Christin S.
new pics
Dec 04, 2006
I added 2 new pics to my photos. Taken with Abby and Rocket.
Then I did the comparison. I'm stunned. I just don't see it when I look in the mirror, so pictures are VERY helpful!
Then I did the comparison. I'm stunned. I just don't see it when I look in the mirror, so pictures are VERY helpful!
Changes all the way around
Dec 03, 2006
Rich and I went to our favorite diner yesterday morning. They accept without questions that we only order one meal and split it and then take home the leftovers. I love that. We still leave a tip that we would normally leave, typically $5 and since our bill is only $7 or so.... you get the idea. No reason to shortchange the server.
We discovered that we BOTH fit into a booth without touching the table. When we sit back, we have room. Normally we couldn't do that and hated sitting in a booth. Now, we love it. We have to lean forward to eat. For someone that has been morbidly obese (me) since about 8 that is an amazing discovery.
We were there for more than an hour as it was snowing big time outside (the weather man said hardly any snow with this storm, maybe an inch on the grass, he's full of shit!), had our meal, and talked about eating.
We've come to realize that we BOTH are different in what triggers us.
Me, I have to mentally work to keep me from eating 'bad' stuff. I've lost cravings for sweets already and the thought of a Big Mac now makes me gag. I also changed what I say when someone offers me something I can't eat, such as chocolate. Instead of saying "I can't have that" I now say "No thanks" and with friends that say I can't have something to justify not offering me something I say "Yes, I CAN have that, but I choose not to." VERY powerful words for my mind. For me its all mentally.
Rich on the other hand has to tell himself that he will have something down the road. He said that he's wanted pancakes since the surgery. Yesterday, our order came with them, so he had them. He ate 2 bites and said it was nothing special as he envisioned it. He said he can move on now. For him, its the fact that he has to know he CAN do it if he wants to, otherwise the craving will NOT stop. So, we're working on recognizing that we're not trying to manipulate each other because we function differently. Rich also said that he had no idea he was 'that fat'. As you know he was in the military and was in good shape since I had met him. Even as a teenager he was in awesome shape. Then he started steroids due to his asthma, because less and less active, ate more because I was hooked on junk food and he got big. So.... he's never felt like a morbidly obese person, unlike me.
We're working on it.
Oh, we made love yesterday for the first time in quite a while since our surgeries. And it was friggin' awesome. No pain, no feeling of getting suffocated, it was wonderful. OMG, I want it so badly again.
My weight is once again dropping since the gallbladder surgery 1.5 wks ago. I'm now under 240. The scale read 238.9 twice this morning (I always step on it until I get the same reading twice, which is typically does). I stopped recording what I eat and worry about carbs, fat, calories, etc. Just no more of that.
I've been eating healthy. I've had a fruit each day. Thursday an apple, Friday morning an apple (took 2 hours to eat btw) and a bartlett pear yesterday for dinner. Not protein choices, but they sure tasted great and fresh. I've been focusing on eating healthy, no more logging and looking for now. It sure has restarted the weightloss. I'll continue to do just that. Eat what's good for my body at this point.
So, the journey continues. Learning along the way....
We discovered that we BOTH fit into a booth without touching the table. When we sit back, we have room. Normally we couldn't do that and hated sitting in a booth. Now, we love it. We have to lean forward to eat. For someone that has been morbidly obese (me) since about 8 that is an amazing discovery.
We were there for more than an hour as it was snowing big time outside (the weather man said hardly any snow with this storm, maybe an inch on the grass, he's full of shit!), had our meal, and talked about eating.
We've come to realize that we BOTH are different in what triggers us.
Me, I have to mentally work to keep me from eating 'bad' stuff. I've lost cravings for sweets already and the thought of a Big Mac now makes me gag. I also changed what I say when someone offers me something I can't eat, such as chocolate. Instead of saying "I can't have that" I now say "No thanks" and with friends that say I can't have something to justify not offering me something I say "Yes, I CAN have that, but I choose not to." VERY powerful words for my mind. For me its all mentally.
