anytime again soon... (shuddering thinking about them)
12/22/03
I'm pooped!! I just finished wrapping millions of presents!! Ok.. maybe not MILLIONS...but way too many... !!
I had the BEST weekend!! Sat was a nice Christmas dinner with my siblings. We have gotten together every Christmas eve for the past 5 years or more... really made it a priority after mom and dad died in '01... This time we were a bit early cuz I won't be home for Christmas eve.... It was awesome tho!! I was on my feet all day baking and cooking and running here and there... My foot KILLED me at the end of the day (i have that plantar fascitis.. yeouch) but ya know what... There is NO way that I would have had that kind of energy 2 months ago! This surgery has been such a blessing!!
Another blessing in my life has been the WONDERFUL people that I consider to be very close friends, that I've met on this board! I had lunch on Sunday with 2 of my favorites ...Denise and Stephanie. I got a beautiful platter (love foo-foo stuff that I never treat myself to) from Stephanie and she also brought me this awesome silver coat for me to take to the snow (we're going to a cabin for Christmas) I'm gonna be sooo toasty now!... My buddy Denise gave me the coolest scarf... you know..the neck warmer one!! It is soooo me!! (never had one and can't wait to wear it!!!) and some bath/body works lotion and bubbly bath!!! Love that girly stuff
What a treat you girls are!!!
Again.. I just want you all to know what a blessing you are to me... I read everyones profiles... and even if I'm not chatting you up, I'm keeping up on you all!!
Hugs and Love!!!
kristin
12/28
What a WONDERFUL vacation we had!!!!!! It was better than I ever could have imagined... Will do a short version here tho as to not take up all the room... (think the pic is large and may do it to tho)
We went up to Arnold, Ca for a white Christmas (yes ..we have to drive to snow!) I have to admit... I was a little pessimistic on Christmas Eve that it would happen since it was raining ...and apparently had been POURING all day long. Went to bed on Christmas Eve... woke up at 430 to go peak outside... and it was still raining... I was sooo sad!! Finally got up with the kids before 6am... and guess what ... It was snowing!
It was amazing to me!!! A white Christmas!!!
Got to go play in the snow!!! Even rode an innertube and sled down hills... not to mention got pushed in the snow etc... I told my hub that there was no way that I'd have had the energy to do what I did before my surg...and that was just a bit over 2 months ago!! What a transformation of my life!!!
We had a wonderful time... Can't wait to go play in the snow again!!! I'm already planning to take snow ski lessons next year.. (still too big this year!!)
We just got home today... and I haven't weighed yet... but I know for a fact, this is the first Christmas Holiday that I've EVER lost weight!! LOL...
Merry Christmas Everyone!!
1/9/04
Happy 3 month anniversary to me!!
Wow... I am amazed at the tranformation in my life so far!!
I am down 63 lbs (per my scale) and feeling good!!! I have more energy and suprisingly, I'm not "obsessed" with food.. LOL
(ok ...maybe I am?? I have this drive now to take cooking classes.. want to make the best tasting food for the little amount I can consume! LOL) The past few days I've been a bit more tired than normal... think all the holidays have caught up to me!! ugh!! but a good nights sleep will take care of that I'm sure! Had my blood drawn and will be seeing Dr. Coirin next Wed...I'm feeling pretty certain all is well in that dept too.
Oh...back before i had my surgery, they found I had a growth or something on my one lone ovary... (on my pre surg ultrasound) well.. I went in a couple weeks later (to my gyn) and it had shrunk a bit... He had me come back in Dec for another u/s... and its growing again... SOOO.. I getta go back AGAIN in 6months to get another u/s done... He wants to keep an eye on it. I told him he won't recognize me!! !!
Anyway... I'm looking forward to seeing everyone on Sat at Stephanie's get-together!!
