going along

Dec 02, 2012

So I am 4.5 months post op and I've lost 84 lbs. So exciting and yet frustrating too. I can see my clothes looser and find myself buying a new pair of jeans here or a sweater there, but if I was honest with myself, I am still not seeing the loss. I guess I didn't see myself the way I was before and now my body looks the way I thought I looked already. Does that even make sense? I never saw myself, really, as overweight as I really was and so these changes seem so slow to me. I guess I really did think I would wake up 3 months post op and see a skinny, beautiful woman in the mirror. Instead, I still see myself. But I will say, I think I'm looking better each week and month that goes by so I am beginning to really see myself and like what I see.

I struggle with drinking water, even though I drank lots of water before the surgery. I think this is my way of rebelling or something. I have to work on getting water, vitamins, and exercise in EVERY DAY not just "most of the time". It's true that old habits don't go away with the surgery and my need to sabotage myself is still there but I'm working on it.

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