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lillbitofsin 19 years, 4 months ago

***UPDATE*** 2/7/05- I just got off the phone with Dr Boorse's office my surgery is scheduled for 3/16/05. I am both excited and nervous. I dont have an Angel, and really dont know how to get one.... Can anyone tell me how?

Diane B. 20 years, 8 months ago

Hi Robin - So glad to hear you are okay? I'm so sorry that surgery didn't happen yesterday, but I'm glad that your doctors cared enough about you to stop the surgery. They weren't out to just make a buck. Stay strong, keep positive and work on quitting smoking. From this experience you know they can tell if you really stop smoking or not. Now just sit back and regroup. Start making a new plan and start back on track to get that surgery. It will be yours soon. Your health is so important. I'm praying for you today that God will give you the strength to go forward with trying for surgery again and to curb those cravings for the cigarettes. It's a hard road to take. I only wish you success. Maybe this setback will help you to give up smoking. Please don't feel bad, we're all human. I look forward to hear about your progress. Keep us posted. Big hugs and squeezes to you today! God bless, DI from NJ

lillbitofsin 20 years, 8 months ago

***UPDATE*** LONG POST AHEAD---Today is 9/18/03, and my surgery was scheduled for yesterday... It did not happen and hear is what yesterday brought. I arrived at the hospital at 5:55 AM and went immediately upstairs to the 5th floor where preparations began. I had to shower from head to toe with bentadine (spelling?). After that was done they started my IV and began administering antibiotics, they then gave me a shot in the belly, apparently it was antibiotics for the abdomin. Once that was finished about 7am I was taken downstairs to the 2nf floor to wait for the Dr to arrive and surgery to begin, at this point I had to say goodbye to my family and was crying, it's very scary. Once in the pre-op/recovery room another tech came in and drew some more blood for one final lab which I learned was a pregnacy test, which by the way I started my period on Monday, joy joy. Then I spoke with the anisthesiologist and he told me that once I was under they would start a arterial line (which goes straight into the main artery and helps get a more accurate blood pressure). Finally at about 8:15 am my surgeon arrived and came over to see me, told me that the pulmonary specialist would be visiting me post-op, and told me that my pulmonary test was a little off. At that point my surgeon said you didnt quit smoking did you, I told him no that I had tried but failed, he was very disappointed and told me he has cancelled several people for this same thing, I told him I know that but really wish he would proceed. He thought for a moment and said ok but any pulmonary porblems post-op I own(meaning it will all be on me) I said I know and understand that and he said ok. He went and told the nurses he wanted to get a blood gas and went to talk with my family. Now this is where things got bad. He says he couldnt find my family however they never left the waiting room and were exactly where the nurse told them to be so how noone was able to find them eludes my husband and parents. Any ways back in pre-op a nurse came to get the blood gas, which was the ONE test I was paranoid of. SHe could not find the radial pulse and didnt want to start at all until she could which I was appreciative of. At that point another nurse/Dr I am unsure what he was came by and asked her if she was doing a radial and she said yes but she couldnt find it, he came over and and checked my left wrist and said here it is, she switched and still couldnt feel it and he showed her where it was, she said ok he left and she began trying to get it.... Well let me tell you this hurts. It isnt something that you can not get through but it does hurt. Once the needle is in it literally feels like they are trying to pull your artery out of that whole. She tried and tried and still couldnt get it after about 15 mins I couldnt take it anymore and told her so and she stops immediately which was great. I think they know exactly what they are doing and how bad it is and once I said I cant take it she stopped. At that point the other man came and he had them administer a sedative and tried again, still couldnt get it and it was still very painful. He pulled it out and was going to get 2 more doses of the anesthesia and try again but I had to pottie so I went and did that. Now here is where things gets really fuzzy. When I came back he had a huge machinge hanging up where the IV goes and I asked what that was. He said it was the Arterial Line, I said but the anesthesiologist said that wouldnt be done til I was asleep, he said I know it normally isn't however we are having such a hard time getting a blood gas that we are going to start the line now. OK I guess what do I know. I know that I never in a million years thought that I could handle the blood gas test but did that. so ok lets go. Well omg... Pain with a capital P. such a weird painful thing.... He still couldnt get it... So now we can't get the AI and we can't get the Blood gas test. At this point things gets really fuzzy. I remember the anesthesiologist coming over and beign quite upset that they were trying to get the A Line in while I was awake. I remember another guy tapeing down my right wrist and starting to try getting the blood gas from there. So now I have 1 guy onmy left trying to get the A line in and one on the right trying to get the blood gas. I don't really know what happened after this point. But I remember several people being above me and my surgeon saying to everyone to just stop. He came over to me and told me that he could see a blue tint to my face and that he wasn't going to proceed, that he knows I want to but he was cancelling my surgery. Well I began crying again. And going in and out. I think at this point I was taken back upstairs to wait for my family. And at the end I ending up coming home. I do recall my surgeon telling me that we could try again in the future or if I wanted to go to another surgeon I could do that too. Of course being completely exhausted and distraught that the surgery was not going to happen all I wanted to do was see my family and go home. 6 hours after arriving they finally called down to the waiting room and told my family that surgery was cancelled and they could come up and get me. Of course my mother who was a nurse said that something happened. She thinks that perhaps they started to put me under and when they did my pulse dropped and I started turning blue so they brought me right back out. I don't know and noone was able to talk to my surgeon. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, and as much as I am completely letdown and feeling hopeless I think this happened for a reason. Maybe I wouldnt have made it through the surgery, or perhaps I wouldnt be able to handle post op, or perhaps there would have been other complications, I don't know. I do know that it took every ounce of faith and strength that I had to go to the hospital yesterday and I don't think that I will be jumping to go again tomorow, not that I am giving up because I am not, just that I had made alot of compromises from the beginning. From what surgeon to go to, what procedure to have down to whether having it open or Lap. And perhaps thats a reason in itself that things went so wrong yesterday. I don't know. Anyways that is what happened yesterday and why surgery did not take place.