Was hoping as you read this, you'll stop by my buddy's site and give her a virtual hug... she's my little angelette... and is having her surgery on 1/13. She's a little nervous and needs some encouraging words!! Thanks in advance!!
ca 1980
Jan 13, 2004
Greetings!! I saw Dr. Coirin today... I'm down 61 lbs (64 on MY scale!!). He says I'm doing great... I started freaking out again that I wasn't losing fast enough. I know what I've lost is phenominal... there is NO way I could have lost this much w/o wls... I just freak that I won't get down to a normal weight before "the window closes"... know what I mean?? He says I should have no prob as I still have 15 more months of losing time. SOOO>> I feel better...
I am doing great.. I feel great... my labs are great... I am losing hair..to be expected... the only "weird" thing going on with me is blurred vision... asked him about it.. not really thinking it was wls related..but he said its a common side effect for rapid weight loss.. guess I should have asked WHY.. but I didn't.. I think I was just relieved that I wasn't going blind!
Another question I had was what he wanted to see me weigh.. and he figured I'd be good between 165-175... wow.. I've not been that "little" since I starved myself after I graduated HS... ooh.. that would be soo cool to be there again!
Had a WONDERFUL time at Stephs get together on Sat... Got some great clothes...Love the sweater steph!! and Danni.. love the swimsuits... course.. Neita.. love the rest of the stuff I got from you too! (guess you can say I'm really happy with all the clothes I snatched up... sometimes its a blessing being on the bigger side?? lol lol)
Well.. i'm off to bed...very tired lately...snore!!
Jan 29,2004
Hi there!! Well... I finally come back to update!! Was a little bummed for almost 2 weeks! Was on a nasty plateau!! I'm happy to say that it broke this past Saturday... Funny .. it was the same day that I signed up for the Fat to Fit challenge sponsored by our local radio station B93 and the Brenda Athletic club (As reported on ABC television's "The View," a recent "Self" Magazine survey labels Modesto as the Least Fit City in America) We're getting OFF the list!! We had a major weigh in... and were split up into 4 teams with smaller weigh ins (the group total was 23K lbs!!! our group was "only" 4400!!)
CJ Triplett got a group of 5 of us out there in the freezing cold am!! Stephanie, Danni, Michael, CJ and me. We even ended up on Fox 40 news that night...not to mention the b93 website
Anyway, the first 93 peoples there got a 3month membership at the gym.... I was 43.. and Steph and I braved the freezing temps (ha!!) and got into the 815am water aerobic class on Wed.... the pool was heated but was still coooooold!!
I am happy to report tho... that as of today.. my 16 week anniv
I am down 72 lbs!! I'm pretty darn excited!
My hair is still coming out in mass quantities-Its a good thing I have so much!!
Went to the support group tonight. Everyone is looking awesome!! I love those meetings!! If you've never hooked up with one before..DO go!! They are wonderful, and very informative! Off to bed...night!
2/8/04
I had been experiencing the "blues" lately... wondered if it was because I switched back to pill form fluoxetine rather than my liquid... I switched BACK to the liquid and took a day off to have time alone... and I have to say.. I'm feeling MUCH better.. I'm sure part of it is knowing that going thru some 'blues" is normal... I know it has nothing to do with the loss of being able to eat a lot... I really don't have a problem with that... In fact, its kinda nice knowing that just a little bit will fill me up.. !! So anyway, on Friday I went to see my angelette, Sherri G.... she had her surg on Thurs. She's doing great!! She was so alert!! I was so excited for her!! Stopped off at Loewes on the way home and picked up some paint and started on my bedroom (that I've been putting off for ..oh... 3 years now!! It is amazing to me how much energy I have now!! I did it all by myself!! Well.. I started on Friday... "finished" it yesterday ... but the second gallon of the lighter color is ...well.. lighter than the other gallon (of the same color)...so i have 2 walls to re-do.. I won't do it til next weekend when I'll do part of my bathroom.. .(the sink/tub area).. the following weekend I may do the toilet/shower area..
