Still waiting, gaining and losing the same 5 pounds!

Oct 16, 2017

Hi All

I was referred to the surgery program in Ontario in mid-July 2017 at Humber River Hospital. Still waiting for the "envelope" for the orientation date. Called into the office twice and still no information. I called again today and left a message. Hope to hear from them. 

In the meantime, I have been trying to change my lifestyle using expert advice from a naturopath and the info I received from the medical program in which I lost and gained back about 45 lbs in the two years. I have seen lost about 40 lbs, eating clean foods, exercising by walking, and joining two strength training/cardio classes at the local community center. Proud of my accomplishments. The problem is that old habits sneak in. I tell myself that I am in control, not the food and then I just binge!! I have lost and gained the same 5 pounds for the last month or more. I am actually looking forward to gum surgery in a few weeks so that I can lose weight and hopefully keep it off just to get off this merry-go-round.

My plan was to build strong healthy habits by eating clean and by exercising so that when I have the surgery which will probably take up to a year, then I have the building blocks to maintain the major loss from the surgery. I am so afraid that I just can't do it. That I will regain all the weight back over the next year or have the surgery and be part of the minority that gains it all back!!! 

I am also frustrated waiting for this letter for the surgical program. I feel like it will never come and I am going to lose momentum. Feeling sorry for myself. Not trusting myself. Feeling stuck. 

Just needed to vent in this forum. Many of you may have had similar feelings. Any advice? 

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