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Wow.. I haven't posted anything in a month!

I'm still in NJ, doing the do up here.... not going to the gym though.  There's been plenty of other exercise to be had though.. mostly housework, cooking, cleaning, yardwork and a lot of stairs.

I gained about 10 lbs from the 16 hours I spent in the car to get here....  but it's gone back down and I'm around 210 right now.. still a ways off from goal.

I'm certainly not eating right while away from home but I'm doing the best I can.. mainly, if it's not protein, fat or caffeine, it doesn't get past these lips.

Things are crazy but the bottom line is that if I don't take care of myself, I won't be able to take care of anyone else...

and today's song is:

I'm finding myself at a loss for words..
  and the funny thing is..... it's ok
the last thing I need is to be heard
  but to hear what you would say

WORD OF GOD SPEAK ... WOULD YA POUR DOWN LIKE RAIN.. WASHING MY EYES TO SEE YOUR MAJESTY
TO BE STILL AND KNOW THAT YOU'RE IN THIS PLACE
PLEASE LET ME STAY AND REST... IN YOUR HOLINESS
  word of God speak...............................................................................

"You're in a better place I've heard a thousand times...
and at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you...
But the reason why I'm broken
the reason why I cry
is how long must I wait to be with you"

I close my eyes and I see your face
If Home's where the heart is then I'm out of place
OH LORD please help me to make it through somehow...
I've never been more homesick than now"

............ God I'm tired.

The do needs to be done today as always.. there will be plenty of days coming very soon when it's on the back burner.. but for today...  up and at 'em.  It's tough considering I was on the phone until 2:00am...  but the do simply has to be done.  Doc appt then gym, then who knows.. gym gym gym gym. 

I made breakfast for the xhub.. even though he's off today and won't get up.  I forgot..   I packed his lunch.. oh well.  His clothes are ready... he'll use 'em tomorrow.

"Well I will walk by faith
even when I cannot see
because this broken road
prepares your will for me"

No.. I'm not gonna be had, but I have no idea what I can do to my kid today either.

and the song of the day is!   UNDER THE BRIDGE

Sometimes I feel like I don't have a partner
Sometimes I feel like my only friend
is the city I live in... the city of Angel
Lonely as I am.. together we cry

Yep.. it's me and the music today as usual.  X hub doesn't have to be in work until 11:00, but I have a doc's appointment, then a training appointment (I had to dance around this one), so I need to have his meals made, be dressed and have my gym bag packed and be out the door by 9:30.  Wait.. what the heck am I doing sitting here!

See yaz lata!

Several hours later.....

Yanno when someone gives you bad news on April Fools day, you want to think you're getting goofed on.. but the news is so terrible that you know that there isn't a human being on earth who would do that...

"there must be some kinda way outta here... said the joker to the thief"

The song of the day... IS....

Under Pressure - David Bowie

"um be dah day.. um be dah day.. be day dah... be day dah..
THAT'S OK!
it's the pressure of knowing what this world is about..
Watching some good friends screaming "LET ME OUT"
Praying tomorrow takes me higher
Pressure on People

Yep.. and that's the way it feels sometimes.  Ok... so this afternoon I was still at 220.. Amen.. moving right along... doing the do.

Something strange is definitely going on in my left leg.. but no matter.. the do has to be done.

Everywhere I look I see "help wanted" signs.... every store.. windows..  I guess I'm getting antsy.. anxious to get back in the game.  I seem to be working with an open offer for a management position.  I don't want to wait on it too long, but I know I can't be on my feet for a lot of hours and to be honest, I can't imagine having to dress with this body.  I dunno...  I'm anxious to get my feet wet.  I was giving myself until the end of June to reach my first goal weight.. but it's slowin' down, and I don't know how much longer I can hang out being a slug.

"It's the terror of knowing what this world is about..
Watching some good friends screaming LET ME OUT"

I couldn't believe the number of people waiting to get in the gym at 1:00 today. I was like.. OH no..  kinda made me feel like there wouldn't be a piece of cardio to be had, but I notice that a lot of folks don't bother with it.  I see some token warm ups.. and for sure it means.. MORE for me when it comes to the availability of cardio machines I can actually DO on the FIRST floor.  Haha... I grabbed a water and a towel, threw my bag in a locker and tetered out there... YES.. two empty treadmills!   And lo and behold.. when I was done, I found my favorite tanning bed EMPTY!  OH YA... "tan me".. 

I sooooooooooooooooooooo miss the beach.  I think that's going to be a righteous trip.. throwing a guitar in the back of the stang and head back down the west coast of FL for a weekend.  Stop in and see my brandy new grand nephew..  get up early and beach it all day.... go back to my hotel and clean up....  take a guitar back down for sunset.... OOOOh...   

"bee day duh.. bee day duh... okay"

It's kinda chilly right now....  just waitin' on the sky to figure out it can be dark by now.  I got a fire lit..chores done....  different bat day.. same bat channel.

March 28, 2008

Alrighty ...  the first song which popped into my head this morning was More Than A Feeling:  Boston.  Oh.. I always wake up to a song.. and I never know which one it's going to be.  It carries me through the morning routine of putting on the coffe, making the breakfast, washing dishes, throwing clothes either into the washer, making Jon's lunch and snack for the day... yanno, the things which need to be done all within an hour.

I don't have to be at the gym until 5:00pm today.  It's a strange hour but my trainer has something to do earlier in the day.  Since I'm the only one with no life, I work around his schedule when need be.  I'm fine with that.  Our latest accomplishment has been getting me up and down the stairs at the gym.  We go up 'em and work out up there, then come down when we're finished.  Yesterday we did some mat exercises specific to addressing the arthritis in my hips.  I'm sore today, but better off for it, I'm sure.  Kudos to Andrew for recognizing the need to address this.  I was trying to avoid some of the more painful movements.. but he's not letting me get away with that anymore.  LOL

Today I woke up with a 113 fasting blood glucose and 222 on the scale.  It's moving!  I would eventually like to see a 90 in the morning, but I seem to have always had dawn syndrome.  113 is a heck of a lot better than waking in the 300's like I used to do.  Praise God.. all without insulin.

So.. the deal for today is:  Move.. get things done.  Clean, work in the yard..  MAYBE shop for clothes (touchy subject).  I have no clue what size I am at this point.  I'm buying XL in shirts, but so many of them are made to FIT.. yanno.. they're stretchy.. and I hate that.  It's like advertising my stomache.  I gotta find some work out T's.  2 xl's are too big on the shoulders.. I need cotton.. just cotton.. not cotton lycra or spandex lycra.. or spandex cotton.. LOL.. JUST cotton!  I fell in love with one style, but can't find it anywhere but at Gold's gym, and the one I got fell apart after 2 washings.  I need THAT style in a sturdier design and fabric.

Alrighty then.. time to move!

And in the death as the last few corpses lay rotting on the slimy thoroughfare
The shutters lifted in inches in Temperance building
  high on Poacher's Hill
and red, mutant eyes gazed down on Hunger City

No more big wheels...............................

Fleas the size of rats sucked on rats the size of cats
and ten thousand peoploids split into small tribes..
 coverting the highest of the sterile skyscrapers
    like packs of dogs assaulting the glass fronts of Love-Me Avenue
Ripping and rewrapping mink and shiny silver fox.....
  now leg warmers
Family badge of sapphire and cracked emerald

Any day now.. the year of the Diamond Dogs

THIS AIN'T ROCK N ROLL.. THIS IS GENOCIDE!