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A lot has happened since I last posted (a year ago!).   My husband and I have divorced.  He's already remarried even!   He chose another heavy lady so I think that's his preference.  

I've now lost a total of 181 pounds. I'm happy at this weight.  

I've been doing fun runs and just trying new things.  I did a 7+ mile race that we have here in town every year.  First time ever for me and it was no problem!   I'm not used to what my body can do now.  

I would love to have plastics.  I have NO BOOBS... an A cup if I'm lucky.  I look like a sharpei!   I've had a consultation with a local surgeon and there's no way I could afford all I want/need done.   I would like a lower body lift which would fix my stomach and buttocks.   I also need a thigh lift and of course I would like some boobs again.  I've been researching going to Dr. Sauceda in Monterrey Mexico. 

That's about it.  I'm just trying to keep the weight off and stay active.  Life is fun now!

I've decided upon a reward for losing 100 lbs!  I'm going to get a tattoo on June 11th.  It's a tribal phoenix which symbolizes a "rebirth" of sorts.  I'm excited!  Down 110 lbs as of today!

My husband weighs 233 and I weigh 231... I weigh less than him for the first time ever!   YEEEEE HAWWW! 

Well today is my five month surgiversary.  I've lost 99 pounds... darn that last pound!     My husband and I went on our first real vacation since we've been together (ten years) to Vegas.  We had a great time.  I was surprised by my eating.  I tried a lot of new things but never had a problem with any of it.  I even had a glass of wine each evening we were there and had no problems.  Partly scary (to not keep me from it) but partly good (that I can do "normal things").  Anyhow, I came back from my trip and had lost weight.   That sure surprised the heck out of me.  I had this mindset that I'd not lose any weight but that's my old mind.  I know I was pretty good, didn't overeat and stuck to protein first.  

I've been battling moodiness.  I realized that I'm not absorbing my anti-depressant as I did before surgery.  So I'm working with my doctor to slowly increasing that.  I hope to feel normal soon.  I've been so upset that I've cried over weird things.  I'm just on a short fuse right now.  It's weird because I sure thought that "if I could only lose 100 pounds everything would be great!"  I don't mean that I thought it would fix every aspect of my life but I sure thought it would be different.   Don't get me wrong, I'm very thankful for my surgery and my weight loss, but not only are my same issues still here but now I can't use food to stuff them down.  So, this is not what I expected.  

So, let me focus on the good things that my weight loss has brought to me:

1) I can shop at normal stores now; no more plus size stores!   I bought a large pair of pants yesterday... LARGE!   What?   crazy!  Also, normal stores have cheaper clothes!  :)
2) I can walk and go up stairs without becoming winded or having knee pain.   That's right, my husband and I walked the length of the Vegas strip and I didn't have any problems... in fact my husband was the one complaining about the walk!  
3) I can fit in chairs, seats, planes now!  I'm not spilling into the seat next to me, I'm not leaving impressions of the arms rests on my legs!
4) I had to get my ring re-sized to a 6.5 from an 8.  I don't have that darned water retention going on when I put my ring on anymore.
5) I'm off my high blood pressure medication.  Now I have low blood pressure!   I hated that darned medication.  There was always some sort of side effect that caused me problems.  So happy to be off of that!
6) No more GERD!   No more heartburn!  Yeah!
7) I don't need to buy wide shoes anymore!   Regular feet means easier to find shoes that fit and are stylish!

Ok, so one last thing I wanted to mention.   I bought a diet journal this weekend.  I'm going to start writing down what I eat and how much everyday, water intake, and exercise.  I have been doing it a little bit on the computer in a spreadsheet but now I'm going to have a notebook to do it all the time no matter where I am.  

There are two different Support Group meetings at my doctor's office.  There is the Newbies group (which I have been going to) and the Vintage group.  I just went to the vintage group last night and it scared me!   80% of the people there had their surgeries 3-5+ years ago and they look like they gained it all back!   Freaking me out!!!   Please tell me these people are going to the meetings because they've "fallen off the wagon".  Please tell me the ones who have kept it off are just not going to the meetings anymore!

