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Tomorrow I will be 8 weeks out from surgery.  I know this will not make much sense but although I have lost 54 pounds in eight weeks I really did think the weight would come off faster.  I'm sure it is because I have not gone down a pants size yet.  My clothes are getting quite big on me but I can still wear them.  No big wow look at me times either.  I can tell a differance but nothing major by any means.   I feel pretty good but notice if when I really get physical I feel very dehidrated and naucious.  I have been able to eat about anything but I still struggle with getting in more that 400 calories a day.  Right now eating is just an inconveniece and I know that's not healthy. 

Well I am now seven weeks out.  I have been on a stall for almost two weeks now.  I had to stop weighing myself because I would get so upseet and frusterated when the scale didn't move.  It finally moved  yea and I have lost another five pounds.  In seven weeks I have lost a grand total of 48 pounds. Wow. thats 43 since surgery.   I feel so much better already and I'm not even close to where I want to be.  I was able to put my foot on my opposite thigh to put my hose on for church this morning.  It was exciting because for the longest time I have had to put my foot on my bed to get my hose on.  this weekend I spent packing up all our winter clothes and getting out our summer clothes.  It was sooooo much fun to be able to pack up all my clothes and give them away instead of packing the for this winter.  
Today I feel great, today I felt pretty, today I felt comfortable, today I choose to live with purpose for myself my family and first of all my Lord.  Thank you Jesus for giving me a new beginning.

Well tomarrow I will be out 6 weeks.  I have been up and I have been down in these past 6 weeks and everywhere in between.  I am finding that I will loose weight for about 7 or 8 days and then it stops for about 2 weeks then I loose angain for a week or so then it stops for another two weeks.  In no way did I imagine that this would be the case.  It is very frustrating, this very way of loosing weight is what would sabatoge my attempts at dieting.  Right now I eat about 400 calories a day.  I still fall short of my liquid intake and I do feel dehydrated most of the time.  I can't for the life of me figure out how a 300+ person can eat only 400 calories a day and not loose anything for two weeks.  How can this be physically possible?  I am writing this out of frustration and also to hopefully be able to look back and laugh at myself.  The hardest thing is that I have sooooo much to loose and to loose for one week and stall for two weeks is killing me.  I did expect to loose much faster than I am.  I am grateful for what I have lost, and it has not been easy.  I just honestly thought I would loose much faster.  It is hard when you know there is nothing more you can do to loose weight any faster and it just doesn't seem to be comming off.  I should be comming up on my week of weight loose.  I pray so anyway.

 Well, as of tomorrow I will be two weeks out from surgery.  According to my scales here at home I have lost 20 pounds in two weeks. WOW.  Of course I  started counting calories and as of now I can only get down about 400 calories, that's amazing to me.  I am trying to figure out how to live with my new pouch and how to cope with life without eating.  It's strange,  I find myself bored and never really realized how much I grazed thoughout the day.  I don't smoke and I can't eat so I'm in the procces of learning how to live again.  It sounds strange I know but like I've heard said, this was an  operation on my stomach not my brain.  One thing is for sure I'll have a cleaner house now !!  I'm going back to work tomorrow.  I did work two hours last Thursday and Friday.  I'll be interested to see how fast I get tired.  I'm a preschool director so I do sit a lot, we just completed a new gym there so I'm blessed to have a very convenient place to walk.  My asst. director had the lap band done around Christmas so I'm so blessed to have a partner in this also.  
I am feeling so much better.  For anyone who read my post on how much pain I was in I did find out why.  I had galbladder surgery before they did that laproscopicly so I have a huge scar in the center of my stomach.  There was so much scar tissue that the surgeon had to cut all the way down my stomach on the inside and therefor I had a LOT of pain.   
I am on an upword swing.  I'm beginning a new journey in my life.  How fitting it is that I am beginning this journey at Easter time.  Jesus gave us the ultimate gift so many years ago for a chance at a life everlasting and He has allowed me the chance to begin my life again.  I'm belssed.

Well, it's been one week today that I had Lap RNY done.  It has a lot more painful than I ever expected, however I am beginning to find out why.  In tearful desperation I posted that I had just had surgery and I was in , not a good place.  I still have quite a bit of pain but it is getteing better although very slowly.  For anyone I might have scared with the reality that this isn't a bed of roses I do appologize.  I have now found out that my surgery took 4 1/2 hours instead of the 2 they thought it would because --- and this is were a lot of my pain comes in ---I had galbladder surgery in1988 before they did them laproscopic.  I have a huge scar in the middle of my stomach.  apparently they had to cut the scar tissue all the way up my belly to get to anything and so even though I wasn't cut open on the outside on the inside I actually am.  This explains a lot.  I also have been without any pain meds because the persciption I was given  no one could fill and it was just a mess getting anything from my Doctor.  At 7:00 pm tonight I finally got some pain meds and although they don't help a lot they do take the edge off for a couple of hours.  I was terrible swollen when I came home also and WhenI weighted myself I had actually gained 3 pounds.  I liked to died right there.  I am happy to say that my swelling has gone down alot and I have lost 14 ponds !! yeah.   I just pray to the Lord for comfort, it's so easy to get draged down.  Especially when you are hurting and scared.   My first post op visit in Thursday and we'll see how things are going.  God Bless Everyone.  If we could only comprehend the love Christ has for each of us..........

Well, the big day is tomorrow.  I have had such a crazy couple of weeks that I haven't had time to get nervous, until today that is.  I have been working and cramming three weeks of studies into one week so I can finish my quarter out at school. (I  started college at the age of 40! )  I work full time and am married and have two wonderful children to take care of also.
I have been battling insurance companies for four years over this surgery and it almost seems sureal that the day has come.  Like many of us I have been very heavy ALL my life.  I have always been very active but I have always had a weight problem.   God has definalty answered my prayers and even though it took four years I have learned alot about myself and truly believe that I am ready for this big step,  it's kind of like God is leading me out of my self imposed bondage.  I'm ready for my new chapter to begin !!  

I am going on 20 years of marriage and have two children, Blake ( 10 ) and Madison ( 6 ).  They are excited for me.  My husband, God love him, has not ever had any type of weight problem.  He weighs the same today that he did 20 years ago !! Don't you just hate that.  I'v gained and lost a hundred pounds, more gained than lost !   

Well, I have been lingering on this site for some time but have never posted anything.  I figured it was time.  I have been spending the last week trying to find a protien suppliment that I like and have so far been unsuccessful.  I'll keep trying.  It will be interesting to see if I can sleep tonight.  I feel like a little girl the night before Christmas who is too excited to sleep.

Well, here's to a new me, a better me, a blessed me !!