The good news... (other than finding muscles that I didn't know I had and not being able to move them??) is that I'm down a couple more pounds... My usual weigh in day is Thursdays...but my 4 month anniversary is tomorrow (along with my 19th wedding anniversary)... so i had to peak... (LOL>> what a dork huh?) and i'm happy to report.. I'm down 75 lbs... that is 3/4 of the way to the century club. Granted I have soooooo much more to go... but I can see that century mark right around the corner!!!
2/16/04
Had such a good time at Danni's get together!! It was wonderful to see everyone!! Wished more people would still come ... I know people are busy tho.. sigh! HOWEVER.. next month its a my house!! Truly tho... everyone looked GREAT!! I'm just astounded at the change!! It was so nice to see Demetra. She is having her surg on Wed. and I'm very excited for her!
I have my bunco team mostly "staffed"... just looking for a few more... its a lot of fun!! We'll be playing the 2nd Wed of the month... Anyway... here is the Feb pic of me, Janiece (thanks for the tommy pants!!) and Amy... won't tell you what we were looking at!! (bad Stephanie!!)
2/21/04
Ok.. I'm a happy camper!!! First off, got weird sick on Thursday (no thats not why i'm a happy camper..) I was getting ready for work..stopped and did some email stuff before I left and while I was sitting here, I started spinning!! (ok..wasn't REALLY spinning..but felt like it..) I decided that since I worked with nurses, I'd drop my daughter off at school, go into work and see if maybe I was getting an ear infections or something. Dropped my daughter off at school and went home because I still felt like I was spinning and off balance... was freaked that I'd hit someone!!! Called in to Dr. C. .. he was in surgery... but left a message with my buddy Karen about what was happening.. (i am one to over react... (no kidding??!!) and I was flipping out thinking I screwed myself up somehow).. They suggested that I drink as much water as poss in the next hour then call back... I was suprised that I could drink a 24ou propel in that short time! Still felt dizzy so they sent me in for stat labs... All my labs came back fine. My daughter came home later that day with an "icky stomache" so I'm assuming it was something viral?? I had a few blisters on my tongue that I didn't even think about mentioning (had originally thought I burnt my mouth or brushed my tongue too hard) Come to find out, a girl I work with.. her mom had the SAME thing happen to her... sooo I'm assuming still its a virus.. I do feel better tho :) ... so why am I a happy camper?? I am down 82 lbs!!!! I had been losing so slow last month that I had been leary of stepping on the scale... did tho.. Thurs I was at 80lb loss.. and I knew I sooo wanted 1 more pound gone so I could change my bmi!! Well.. I'm down 2 more... so my happy camper news... I'm "only" severly obese now!!! LOL I started out as Super Obese.. went to Morbidly Obese.. now I'm "just" severely Obese... ahhh.. looking fwd to the day of being "just" obese or overweight!! LOL
Gonna go meet up with my friend Tina (who has no friends !!) and we're gonna go barge in on Julie S who just had surgery on Thurs... Have a great day all!
2/21 again...
You know... there are always people out there to suck the joy out of life.. I was at the dog park with my pup... and some car drives by and yells 'you gotta fat @ss'... YA THINK??? I am just amazed at rude people... WHY do people feel that they have to tell you something you've KNOWN for your entire life... what you've dealt with your entire life...what you've tried to CHANGE your entire life... amazing... =(
2/27/04
went out with hubby last night... had a great time...
was sporting the tommy Jeans that Janiece gave me .. whoohoo...
oh... Janiece...the Rockys fit now!! WOW!!! tight..but they fit.. LOL
3/10/04
Hit my 5month anniversary yesterday... It is going sooo fast!! I'm down 86.7lbs (gotta add that 0.7lb in there!!) I have made it my major goal to get the next 14lbs off this month so I can hit the century mark by 6months!! What a trip that would be!!
I really am doing well.. Still losing my hair but not as horribly fast as before... It is such a major difference.. I still think I like my thinned hair better!! LOL I really don't have a lot of food problems... I tend to eat a lot of chef or chicken salads... I eat the meat first and some salad.. Its funny tho.. one of those McDs salads can last like 2-3 meals ...lol...
