MaMaMaRTiNeZz
I joined this site after my very first consultation at the Association of South Bay Surgeons with Dr. Aileen Takahashi on March 15, 2010. I have always been a "big" or "thick" girl. I have never had any problems attracting male attention but since I have become recently divorced, I have noticed that my options are on a steady decline and I believe that it's mostly due to my size. I attribute a lot of my problems with eating and weight to my abandonment issues and those issues have often caused me to fill my emptiness with food. Now that I am a super busy working mom and full-time student, my eating has changed from comfort to straight out convenience. My weight has always been an issue, but I tend to use my sense of humor as a way of acting like I am totally fine with how I look even though I know certain things about me I would change. I will admit that I very often feel embarrassed by my body, even though we are all different shapes and sizes. For a long time I acted like I didn't care how much I weighed and that my size didn't bother me. It really took the birth of my son to wake up and do something about my weight. Before my son, I was 253 pounds but "didn't think I looked that bad" but I was definitely in denial. After I gave birth I was 295 pounds and in utter disbelief. A couple months after he was born, I lost about 15 pounds then gained back about 25. Right now I stand in the mid 290's but I am hoping to get down to 160, that is my ultimate goal! My biggest dream is to be able to be everything to my son and make sure that I can be someone he is proud to be around and not embarassed of. In addition, I come from a family where the woman have beautiful faces and gorgeous figures so I am hopeful to finally look like I fit in body wise. Also, I know this sounds really superficial but I have NEVER been able to wear knee-high or thigh-high boots and I have ALWAYS wanted to...really though I have a passion for boots and shoes so with this surgery I am really hoping I can wear all the cute boots and heels I want one day. :)
