Joi,
Being in a family that has many cancer survivors I can understand some of the emothions you may have now. However, no one can understand it as well as you can. I have read all of your postings and also been in a chat a time or two when you were there. You certainly don't stike me as the sort of person who ever gave up without a fight. Okay, now we have a challenge in front of us. Grab it by the horns and let's go. We are all there pulling for you!