laughingnikki
Greetings and salutations! I've always wanted to begin that way...so I finally got it out of my system.
I'm knocking on the door of being 35, I'm a two time cancer survivor, (diagnosed at 27 and 32). I'm sad to say that I thought, when the doctor told me that I would have to undergo chemotherapy treatments, heck yeah...at least I'll lose weight. Well, that was flawed thinking, not only for the obvious reason, but because it didn't work! My system was in such disarray, I probably lost 10-15lbs. I was mad! All of that craziness and virtually no weight loss! I went on steroids shortly after chemo and of course gained all of that weight back PLUS - OF COURSE! So, here I am....8 days from my 35th and just disgusted with what I have done to myself.
I never ever ever ever thought that I would consider weight loss surgery, as I have had some issued with surgery in the past. I was absolutely offended when my oncologist told me "just have gastric bypass," in passing. He said it like..."hey, nice haircut." Which made me say...not even a chance, I'll do that! JERK! Anyway, I have been working on weight loss for the past 8 months and again am about 10 lbs down, so frustrated. So, I started a new job in February, and when it was time to look at benefits I found that my new insurance covers the surgery. WHAT, could it be??!?!?! Talked to my nutritionist, pcp and my pulmonologist all said go check it out, I think you're a good candidate. So, I went to an info session a week ago and have made an appt with the surgeon. (7/19/10) I'm trying to get all of the other tests done if not, at least scheduled prior to this meeting so I can be closer to "go" day. Since I've already completed 8 months of medically supervised weight loss, the surgeons office said, surgery could come as quickly as 3 week. I could only dream that it would happen that quickly.
Anyway, being unhappy with my body is not all of who I am. I'm married to a wonderful man and we have the cutest dog ever! We are trying to figure out what it means to live a life without the ability to have children, and we are doing it very quietly..hehehe. I'm an easy going kind of gal and love to laugh. I work for a school that is attached to my church. I have lived a life devoted to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and love to share the love that is given to me. I love each person I meet right where they are, without judgment. So, if you aren't a believer, I respect your decision as I would hope that you would respect mine.
If you're still here, and you have any advise...pass it along, it's much appreciated!
Peace,
Nikki
