lorraineny
8/2006 - Went to informational meeting at the Adirondack Medical Center in Saranac Lake, I really was excited to meet the staff and to learn more about the surgery. I am even more excited to changing my life. Now on to initial meeting.
9/21/06 - Had my initial meeting with Karen and Dr. Hixson they were great. Really ready to start loosing weight befroe the surgery. Made an appointment to have the sleep study done, and the blood work and the xrays next week. Here we go...
9/27/06 - Had the sleep study done last night, don't know any of the results but it was fun. Actually did it with a friend so it wasn't so scary. Didn't sleep much so I don't know if it will be able to tell all that much, am exhausted today! Have my next appointment at the Bariatric Center on October 26th, can't wait to see if I have lost any weight. Went and weighed myself before I left the hospital this morning, and already 4lbs lost!!! I am on the loosing side of life right now, hope I can stay on this side from now on.
10/7/06 - Am leaving on vacation tomorrow, I think the whole diet thing will suffer, but just the fact that it will be my last "fat vacation" is very exciting. I will do my best, but I will not beat myself up too much no matter what happens, this week is about me an my son and taking some time just to be together.
10/15/06 - Back from vacation, oh my God, I had some bread!! I really do love bread, and pizza. But, managed not to overeat when I did parttake in some carbohydrates. It was good, I am so ready to have my little stomach for some added support in the whole portion control issue. I have to make an appointment to get my psych eval done, not sure exactly where I will get it or how it will be but it is on my list of things to do now that I am back from my trip. Had an insurance scare before I left for vacation, for a moment there it seemed as though Dr. Hixson was not a part of my network, but my PCP was great in getting her staff to get on it and they have found the right numbers and names and all that and seems that I am covered. The only thing that won't be covered is the nutritionist, that is not too expensive and will only have to meet with her a couple times from what I understand. Whatever I have to do I will do it.
About me....I just realized that I have not really put anything about myself on here. I am 43 years old, and have been battling the bulge all my life. My Mom took me to the Dr. for my first diet when I was about 2. And it has been a painful journey ever since. I could go on and on about all the things that I didn't do in my life time from riding roller coasters to dating, etc. etc. But that was then and this is now. My motivation for having the surgery, is really my 7 year old son. He is an awesome human being, and I am truly blessed for being his Mom. The final straw about my fatness happened this year, I went on vacation to the Outer Banks with my sister and her family, it was a great time, but I found myself sitting alot on the beach while everyone enjoyed all the activities around our beach house. I realized one day that I sat in a chair on the beach, for 5 hours, simply because my chair had sunk into the sand, and I was really afraid that I wouldn't be able to get out of it, at least not with a little help. At one point I almost threw myself onto the ground, thinking that it might be even easier to pick myself up off the ground. I watched my son dig into the sand with my sister and her kids and I really wanted to take part in it. But with my knee and back pain, there was just no way. A few months later, my sister treated us to a couple days at the Great Escape Lodge Indoor water park. My son wanted me to go down this slide with him, but I couldn't get up the stairs to the top of the slide, there were 106 of them, I know, I sat there all afternoon, counting them wondering if maybe somehow I could get up there, but once I am up there, would the slide hold me? So I didn't go. Instead, he rode with my sister, although he did ask me why I didn't do those kinds of things with him. It made me really sad. A year ago, I moved back in with my parents, it was either that or they would loose their home, they just couldn't take care of it anymore, not with the high prices of fuel and the repairs it needed. While I worked and planned on renovations, my Mom took really good care of my son and I. She did the cooking and cleaning and I did the sitting and eating. Well with that combo I gained 50lbs. And that 50lbs was the worse that could have happened to me, it has made me really loose alot of ability to walk and move around. I really feel like crap!! And I don't want to live like this anymore; that is the bottom line. So, I am off to surgery to help me save my life.
