luvischrist41
Well here's my story: I am 41 years old and have two children: 1 daughter- age 21 and one son age 10, and I've been happily married for 17 years. I weigh 270 and I am 5' 91/2 " tall, my BMI is 39.4 the highest its ever been. I am Assistant manager at Mooresville Midde School and have worked there 6 years. I have been over weight for last 15 years. I have tried varies diets with some success but always regained plus some. I have four dogs: 1 Chow Shepard mix and 1 Rat Terrier and 2 Pom's. I love my dogs they are my babies, probably because they don't care if I'm fat or not. I hate looking in the mirror or anyone taking my picture. I never feel like doing anything or going anywhere. Even going to the beauty shop is a chore because its hard to fit in the chairs in the waiting room. I went to the movies with my husband last week and the threater seat hurt my sides through the whole movie, I can't even go out and play with my ten year old son because I'm so tried all the time. I just want to live again. I was diagnosed with heart disease when I was 29 but never made a big deal of it until recently because my blood pressure is going up, up, up, I went through all the test and procedures to have weight loss surgery and was told all the way that everything was going well and that I definitely qualify for the surgery but when they sent it to my insurance(BCBSNC) they denied me. I was devastated and depressed and didn't know where to turn next, I could almost see myself thinner and happier but then there it was DENIED. I had never been through this before so I had no idea how things work and so after talking to my surgeons nurse, who told me that there was nothing I could do if I was denied) I just gave up. I mean there was no one to talk to because my family didn't really understand and because of my weight I had cut myself off from all my friends everything just seemed useless.Then I decided to reseach it and ended up appealing. Thats where I'm at now, waiting on an answer to my appeal. waiting is very hard, it drives you crazy, you think about it all the time and all you can do is wait, wait on another person to decide how you will live your future. I started looking for a support group in my area and to tell the truth it will be hard for me to meet with people because I feel so self conscious and I just don't know how to be around people anymore its very hard for me, But I want this more than I've ever wanted anything before.