Rich on the other hand has to tell himself that he will have something down the road. He said that he's wanted pancakes since the surgery. Yesterday, our order came with them, so he had them. He ate 2 bites and said it was nothing special as he envisioned it. He said he can move on now. For him, its the fact that he has to know he CAN do it if he wants to, otherwise the craving will NOT stop. So, we're working on recognizing that we're not trying to manipulate each other because we function differently. Rich also said that he had no idea he was 'that fat'. As you know he was in the military and was in good shape since I had met him. Even as a teenager he was in awesome shape. Then he started steroids due to his asthma, because less and less active, ate more because I was hooked on junk food and he got big. So.... he's never felt like a morbidly obese person, unlike me.
We're working on it.
Oh, we made love yesterday for the first time in quite a while since our surgeries. And it was friggin' awesome. No pain, no feeling of getting suffocated, it was wonderful. OMG, I want it so badly again.
My weight is once again dropping since the gallbladder surgery 1.5 wks ago. I'm now under 240. The scale read 238.9 twice this morning (I always step on it until I get the same reading twice, which is typically does). I stopped recording what I eat and worry about carbs, fat, calories, etc. Just no more of that.
I've been eating healthy. I've had a fruit each day. Thursday an apple, Friday morning an apple (took 2 hours to eat btw) and a bartlett pear yesterday for dinner. Not protein choices, but they sure tasted great and fresh. I've been focusing on eating healthy, no more logging and looking for now. It sure has restarted the weightloss. I'll continue to do just that. Eat what's good for my body at this point.
So, the journey continues. Learning along the way....
no title
Nov 26, 2006
Its Sunday. Hard to believe I had my gallbladder removed on Wednesday morning. We drove to Arvada yesterday to see a play called Thoroughly Modern Millie. Both hubby and myself LOVED it. It was just awesome. Of course I had pain killers on board. I stopped taking the Norco and switched to my leftover Percocet. It does a much better job!
Tomorrow its back to work for both hubby and myself. We need to get our meals ready so we are prepared. It will be interesting to say the least for him.
I noticed by NOT having sweets at all, that my sweet tooth is gone. I don't crave all these sweet things that I wanted at all cost in the beginning anymore. I read on the RNY board about how people discover these 'sugar free' candies and how good they are. I know that if I start again to eat these (sugar free or not) I will want them all the time. I'm soooo glad I no longer crave these things. Chocolate is a memory now. I can walk by it without wanting it. I want to keep it this way.
Hubby of course is at wk 4 post-op and he's still craving all the things he had before the surgery. I can relate to the feeling. Told him he needs to just hang in there, it will go away. I'm just NOT going to start it up again. Simple. I'm learning very well to say NO to myself.
Today I'm having some very mild throat issues. I pray this isn't the throat spasm issue again! I just can't handle this. I was free of that horrible feeling for a while and now it seems to be creeping up again. No, no, no!
After I got out of the hospital I weighed in at 250!!!! Which means I gained 10 lbs in the hospital. I knew they changed my IV bags like crazy and I can tell that I'm retaining fluids. My socks leave imprints in my skin and they never do that. Shoes are a tight fit, so I know that its water retention. Not sure if that's normal. I'm going to make an appointment with my PCM and will talk to him about this. We'll see.
It's amazing how our grocery bill has shrunk from about $200/wk to $50/wk at the most. We went shopping last weekend and we still have enough groceries to last at least another week. Its a good thing.
My BMI is also down 10. I'm no longer morbidly obese. I'm just obese according to the doctor's charts.
I don't feel different honestly. I still see the same person. Only when I look at pictures do I see the different me.
Tomorrow its back to work for both hubby and myself. We need to get our meals ready so we are prepared. It will be interesting to say the least for him.
I noticed by NOT having sweets at all, that my sweet tooth is gone. I don't crave all these sweet things that I wanted at all cost in the beginning anymore. I read on the RNY board about how people discover these 'sugar free' candies and how good they are. I know that if I start again to eat these (sugar free or not) I will want them all the time. I'm soooo glad I no longer crave these things. Chocolate is a memory now. I can walk by it without wanting it. I want to keep it this way.
