madone2
Well, somewhere there is my life story. Don't know where, but somewhere. Guess i'll have to do it again. Two years ago. (It has taken that long to decide it is ok do this.) My mom told me I might need some help to loose weight, and suggested surgery and I blew up in her face. Well guess what. I guess she was right ( don't you hate that?). I wish i had listened to her two years ago. well, here we go!
8/7/7: almost there Aug 13 will be here and gone, before anyone knows it. It seems so long away now. The liquid diet doesn't help. I think i am going to have a pizza tomorrow. ( dr. stanish, I'm just kidding) i bet he is watching somewhere shaking his finger at me. well i guess he is not santa clause and i have to govern myself. oh foo. i guess no pizza. i am sssooooo tired of cream soup. i don't ever want a chocolate shake again, you can throw chocolate pudding out the window too. it's all sugar free of course, but when thats all you can eat, even if the milk is skim and the chocolate shakes are protien, IT SUCKS. i want meat, potatoes vegitables. i called my frend a b---- today. then i told her, i'm not mad at you, i just want some food. she hugged me and said it's all right. what a pal.
8/19/07 I knew it would fly by. Here I am 6 days post op. Wow, it seemed like it would never get here and now it is nearly over. On thursday the Dr. will take out the last j.p. drain (what a pain that thing is) and I will be on my way . I am a little depressed because I weigh 2# MORE than when I went into the hosp.! Whattheheckisthat! I feel great. I consume about 600calores a day now, all liquid and with protien of course. I have more energy and I am not short of breath all the time. That in itself is worth it. I guess I just have to be patient. bla. I had a laproscopic proceedure (rny) and it was nearly a breeze. I have had NO complications, and it has been amazing.
I went to see a movie yesterday, and I didn't even want the popcorn and pepsi. I took my propel and had that. What a lifesaver that is. The theater had NOTHING that was sugar free! Except diet pop of course, and we cannot have that. But it felt great to get out of the house and realize there is still a world out there and I will be able to function in it. Even with rearranged insides.
8/25/07ok! i am finally under 340! i am getting somewhere. i'm not sure where, but somewhere weight today is 336. the numbers are nice, but i don't see it on me. thats over 40#. something should show somewhere. i am still wearing the same size clothing. how much do i have to loose to go down to a 30? am i using this as a bitch board? i guess i am. be patient. that is what this is teaching me i guess. Lord, if you want me to have patience how long do i have to wait? i guess i will be happy when i am in a 28. i promise!
8/28/7 Well, I just got out of the hospital with pneumonia of all things! everyone is asking, how did you get that? well heck I don't know. even the dr. asked me that. i asked him how i got it. i woke up sat. feeling pretty good and within an hour i knew i was sick. in another hour i had a 101.4 temp. by the time i got to the hospital my temp was 102.8. i was dizzy and felt awful. they started me on antibiotics right away and today, Monday, i feel much better. weight? even thru all that, and i didn't eat a thing in the hospital, is still holding at 338. and no dress size change!
10/3/7 I am back. guess i just come here to complain. i cannot complain too much but i am only 2 months out and i have hit a plateau, NOT FAIR. from 370 to 320. and i am stuck. stuck stuck. no weight loss for two weeks. could be because i have found out i can eat just about anything. and i mean ANYTHING. i guess i just had to test the limits of this and i can eat larger ammounts than one half cup of food that is for sure, and of course, there have been so many weddings with wonderful food! i only eat an average of 1200 calories a day tho. i know that is a whole lot for two months. with mal absorbtion that should do something. i guess i will have to increase my walking. or find something elce to go along with it. enough complaining. i feel great so i should be glad for something. i also can fit into a 26!!!!!!!!!!! i can buy clothes again. ok now my goal is size 22.