I hadn't been excercising regularly so got off my butt and started up (again) with my buddy Denise B... got in the pool for water aerobics on Sat... Sunday was so busy with my hub .. we walked a lot (home show)and then cleaned out the garage. It was nice to find that I broke my plateau after 2 days of good activity. Its weird.. I KNOW exercise is so important..and I like it once I'm doing it...but doing it in the first place..ugh... will do treadmill or my walk away the pounds dvd today.. My life is so jam packed.. I barely have time to think!
Ok..rambled on enough... Looking forward to seeing everyone on Saturday!!! Hugs!
3/22/04
I'm home!! (betcha didn't even know I was gone huh!!)
My sweet hubby took me to Reno for the weekend... Did I win anything?? heck no... should have just dropped off a check!!
Btw... food choices were pretty easy.... I pretty much ordered off the appetiser or ala carte .... I re-discovered cantelope with my cottage cheese... yum!! I drank TONS of water there... (and diet snapple!! LOL) and I have to say... I did great when it came to food intake... that is until last night... We hadn't eaten dinner... and it was late... so my hub ordered room service... he got ice cream!! YUM! This was my first time really trying it since surgery.... and OMG!!... it was soo good... but made me soooo sick!!! SOOOO.... Ice Cream is evil!! I'll definitely stay away from it!! LOL
Can't wait to weigh in tomorrow... I truly think I broke my mini plateau... I've been sitting at 89lbs for over a week now... I'm certainly not losing as fast as I was the first couple months...but ya know what... I feel great! I had no problem walking all over the place... I LOVED that I could get full on one egg and a piece or 2 of bacon!!! I loved that looking in the mirror didnt make me sad... I LOVED knowing that my @ss would fit in any of the armed chairs... and most of all I LOVED that I had confidence in myself and didn't freak out thinking everyone was talking about how fat I was.... (if I had seen someone looking at me .. I'd just have thought they were people watching!! LOL)
This is an amazing gift... who'd'a thunk it.... a little more than 5month ago, I was miserable with myself... now I feel WONDERFUL!!! Dr. Coirin ROCKS!!!
4/4/4
Greetings!!! today is my hubby's bday.. .he's 41 today...whoohoo for him!! We're having a pizza party tonight.. (i'll eat the yummy stuff off the top!!)
Have to say that I've been doing awesome with my exercise..I owe all the kudos to my buddy Connie Sue... She came out last week and got me walking and we talked about the importance of exercise... now I KNEW the importance...but still..just doing it with someone else who hates it as much as me..LOL... But I'll tell ya what... as soon as I started making it a part of my day, it wasn't so bad... I get up in the am, strap on my am/fm radio (compliments of Stephanie when i was in the hosp) get Lilly's harness on ...and off we go! (btw... Lilly is my dog.. don't want the cps showing up at my home!! LOL) She loves it! I started with a nice 1.2 mile loop... will advance in a week or 2 ....
Today I'm gonna go to the gym and do the water exercise there.. It is much easier on my knees/hips...
Oh...went today and got a comp program to teach the fam Spanish.. yes.. .we're going on a cruise!! I can't wait! This is my first!! whoohoo!!
Umm...went to see Christie I in the hospital last week.... she had her surg... My Uncle Jacky had his surgery last week too... I'm so excited for both of them.
Oh gosh.. .I didn't even tell ya my cool news.. scale started moving again... I'm down 95lbs...getting sooo close to that century club!!! whooohoo!!
4/9/4
Actually, had I not read Denise's 6 month surgiversary yesterday, I think I might have forgotten!! LOL But yes... today is 6month post op....
my changes...
26/28 shirt to a 18/20
28 tall stretch (and i do mean stretched to the max) pants to a 22 button/zip pant
granny panties to boy shorts or cheekies LOL
the appearance of what appears to be bones under my skin! LOL
the "want" to go places... not be a hermit in my house
the ability to walk w/o my body hurting me...
amazing new friendships
and of course, 95 pounds gone...