Hubby of course is at wk 4 post-op and he's still craving all the things he had before the surgery. I can relate to the feeling. Told him he needs to just hang in there, it will go away. I'm just NOT going to start it up again. Simple. I'm learning very well to say NO to myself.
Today I'm having some very mild throat issues. I pray this isn't the throat spasm issue again! I just can't handle this. I was free of that horrible feeling for a while and now it seems to be creeping up again. No, no, no!
After I got out of the hospital I weighed in at 250!!!! Which means I gained 10 lbs in the hospital. I knew they changed my IV bags like crazy and I can tell that I'm retaining fluids. My socks leave imprints in my skin and they never do that. Shoes are a tight fit, so I know that its water retention. Not sure if that's normal. I'm going to make an appointment with my PCM and will talk to him about this. We'll see.
It's amazing how our grocery bill has shrunk from about $200/wk to $50/wk at the most. We went shopping last weekend and we still have enough groceries to last at least another week. Its a good thing.
My BMI is also down 10. I'm no longer morbidly obese. I'm just obese according to the doctor's charts.
I don't feel different honestly. I still see the same person. Only when I look at pictures do I see the different me.
surgery
Nov 22, 2006
I had my gallbladder removed this morning. Went to the ER with chest pains, they did tests and no pain medication worked, so out it came. The doc that did the surgery told me my gallbladder was severely inflammed as well and not 'spitting' out the bile it needed, so inactive. Add to it that I was already making crystals he said, it was only going to be a matter of time... and not much time at that.
I'm in quite a bit of pain. Went to Memorial Hospital, I knw that the military hospital would only send me home with pain meds anyway. I feel better, even though I'm in a lot of surgery pain.
AND the throat spasms have subsided. I hope it will stay that way.
I'm in quite a bit of pain. Went to Memorial Hospital, I knw that the military hospital would only send me home with pain meds anyway. I feel better, even though I'm in a lot of surgery pain.
AND the throat spasms have subsided. I hope it will stay that way.
Sludge in my gallbladder
Nov 20, 2006
I'm now 3 mo post-op from Lap-RNY and a week ago had an abdominal ultrasound. My liver function test was abnormal, so that ultrasound was ordered.
The liver is now fine and within range, BUT there is 'sludge in the gallbladder'. I asked my doctor if there is anything I can do to avoid them becoming stones and he said no, to watch my fat intake, but at this point, it shouldn't be too big of a problem, etc.
I wonder if there is anything I can do that will help prevent stones from happening.... I don't want another surgery in the future!
The liver is now fine and within range, BUT there is 'sludge in the gallbladder'. I asked my doctor if there is anything I can do to avoid them becoming stones and he said no, to watch my fat intake, but at this point, it shouldn't be too big of a problem, etc.
I wonder if there is anything I can do that will help prevent stones from happening.... I don't want another surgery in the future!
New picture
Nov 18, 2006
took this picture this morning. I don't know how much I weigh right now, but hubby has lost more than 45 lbs since his surgery 3.5 wks ago. I'm at about 56 lbs.
Otherwise, things are ok. We went to Castle Rock today to shop for clothes for hubby.... he's so excited to fit into smaller clothes.......
Otherwise, things are ok. We went to Castle Rock today to shop for clothes for hubby.... he's so excited to fit into smaller clothes.......
finally an update
Nov 12, 2006
It sucks not to have internet at home, but thankfully, we are up and running again now. Lets just say, Adelphia (Comcast) will not have our business again after next Friday. We're switching back to dish.
We purchased a new car yesterday. 2006 Ford Mustang. Got it for 21k. Not bad at all, but the payments sure are stiff. But our Ford Explorer is literally on its last wheel and we NEED 2 cars if we want to continue to work. We can't carpool, tried that when the truck was out of working order last year and it was a nightmare trying to make it through COSMIX during rushhour. We drove nearly 1 hour in the morning and 1.5 at night. In 20 mph traffic on the interstate! Not happening again.
