I used to think that I looked good......Oh boy!

May 30, 2007





This is me in may of 2006, Feeling misirable. I just found this picture in an old email from a work cinco De Mayo Party.... It's enough to make me cry!

3/8/07

Mar 08, 2007

Well, it's been a looooonnnnggg time! 

I am down to 228 from my consult weight of 325. Weight on day of surgery was 299. I guess that I am happy with that. I really can't complain. I'm doing well. Trying to exercise and get my protein in. The exercise part has been very hard to do. I've been working 10-12 hrs a day since January. (It's tax season- yeah for me) And my 5 yr old is now playing t-ball, so that has been taking up 2 nights a week and Saturday morning. But, I'm trying to get back on track this week. Another thing that I have unfortunately found is that I can eat just about anything. But, I don't. And, I never have that "full" feeling. This is a scary thing. I'm very concerned. I have not lost any weight in a month. I only lost about 6 inches last month. So, I'm worried. Worried that this is it. That I'm not going to make my goal. I just need to keep working at it.

12/7/06

Dec 06, 2006

I'm feeling a little better these days, went back on my Cymbalta and already see a difference. I'm starting to feel alot better about the progress that I've made so far. A real eye opener is when you have more clothes on boxes or bags than you do hanging in the closet. I can no longer get away with safety pinning my pants.... lol

People are really starting to notice too. Many people from work have been commenting and telling me how great I'm looking. I'm usually not one that likes attention, but I'm learning to embrace it. 

I have my big formal christmas party for my company comming up on Saturday. I am kind of excited about going because I look great in my dress. Last year, I didn't go because I was so uncomfortable with myself. It helps that the dress is 4 sizes smaller that what I would have worn last christmas.

12/4/06

Dec 04, 2006

I am so depressed. There are just so many things going on, Financial troubles, marriage troubles, problems with my 5 year old son, the possibility of losing my job to outsourcing (India). I am just not in the Christmas spirit. I am not doing any of the "fun" christmas things that I usually do. Have thought about NOT putting up a tree this year. But, with a 5 year old child, that's not going to work. I have absolutely no modivation to do anything this year. All that I do is cry, if I'm not crying, I'm angry. I'm not sure what to do. Prior to surgery, I was on Cymbalta, but stopped taking it after surgery, because I thought that I no longer needed it and felt fine without it. Now, I'm not so sure.  I'm hoping that I can still have a happy holiday. 

The good news, My BMI went from 49.4 Extremely Obese to 38.6 just Obese. I have lost 72 lbs so far. I barley notice any difference......

11/3/06

Nov 03, 2006

Wow, It's been a long time since I last posted. Not alot has really changed though. I have been back to work for 3 weeks. 3 long weeks! It was so hard to go back after being off for a month! I can't ask for a better group of people to work with though. They are very supportive and encouraging. They don't act like the food police, questioning everything that I put in my mouth. 

I have lost about 57 pounds or so. I stopped getting on the scale every five minutes! So, I'm not sure of the exact amount. I know that I have really lost some inches. When I go to the gym, I will have them measure me. Then, I'll know for sure.

I'll keep you  posted!

Laure

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Oct 15, 2006


9/6/06

Well, after several years of research and deliberation, I have finally decided to have RNY procedure. I have been to every information session for every doctor in South Florida. Although, I really like Dr Paul Wizman, he is just too far for my family to travel. I have chosen to have my surgery with Dr Miguel Lopez-Viego. He is a great surgeon, but, is fairly new at bariatric surgery. He is  being "trained" by Dr Wizman. So, I all really worked out.

I had absolutely no problem with my insurance. I was appoved with a date in about a day. Things are going very quickly. My surgery date was moved back two weeks because Dr Wizman had to speak at a confrence. I will say this, it's like having a part time job going to all of these appointments and labs. I have to write myself notes, reminding myself where I need to be. My job has been very cool about everything and so far, very supportive. My family is supportive, but scared. My husband's family is very negitive about this and think the worst. So, I'm no longer discussing it with them. They're bringing me down. If they can't be supportive, then, they don't need to know.

I'm looking forward to so many things.....here are just a few.....

* Not feeling like everyone is staring at me, in social situations
* being able to find cool clothes, somewhere other than lane Bryant
* Fitting into a booth at a resturaunt, without my boobs resting on the table   lol
* Fitting into the seat of a roller coaster
* Being able to play and run with my son
* Not needing an extender on an airplane, which is the most   embarassing thing in the world to me.
*Fitting in a theatre seat without the arm rests digging into my sides.