Easter 2004
well as of this am, I'm down 98lbs... I can barely believe how close I am to the century club... what scares me is what I "SEE" when I look in the mirror.... I'm gross... (no i'm not saying this so people will feel obligated to say that I look fine.... ) I was talking to my bud Connie Sue yesterday and was telling her how much more critical I am of myself now that I was at 351.7 pounds... course, we figure its cuz we didn't look at ourselves then !! LOL
But it freaks me out... I took my 6month pic today ... and while I was looking at it, I truly wanted to cry... I still see a fat face ... huge hips... (the perfect nose and the great smile... see.. I'm not totally down on myself ) What is wrong with me... Ok.. here I go some more... I am almost EMBARRASED to admit I've already lost near 100lbs... My first thought is... "OMG>>> you're STILL huge... " so i'm here in some weird pity party funk.... I'm sure this too shall pass... but OMG>>> weird weird weird...
4/15/04
Ok.. a couple pounds early (2 to be exact).....
For my 100lb loss, i got my belly button pierced!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
Can you beleive it!!! I'm still busting up at it!!!
It really is cute... (the piercing... not my belly!!)
Still cracking up!
June 12, 2004
I can't believe that I haven't updated my posts in so long! Life is so good... I made it to the century club... I think I was about 6 1/2 months at the time it happened.... and now I'm just a few days past my 8months and I'm still hanging in there at -114lbs... (or to be exact -114.7 lbs) lol
I feel awesome!! and incredibly blessed.... I have made some of the most wonderful friends ever because of this site...
I've been to Disneyland and rode ROLLERCOASTER!!.. walked easily thru turnstyles!! (and even found out that I do dump... on sugar free gummy mickeys!! LOL) I got to hang out with Denice B, Kristen M, Connie Sue, Scott and Dolly.... and even Earl showed up a few time...(rofl)
The anaheim get together was awesome... met sooo many wonderful people that I met online....
There have been a few more get togethers.... Stephanies in the park.. and todays at Connie Sue's house... (will be leaving in less than an hour!) We've started a Bunco team... life is awesome.
Had some food "issues" yesterday... don't know what I was thinking but my daughter had tons of junk food left over from her "bbq in the park"... of course, I had to taste stuff... chips and cookies... and for dinner ate mac n'cheese.... and ugh!! it made me sick!! (good!! i shouldn't eat that crap anyway!) Its been MONTHS since I've gotten sick... (i think it was ice cream in reno)... and am I seeing a pattern?? I get sick on food I'm not suppose to eat!! So lets hope that I will not put myself in that situation again (tho I know myself.. and I will try here and there!!) I hate when I find out that I am "human" !!
Anyway.. off to get ready for the festivities today....
Right now I'm wearing shirts that are 18/20 (and even some xl.. so that is 16??) and pants that are 20s... who'da thunk it!!
again I sum it up... life is good!
June 26th at KristEn's house in Bakersfield... we stopped on the way to Long Beach (set sail for a week on Carnival... yehaw.. an awesome vaca!!
August 5, 2004
Well.... I'd never think I'd be one that wasn't updating regularly! But here I am... only my second update since April.. I'm thinking I'll try to be much better! LOL
I started this journey over a year ago... that fateful visit to my pcp to ask for meridia.... Now I'm down about 127lbs... I feel great physically.. i look so much better (tho I'm still needing to lose a lot... I'm 224lbs.. would like to be 170.. would be JAZZED to be 160.. LOl... actually I'll be doing cartwheels (in my mind anyway) when I hit 199. Gosh.. its been since I got preg in 1989 that I was under 200lbs... what a trip.
I'm staying pretty steady at a size 20 pant. .and I wear an XL shirt or 16-18W ... My daughter Meggie gave me some of her old Navy shirts that were too big for her... they fit me fine (a little snug in the bust maybe) lol Blew me away.