Hubby through a bitchfit when I told him I'd rather have another SUV, as he really wants the Mustang. I must admit, I like the Mustang too, but its going to be tough when we have to transport something large. But hubby says its fine, we'll make it work. Hmmmm, we'll see I suppose.
My throat spasms are continuing and getting worse. I'm interviewing for another job with another company and I think that brings a lot of stress and therefore the throat spasm act up more than usual too.
I wake up in the morning and nothing, then within 30 minutes I have those spasms. On Wednesday I called the surgeons office to get a refill on the Lorazepam because it does help the spasm and Dr. W said he can't help me. Told me his sister has these spasms and prayer works for her. Huh? Are you F'n kidding me???? He said if I needed anything else to see my PCM. Ever tried to get a same day appointment at 11 am before a holiday weekend??? Yeah, I was lucky and got an appointment with Dr. S. He prescribed a ton of those Lorazepam's. He also told me that they are not addicting as Dr. W had been telling me over and over, as long as I take them as prescribed. Figures.
I am going to see my PCM next week Monday and I will ask for a ENT referral. I cannot live with these spams. I just can't. Its horrible.
Well, I have to catch up on emails and messages and such, so I better get to it.
We purchased a new car yesterday. 2006 Ford Mustang. Got it for 21k. Not bad at all, but the payments sure are stiff. But our Ford Explorer is literally on its last wheel and we NEED 2 cars if we want to continue to work. We can't carpool, tried that when the truck was out of working order last year and it was a nightmare trying to make it through COSMIX during rushhour. We drove nearly 1 hour in the morning and 1.5 at night. In 20 mph traffic on the interstate! Not happening again.
Hubby through a bitchfit when I told him I'd rather have another SUV, as he really wants the Mustang. I must admit, I like the Mustang too, but its going to be tough when we have to transport something large. But hubby says its fine, we'll make it work. Hmmmm, we'll see I suppose.
My throat spasms are continuing and getting worse. I'm interviewing for another job with another company and I think that brings a lot of stress and therefore the throat spasm act up more than usual too.
I wake up in the morning and nothing, then within 30 minutes I have those spasms. On Wednesday I called the surgeons office to get a refill on the Lorazepam because it does help the spasm and Dr. W said he can't help me. Told me his sister has these spasms and prayer works for her. Huh? Are you F'n kidding me???? He said if I needed anything else to see my PCM. Ever tried to get a same day appointment at 11 am before a holiday weekend??? Yeah, I was lucky and got an appointment with Dr. S. He prescribed a ton of those Lorazepam's. He also told me that they are not addicting as Dr. W had been telling me over and over, as long as I take them as prescribed. Figures.
I am going to see my PCM next week Monday and I will ask for a ENT referral. I cannot live with these spams. I just can't. Its horrible.
Well, I have to catch up on emails and messages and such, so I better get to it.
No TV and internet, I'm dying!
Nov 05, 2006
Yeah, that's what it feels like. Adelphia, the evil company, decided NOT to come and figure out what's wrong with our service until Friday! Today is MONDAY!!!! Thanks to the Lord we have old technology called rabbit ear antenna.... and hubby is saved. I cannot imagine when I had to stay home after my surgery and I had no TV or internet. When you don't have human children, it really makes a difference.
I'm trying my best to be a royal bitch because its simply not acceptable. So far I've ripped 3 people a new one.... And during my lunch hour, there will be a 4th one.
Threw up yesterday. Had japanese food for the very first time (salmon rolls) and since it had rice in it, I think that stopped everything from going through. Then add spinach salad with pecans, cranberries and feta cheese on top of it and yeah, it came back up. Not pretty but I felt soooo much better afterwards!
Work is going to be busy this week. I applied for a different job with a different company and hope to pass the next step after the phone interview on Thursday. I need to get out of my current job.....
Well, I probably should do some work :)
I'm trying my best to be a royal bitch because its simply not acceptable. So far I've ripped 3 people a new one.... And during my lunch hour, there will be a 4th one.