Well, I'm off to my pre op visit at the hospital, an appointment with my PCP and an appointment w/ the surgical coordinator. I'm a busy girl!

Talk to you soon,
Laure

9/7/06

Yesterday was a busy day! I had my last visit w/ my PCP before surgery, for blood work etc..., my pre op at the hospital. Which was a million questions, instructions and more bloodwork. And, my meeting with the surgical coordinator to go over the surgery, the diet etc... So, I'm ready to go. I told the surgical coordinator that I was nervous. She said " Good, that means that you're smart, you've done your research and you know what to expect. And, you also know the best and worst case senerio, which will make you successful with your new tool." Makes me feel better, cause she is right. I have researched this, for years. And I know what I need to do to be successful.

I started this journey to WLS at 325 pounds. As of yesterday, I was 299. This could be in part because I have been on the pre op diet for 3 1/2 weeks! My surgery was postponed 6 days before, so this is my 4th week of the pre op diet. Not to say that I haven't cheated here and there. But for the most part , I've replaced 2 meals a day w/ a protein shake and have one low carb, low fat meal a day.

Talk to you soon!

Laure

9/8/16

Well, were here at the final countdown, 3 days to go. I saw my surgeon today. Just for the final meeting, any questions?, etc... I'm felling pretty at peace right now. I had just about every emotion there is. I've been scared, anxious, nervous, angry and now very calm. I'm ready for this surgery and my new life!

Unfortunately, my brother in law, my husband's brother is not doing so well. He is 50 years old and has had liver problems for years. due to too much drinking in his youth. He has been on the transplant list for a few months. He had to have emergency surgery on Sunday night to remove part of his colon, because he was septic. Which is not good. Now, his kindneys and liver are both failing. His BP is very low. The Dr spoke to my husbands family yesterday about his chances of making it through this and asked if anyone knew his wishes. Of course, no one knows, including his wife. Hospice came to visit and my husbands sisters (he has 5 of them) sent them away. Saying that he doesn't need hospice. So, the last week has been sad and dramitic (the latin sisters). I love my brother in law, but, I don't want to see him suffer because his family can't let him go.
We'll see what the weekend brings.

Talk to you soon!
Laure

9/10/2006

Well, tomorrow is the big day! I have followed my clear liquid diet all day. I have to be at the hospital at 6 am! I'm anxious. Only because I've never had any type of surgery. And, it's been a very emotional week. My brother in law just passed away last night. I had to seperate myself from the family today. There was just too much drama. No life insurance. No money. There are 7 brothers and sisters and it is now on our shoulders to pay for this. Which we cannot afford! I had to leave the family meeting today, because I wanted to give everyone a piece of my mind.

Will update as soon as I can!

Laure

9/18/2006

Well, I have been home from the hospital since Wed, 9/13. I had a small complacation due to the fact that my live was still very large, even after losing 26 pounds prior to surgery. So, I was in surgery a little longer than I was suppse to be and have a huge nasty bruise on my right side. I did have to spend 1 day in the SICU. But, it wasn't so bad. Things are going well. I did pass out on Friday. This was because I "over did it". I was trying to help my husband get ready for his brothers funeral and just went to run an errand with him. We got home and I passed out. So, back to the hospital I went. For more bloodwork. Which all came back normal. So, I was on lock down all weekend. I wasn't allowed to be alone all weekend and had to call the surgical coordinator daily. I have been staying at my parents house to recover, since their house is easier to manouver around. But, I think that I may go back home tomorrow.

I am already "mourning food". It doesn't help that every other commercial on TV is about some new fast food etc....

Talk too you soon,

Laure

9/24/06

Hi everyone!
I feel really silly. I just posted on the main board that I feel like a failure already at 13 days/ 15 pounds out. I think that I am just going through something. I'm calling it my cry baby stage. I don't know what else to call it. Not really depression. Very emotional. Still mourning food, My very best friend in the whole world. I'm bored at home. I have another 2 weeks off from work. I'm getting paid for them, so why go back already? I need something to keep my crazy mind occupied for the next two weeks! My husband isn't alot of support right now.... he's in his own little world since his brother died. Which is understandable.

Laure


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