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Tuesday night, I had my first dream about surgery. I dreamed I had gastric bypass done, woke up in recovery and immediately asked the nurse, if I was first, second, etc..to have surgery done. She told me I was the third one and the last of the day and that the two before me was lapband. I was then rolled to my room and was told my family would be coming to my room in just a little bit. I remember feeling so good like nothing had even happened, no pain or anything. Next thing I know, in walks my mom & grandmother. My grandmother is paralyzed on her left side in real life and can't walk and I remember thinking, Wow!! she is walking, nothing is wrong now. They both walked over to my bed and asked how I felt I believe and then that was the end of my dream.

I had to send a list of my paid out expenses since October to my counselor today. This will kinda decide how much I will have to pay towards the contribution to Voc. Rehab. All of this was based on income. All of the documents in my file was sent to my counselor's supervisor to make sure everything is in there that needs to be and I was told there was only a few things that needed fixed and they have already been corrected. I was then told that the "Letter of Approval", has been sent to the "Top Dawg", so to speak for the final sign off on my case. After his approval, it is a definate "GO" for surgery!! I don't see why it shouldn't be approved since we have made it this far. After this final approval and sign off, I will then be scheduled for my second all day appointment, in which I will find out my surgery date. I will post again as soon as I hear something.

Twas the Night Before Bypass

'Twas the night before bypass,
when all through my gut
not a morsel was stirring,
not even a nut.
The suitcase was packed by the back door with care,
in hopes that a new me would soon return there.
I lay nestled, snug in my bed
while visions of calories danced in my head;
and me in my plus size pajamas and wrap,
had just settled in for a long, restless nap.
When deep in my mind there arose such a clatter,
I sprang from my dreams to see what was the matter.
Away to my fridge I flew like a flash,
ripped open the door and drooled at the stash.
The moonlight reflecting off the beautiful snacks
gave a luster of radiance to all on the racks.
When, what to my wondering eyes should appear,
but an array of the comfort foods I hold so dear.
With a familiar feeling of all those I'd pick,
I thought in a moment I just might be sick.
More lovely than angels their voices they came,
and they whistled and shouted and called me by name;
"Now pizza, now French fries, now chocolate galore
on cheesecake, on ice cream, on donuts and more!"
From the tip of my tongue,
to the end of my toe,
I will miss you all more than ever you'll know.
As an addict that shakes and stirs as he sits,
I'll mourn the loss of my delectable hits.
So back to my bed I went with great haste,
and settled back down with nary a taste.
And then in an instant,
in pre-op I sat,
nervously waiting to no longer be fat.
As I sat deep in thought and adjusted my gown,
In came my surgeon in one single bound.
He was dressed all in scrubs,
from his head to his feet
and he seemed very calm as he eyed me like meat.
He looked at my chart,
with his scope gave a listen,
I don't think he noticed my eyes starting to glisten.
He was chubby and plump -- he could lose some himself,
and I laughed when I saw him in spite of myself.
A wink of his eye and a twist of his head,
soon gave me to know I had nothing to dread.
He spoke barely a word as he prepped for his work,
he paused for a moment,
then turned with a jerk.
And laying a finger aside of his face,
and giving a nod, out of the room he did race.
He checked in the next day,
to his students gave a whistle,
and away they all flew like a down of a thistle.
But I heard him exclaim as he walked out of sight,
"speedy thinness to you and a healthier life!"

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I found out today that the fax about my sleep study was received and  I'm about to be scheduled for my second all day appointment at Georgetown!!  Everything is almost a GO!!! What a christmas present to myself & a way to start out the new year!! I will update when I find out when my second appointment date is. 

Well a letter was faxed to Vocational Rehab from my doctor's office about the sleep study but I was told it can't be used due to the way it was worded. It basically stated that I didn't need the test done because I don't have any medical insurance. It has to state that it is either medically necessary or it isn't. So now we are trying to get another letter fixed with the correct wording.  I was told today that they are ready at Georgetown to get me to surgery but just waiting on the final authorizations from Voc. Rehab. Hopefully, this will be the last bump in the road!! 

I found out a little ago that Voc. Rehab won't be paying for the sleep study after all and that I will have to pay for it. I had been under the impression all along that they would be paying for it. I now have to find out from my doctor if he truely feels it is necessary to be done or not.  I also had to pay for my meds for the H-pylori, which I finished taking on 11/1/07. I will update when I find something out.

I went today and got my stress test and echo done.  It was an all day event!! I probally won't here about the results till one day next week. I feel very confident that they are just fine though. I have only one more test to get done and that is a sleep study and I hope to find out a date for that soon. I admit, it is really starting to hit home now and I am getting a little nervous! It has taken me quite some time to get to where I am today and the waiting has been the hardest part but I know it will all be so worth it in the end. I am very thankful & happy knowing that I am well on my way now to having my surgery done and I will soon be on the loser's bench!!  I will update again soon when I find out more. 

I found out today that I go November 16th (friday) to get my cardiac clearance tests done. I'm still waiting to get my sleep study test appointment. This means I'm another step closer to getting my surgery!!

Dear Fat,
As you know we go way back, to about the 2nd grade. We have had our ups and our downs.  I have fought you for years and years.  You have given me things that at a glance someone would not see, but I am done with you.  Thanks for the blanket over me that hid me when I needed, thanks for no matter what always being there as an excuse but you have wore out your welcome, find somewhere else to go because I am taking my body back. All of it, there is no place for you in my life, you have taken from me things I will never get back, you have stole from me, and for all the negative things you have done I truly hate you and refuse to let you be with me.  you have taken from my family, my friends, my husband and even my children.  Oh and how it will be great when your gone. I can sit in any chair, I can run, I can be free, I can have a sense of fashion, I can ride the rides with my children, I can show my girls how to be in control of themselves and be confident.  I have to face my greatest fear for you and on surgery day I WILL! I will face it to retrieve the things that seem so long gone and things as a women I have never experienced because you have held me back.  I can experience a sense of health, a real bear hug, a feeling of self worth of being average in size and being above average in life.

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#1 - Do this for 10 days to break a plateau

#2 - Drink 2 quarts of water a day

#3 - You must have 45 grams of protein supplement and all your vitamins/minerals supplements each day

#4 - You may consume up to 3 oz of the following high protein foods, 5x a day

beef
pork
chicken
turkey
lamb
fish
eggs
low fat cheese
cottage cheese
plain yogurt or artificially sweetened (?)
peanut butter
beans/legumes

You may also have:

sugar free popsicles
tea or coffee
sugar free soda
sugar free jello
broths/bullion (sp?)
crystal light drinks

#5 - If it's not on the list, you can't have it for 10 days!!!!

#6 - Keep a food diary and try to get up to 30 mins of exercise daily