Threw up yesterday. Had japanese food for the very first time (salmon rolls) and since it had rice in it, I think that stopped everything from going through. Then add spinach salad with pecans, cranberries and feta cheese on top of it and yeah, it came back up. Not pretty but I felt soooo much better afterwards!
Work is going to be busy this week. I applied for a different job with a different company and hope to pass the next step after the phone interview on Thursday. I need to get out of my current job.....
Well, I probably should do some work :)
FINALLY under 250
Nov 03, 2006
It seems the scale doesn't want to move lately, even with exercise. I know, muscles, etc. And for 11 wks its not bad at all.
This picture was taken at 250 lbs, Monday morning, Oct 30, 2006.
I can see the difference in the pictures, but not when I look in the mirror. I hate that part!
Hubby is down to 324, and its been 1.5 weeks since his surgery. He went from 352 to 324 in that time. He hates that he's bored at home. Yesterday he apologized for not being more supportive when I had my surgery, he said that he had no idea how tough this really is when I went through it. Made me feel good, but I also feel for him. I told him by 3 wks he will feel better. He's already doing so much better than I thought he would do.
This weekend I have to think of something to do with him, so he can get out a little bit. Not sure what as he's still limited with walking and such.... I'll figure it out!
UPDATE: This was taken at work today.
This picture was taken at 250 lbs, Monday morning, Oct 30, 2006.
I can see the difference in the pictures, but not when I look in the mirror. I hate that part!
Hubby is down to 324, and its been 1.5 weeks since his surgery. He went from 352 to 324 in that time. He hates that he's bored at home. Yesterday he apologized for not being more supportive when I had my surgery, he said that he had no idea how tough this really is when I went through it. Made me feel good, but I also feel for him. I told him by 3 wks he will feel better. He's already doing so much better than I thought he would do.
This weekend I have to think of something to do with him, so he can get out a little bit. Not sure what as he's still limited with walking and such.... I'll figure it out!
UPDATE: This was taken at work today.
Finally an update
Oct 30, 2006
Hubby has lost 23 lbs since his surgery last week Tuesday. So, in 6 days he's lost that amount. Amazing. He started at 352 and is now at 329.
Here is a picture of us we took the day he came home, on Friday.
Now on to my own update:
People at work are commenting about my face, my features coming out, looking good. I've even noticed guys flirting with me! I need to get my wedding ring resized! Right now I'm not wearing any jewelry, because it doesn't fit besides earrings. Its a strange feeling to have people strike up conversations with you, especially the ones that have ignored you up until now. Amazing.
I need to learn some social skills. I have none. I don't know how to keep a conversation going, how to discover what you have in common, etc. I wonder if they sell books like that. Hmmm, there is some research I need to do!
I'm once again in a stall. My measurements are up around my chest! I guess the workout is adding an inch??? Nah, hubby must not measure correct!
I'm almost into a size 18 pants. OMG! I never thought I'd say this. Shirts is still a 22 or 24 because I HATE clingly clothes, so I continue to like them big, but its much better than a 26-28.
Ok, hubby wants me to watch TV with him....
Here is a picture of us we took the day he came home, on Friday.
Now on to my own update:
People at work are commenting about my face, my features coming out, looking good. I've even noticed guys flirting with me! I need to get my wedding ring resized! Right now I'm not wearing any jewelry, because it doesn't fit besides earrings. Its a strange feeling to have people strike up conversations with you, especially the ones that have ignored you up until now. Amazing.
I need to learn some social skills. I have none. I don't know how to keep a conversation going, how to discover what you have in common, etc. I wonder if they sell books like that. Hmmm, there is some research I need to do!
I'm once again in a stall. My measurements are up around my chest! I guess the workout is adding an inch??? Nah, hubby must not measure correct!
I'm almost into a size 18 pants. OMG! I never thought I'd say this. Shirts is still a 22 or 24 because I HATE clingly clothes, so I continue to like them big, but its much better than a 26-28.
Ok, hubby wants me to watch TV with him....
