maisy9905

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Ok took a little longer than planned.  Was scheduled back on Sept 14th, but pre surgery blood work showed my thyroid levels were very low and had to get them back to normal.  Goal then became by the end of the year!  Cutting it close, but yeah it is getting done in 5 days.  Oh my gosh I am so scared.  Yeah I am extremely excited, but my weight is so high is seems undaunting how much has to be lost.  I hate that I let myself go so far.  On the positive I am going to fix this no matter how long it takes.  I want to be a better mom and wife.  I want to run in the park (walking would be great even), play sports with my son, dance with my daughter, enjoy dates with my husband, all the fun things in life that I am missing now!

I have dragged this whole process out way to long - went for the first consult in March of 08.  I could have had this all done by now and well on my way to a healthier life.  Ok letting it go, but still not happy with myself.
Today the lady in charge of insurance at the dr office called to say I have been approved.  The nurse that is in charge of scheduling will be calling in the next few days to schedule the surgery.  Which I am hoping to schedule for the end of August.  Really wanted to have this done before kids went back to school - could be done, but my daughter's birthday is in the middle of August and I really do not want to damper the celebration.  And I would be lying if I did not say I really want birthday cake.  What a way to think - makes me scared that I will fail at this.  Ever since we sent in for the approval I have been mourning food that I can eat now, but not after or really ever should.  So stupid!!!  Calling a counselor tomorrow that deals with food addictions.  Have to start dealing with this!