Diane B. 20 years, 9 months ago

Hi Robin! Congrats on your surgery tomorrow! I bet you are excited! Try to get some sleep tonight! LOL! Just hang in there! I just wanted you to know that I was thinking about you today and that you are in my thoughts and prayers for a successful, problem-free surgery and recovery. I'm so happy for you. Soon you will be on the other side and will join the ranks of the losers. Wishing you much success in your weight-loss journey. Hugs to you today. God bless, DI from NJ

Melissa S. 20 years, 9 months ago

My prayers will be with you as you go through the surgery and recovery. May your strength be restored; your recovery be swift and your tender heart be renewed.

PookieW2 20 years, 9 months ago

Good Luck Robin!! May your slide to the losing side be as uneventful and pain free as possible. This is such an exciting time in your life. Take care and God Bless.....

Debbie B. 20 years, 9 months ago

Robin - Best wishes for an uneventful surgery and a speedy recovery. May God hold you and your surgery team in his precious hands.

its_me 20 years, 9 months ago

I just wanted to let you know that I will be thinking about you on your special day and say a prayer for a speedy recovery. Congratulations on beginning a new life with a new healthier you!

vonnie2304 20 years, 9 months ago

Robin, congratulations to you on your upcoming surgery. I will be keeping you in my prayers for an uneventful surgery and a speedy recovery. Best wishes to you as you continue on your journey.

Naes Wls J. 20 years, 9 months ago

<b>I SAID A PRAYER FOR YOU TODAY~*~ I said a prayer for you today And know God must have heard- I felt the answer in my heart Although He spoke no word I didn't ask for wealth or fame, I knew you wouldn't mind, I asked Him to send treasures Of a far more lasting kind, I asked that He'd be near you At the start of each new day, To grant you health and blessings And friends to share your way. I asked for happiness for you In all things great and small, But it was for His loving care I prayed the most of all.**Hugs**</b>