martini-gal
New Years Resolutions
Jan 07, 2008
I do have a new mind set ... I need to move more, more exercise, more sex, more movement any way I can get it. It's a goal and goals are meant to achieve and obtain, not like a resolution. You feel fantastic when you meet your goal. Resolutions just put you down. Have you ever met anyone who actually stayed with their resolution for the entire year .. and you won't find one either .. lol!
As I lose more weight though I see my family life changing, and it's not my choice. I'm still the same person on the inside, just with more confidence of what I want in life today and in my future. Why is it that so many women lose the weight and their husbands change, they feel insecure now and want to change who you really are? The divorce rates are higher for women that have lost the weight, gained confidence and are strong with who they are inside and outside. Personally I feel that the husbands want their wives to stay big so they feel comfortable or secure about another man or woman looking at them in a sexual way. Spouses should be the opposite and say how proud you look or your looking sexier these days .. I always thought I was sexy to begin with. Now I'm just sexier. LOL ... It's a compliment when someone admires your outer appearance. I admire those men that have stood by their wives, encouraged them and wrapped their arms around the entire situation of a new life style.
My six month anniversary is in two weeks. My life has changed for the best. New friends, new eating habits (when I remember to eat), and a new outer image. I am now in a 14/16, I started as a 28/30. It's a wonderful feeling and I know it's just going to get better with time. Like fine wine!
I love taking the stairs everyday at work to the 3rd floor. It's one of my best accomplishments so far. I do that now at least 2-3 times a day. I never just walk .. I hike up and I have never taken the elevator since. Great feeling.
December 15, 2007
Dec 15, 2007
Friends and family probably thought I was weird as I asked for a small plate. I have this phoebia about a large plate as I feel I need to fill the darn thing up and then eat everything on the plate. The small plate has really helped me mentally to adjust to the new lifestyle I have chosen.
It was a wonderful feeling to get on the plane for the first time since surgery and not have the tray sit on my stomach. I sat there with my legs crossed. You and I both know that fluffy people cannot cross their legs .. ha! Another great accomplishment. I love to travel alone as it builds up your confidence even more. It definitely a pleasure when someone now smile at you and it's not because of your size and they feel for you. I actually feel sexy these days. Finally in a size 16 ... and pushing for 12 oh yeah!
So now the challenge is on for exercise. I'm trying to work more body building in to get this figure back into shape ... so stay tuned.
Frustrating!!!
Nov 21, 2007
November 13, 2007
Nov 12, 2007
I must say the ride is starting to smooth out. With this new chart, I have averaged a loss of 12 pds each month. I'm very happy with that and hopefully it will continue, as I am almost 4 months post-op next week. It does scare me though as I have 2 months left of my "honeymoon" phase. But I have changed my eating habits drastically. There are times though that I will eat more than my stomach can hold and I end up being so miserable that I can't move. I just love those edamamas and have a hard time limiting myself to 1 cup verses 2 cups, if I can even get 1 cup down .. ha! I did have 3 little meatballs the other day and thought I was going to die. That taught me a big lesson!!! I must have moaned all night long until I could finally go to the potty! 
But each person is different and you have to learn the hard way sometimes, at least I always have.
My sister-in-law (Sis) just had the RNY. I'm so proud of her that I can't stand myself .. ha!! She is on the same journey I am and it's wonderful to share our experiences together. She was meant to be my sister (God works in funny ways .. just look at the Zebra .. ha!) I have been blessed with a wonderful support team. I also have great support at work. Without all my support I would not be where I am today ... down 71 pounds!! AND going strong. Next week I fly out on Thanksgiving to be with my Sis and I can't wait to see how I fit in the seat on the plane.
I now can fit into an XL ... I just about peed myself when it fit. I never dreamed of being able to fit into that size ever again.
The other day I was trying on my husband's hunting clothes since I have to go up north for the holidays and will freeze my butt off ... his clothes fit!! Now he has no excuse not to buy me clothes anymore .. cuz he now knows my size (for now).. haha.