I just weighed myself for the first time in two weeks and it apears I've hit my first plateau.  I'm at a stand still.  It's OK with me.  I've been doing so well and losing so fast!   I went shopping yesterday and I fit into a size 16!   Holy crap... haven't been able to do that since high school!

Holy shit batman!    I went grocery shopping at WalMart and thought I'd swing by the clothing department for the heck of it... and I freaking fit into a size 16/18.... WHAT???!!!!!   I can't believe it!   It's probably been 17 years since I wore that size!


Just had to put that out there.  

 

Just a quick update.  I'm going to my support group meetings and also counseling.  I'm following my diet plan and exercising at the gym.  I'm down 80 pounds now... that century club is just around the corner!   I'm seeing and feeling my body differently.  I can actually feel my shoulder bones and skin is starting to sag in areas (good but bad).  I'm just over half way from my surgeon's goal but I'd like to lose more so that my BMI is in the "normal category.  I'm looking forward to the upcoming months when the weight loss speeds up but not looking forward to the thinning hair... oh well... gotta take the good and the bad!

First, I am getting my wedding ring resized.  Now, I know some of you say "wait because you'll have to do it again and again".  But it's included in my ring maintanance plan so I don't mind.  I'd rather be safe than sorry... at this point it was falling off!  I could put it on my thumb it was so big!   Anyhow I was an 8 and I'm going to a size 6.5.   


Second, I need some new clothes.  The old ones have to go!   I packed up a bunch of clothes that don't fit me anymore and they are going BYE BYE!   So, I am down yet another size!  Yeah!   Starting size 26/28 or 4X.  Now I'm down to a 18/20 or a 1X!   Freaking CRAZY!  

Went to Costco and found a delicious low carb, low calorie and high protein drink at costco.   A case of 18 cost me $23.49

Here are the facts:

Premier Protein Shake Chocolate
	Nutrition Facts   Amount/Serving   % DV*   Amount/Serving   % DV* Serving Size: 1 shake (11 fl. oz.)   Total Fat 3g   5%   Total Carbohydrate 5g   2% Servings: 1     Sat. Fat 0g   0%     Dietary Fiber 3g   13% Calories 160     Trans Fat 0g         Sugars 1g       Fat Cal. 30   Cholesterol 15mg   8%   Protein 30g         Sodium 330mg   14%         *Percentage Daily Values (DV) are based on a 2,000 calorie diet.   Potassium 680mg   20%         Vitamin A   25%   Vitamin C   25% Calcium   25%   Iron   25% Vitamin D   25%   Vitamin E   25% Vitamin K   25%   Thiamin   25% Riboflavin   25%   Niacin   25% Vitamin B6   25%   Folate   25% Vitamin B12   25%   Biotin   25% Pantothenic Acid   25%   Phosphorus   25% Iodine   25%   Magnesium   25% Zinc   25%   Selenium   25% Copper   25%   Manganese   25% Chromium   25%   Molybdenum   25%                 INGREDIENTS: Water, (PREMIER NUTRITION PROTEIN BLEND: Milk Protein Concentrate, Whey Protein Concentrate, Calcium Caseinate) Safflower Oil, Cocoa Processed with Alkali, Fructooligosaccharide, Sodium Phosphate, Potassium Citrate, Sodium Citrate, Natural and Artificial Flavor, Cellulose Gel, Cellulose Gum, Datem, Magnesium Phosphate, Sucralose, Salt, Xanthan Gum, Carrageenan, Acesulfame Potassium, Sodium Ascorbate (Vitamin C), Zinc Amino Acid, Tocopherol Acetate (Vitamin E), Biotin, Vitamin A Palmitate, Niacinamide, Phytonadione (Vitamin K), Potassium Iodide, D-Calcium Pantothenate, Chromium Chloride, Copper Amino Acid, Cyanocobalamin (Vitamin B12), Sodium Molybdate, Sodium Selenite, Folic Acid, Cholecalciferol (Vitamin D3), Pyridoxine Hydrochloride (Vitamin B6), Riboflavin, Thiamine Mononitrate, Ferric Orthophosphate, Manganese Sulfate. Allergy Information: Contains Milk.