mallettesl
Happy Anniversary
Jun 13, 2007
I made a promise that on the day of my two year re-birth that I would write my first blog. Well today is the day. I cannot believe that it has been two years already. Time does fly. These last two years have come with challenges and with moments of joy. I have dealt with loss and terrible heartache, and no longer had food to comfort me. My fallback was gone, my homey was history. Its hard to imagine that food was my best friend. Would I trade any of what I have gone through these 24 months? Heck Naw. I learned something from every dumping episode, every extremely tiring day, every huge pill I have to swallow, everytime I cried (lordy..lordy...lordy have I shedded some tears) for lack of anyting else to to do and everytime I dropped a size. I have been maintaining my weight between 145 and 150 and Im happy. The goal was the 170's. That puts me a size 8/10. Are you kidding me ;0)....I think I was that size in elementary school. It is always stated that this a journey, one that changes you from the outside....but there was a profound change that happened on the inside of me as well. I have more confidence, I am not embarassed to go anywhere. I feel that when I walk into a room Im not looked at because people think I won't fit into the chair, I am my own cheerleader now. I feel attractive now. My smile comes easier now. I even went back to school to finish my degree(yes...its different than it used to be) I can fit into the desks now. Don't have to sit at those da$# tables in the back. My dreams are bigger, my goals are bigger and my life is fuller since I decided I was important too. I plan to take risks and to go after the things that fear kept me away from. I feel like im worthy now. The challenge is why did I not feel worthy before?
About Me
Southfield, MI
Location
25.7
BMI
Surgery
06/14/2005
Surgery Date
Apr 12, 2007
Member Since