I said I feel great physically... Mentally, I'd say this transformation is harder than I expected.. not that I don't like it... that is so not it.... its just that what I was turning into scared me..... I started being a bit of a wild child party girl!....eeks... Not that I'm a prude.... but I was getting a little outta hand for my own good. Won't go into details.. but reality hit home... I had to figure out what was most important to me in life... and that is my family and then my friends... (God first..that is a given ) Was putting my family on the back burner quite a bit... had so much energy and things to do that I was always gone... ...Ok..anyway... I've backed away a bit from the message board... well almost all the way... (i still do lurk a little bit tho )
I've been HUNGRY lately... sometimes head hunger I'm sure... but a plus side to that is that I've really been pushing the fluids and now have NO problem getting in the 64 oz /day.
I'm sure i'm not always making the best food choices..but i'm not totally outta control...
speaking of not the best food choice.. (wink)... i was in dublin yesterday to help an old neighbor pack to move... I had to stop by the Caspers... had me a Caspers dog... (ok... about 1/2 a casper dog... ate the other half for dinner baybeeee!!) That was the BEST hotdog I've ever eaten! yum!!!!
Anyway.. .now I've updated ... oh.. I'm 40 now btw... July 30th was the day.. ! I know that this decade will kick @ss on my 30s!!
hugs and love to all!!
xoxox
Sept 24, 2004
I have to say... I've been at a bit of a plateau lately... I think this last month I MIGHT have dropped 5lbs... if that... I know that I tend to graze somedays... so I need to be more careful with that.
I am still working once weekly with the personal trainer ..then I can't walk for a couple days (haha.. j/k... well kinda... ) I still don't like to work out..but i love feeling my muscles!... the little ouch is good ya know?
I am in 18 pants and xl shirts... i actually bought a pair of pants from Costco!! Can you believe it?! My shirts are normal shirts... but I still find myself thinking i should be in the big girl side... (and I'm sure they'd fit too...but really want to try to get in the habit of buying from the misses area... lets face it..they're cheaper there anyway!)
Don't have any real issues... food or mental... No its not always easy... There are times I really wish I could eat more.. but that goes away in a nano-second when i realize how far I've come. I do tend to wonder if I'll ever be of "normal" size... and I kinda doubt it... I have really slowed down in losing.. and since I had so much to lose, and my window is getting smaller, I doubt I'll get to my most awesome goal of 160 lbs. That is a 'beyond my wildest dreams goal/. (i'm 217 as of this am..and have been bouncing between that and 220 for a few weeks) My 'OMG... how cool would that be goal' is 165-175 ...and my 'REAL goal..I'm gonna get there no matter what' is 199 !!
I do know that I suck getting in my water... and will make that a priority... and I will start posting on the "what did you eat today" question to keep me "honest" (heheeh)
Thats it for now! xooxox kristin
Jan 2, 2005
OMG>>>does that say 2005?? where has the time gone?? I have to LOL.... when I first started this journey, I just KNEW that I would be one to always update my profile.. and look at me... its been months... I am gonna cheat tho and find a post that I put on the board and insert it... I was really going thru some hard times.. just getting down on myself for not being at a "normal" weight.... but had a lot of great answers....
ANYWAY...
I'm STILL stuck in the 214-219 weight range...depending on the day... I know it is my fault too as I haven't exercised in quite some time. (not to mention all the holiday food yummies that have been around)
No resolution for me... but me and my buddy CS are making a health pact !! we're gonna get back to the basics ... use our tool as it was meant to be used...
As far as my health... had an ultrasound last week since I've been having some icky gallbladder problems... hurts a lot of the time... Actually had a nasty 'attack"... OMG!! thank God for leftover vicodin in the house!
Waiting to hear from Dr. C. what he thinks... and if I'll need surg.
*** going backwards.... this is a post I put on the board....
ok..just venting here...
getting ready to go to my "year" appt with Dr. C. I am so procrastinating.... first... it was supposed to be back in Oct... and to tell the truth... had i not been having that bout of nausea after eating and some weird pains here and there... I'd never had made the appt.
Yes... I have lost a lot of weight... by my scale I've lost anywhere