October 21, 2007
Oct 21, 2007
I am down to 225 which makes me happy. It's fun now watching the clothes start to hang and then the ones I can't wear anymore because they fall off I have been giving them to another girlfriend. Exercise is the key to success though, plus diet and protein.
My goal is still to be 200 by Christmas.
296/225/140
October 15, 2007
Oct 15, 2007
It's taking every bone in my body to pull through this with a smile and positive additude. I know I'm losing thought because my clothes keep falling off. It hasn't been 3 months yet and I am down from a 26/28 to a 20. But no weight is coming off. I just started taking the New Whey liquid protein which is helping me to now reach my goal for protein daily. Hopefully this is where the probem lies. I watch everything I put in my mouth but the scale remains the same. I'M PISSED AND GETTING VERY FUSTRATED!!! My husband who is 14 years older than me is exercising like crazy. He even bought a tampoline. I got on it and practically broke my neck! I can't keep up with his routine and it fustrates me even more. He thinks he's helping me because he keeps telling me its for me. Well it's NOT helping me. I find it a hinder. Why am I such a rebel .......
I still think my problem is that I don't eat enough and weight everything to either 2-3 oz. I just started having salads a week ago, along with the liquid protein. So hopefully now I will see a change in the scale, otherwise there is going to be one huge hole in the wall in the shape of the scale! The motivation to exercise is just not there yet but I'm anxious for it.
October 3, 2007
Oct 03, 2007
Well it's time for the first of the month's update. I still love my VSG and I wouldn't change anything of my journey.
I am now exercising 4-5 times a week with the treadmill and arm weights (working on those darn "bat" wings .. Anyone have a better suggestion?) I bought a new recumbent bike, which is just fabulous. It has video games on it which totally entertains me with blackjack and a couple of other games. I feel like I'm on a space ship with the controls at my fingertips .. ha! I would truly recommend this bike as it takes the pressure off your back and especially your knees, plus it's a blast and exercise needs to be fun. It was worth spending the extra money on it, since it's now part of my new life change.
My work office is located on the 3rd floor and pre-op the elevator was out of service for 3 months. Everyday I climbed those stairs and by the time I reached the top, you could not talk to me for at least 15 minutes, so that I could catch my breath. I wouldn't even go out for lunch because I knew that I would have to climb back up the stairs. Going down wasn't too bad. They finally fixed the elevator, thank goodness! But now post-op I told myself that I was not going to take the elevator that I needed that exercise. I have NOT taken the elevator since.
Here are a few of my accomplishments since post-op: Gone from a dress 26/28 to a solid an 18/20. I've cleaned my closet out at least 5 times and I actually have room for more clothes!! I can cross my legs .. oh my God .. it's the little things in life that make you happy. I exercise happily. I went to a gun show recently and of course, it's mostly men (I was in dreamland). I wore a pair of jeans (18), tank top, belt, tennis shoes and a bra (don't normally wear those, only wore the tanks with the built in shelf ..ha!) I was on cloud nine. I actually had men turn around to take a second peak at the boobs .. HAHAHAHA I forgot I had them since they were always hanging around my stomach. My husband's friend could not stop giving me compliments (and kept starring at my boobs as we chatted). I thought I was going to have to knock him out ... ha! It's been a long time since my husband has been proud of the way I look. Oh and now I have discovered fountain drinks (that's another whole story)
Now for the things I have to work on: MORE PROTEIN and FIBER. There are days I can't go because of too much protein. So now I have had to take supplements like Citracel. It causes gas though and it's not comfortable. Sometimes I just drink my dinner for the protein shake. I do love my SF popsicles and SF vanilla wafers. I will have 4-6 wafers once or twice a week. Breakfast either consists of LF cottage cheese, scrambled eggs (egg beaters), or a hard boiled egg. Lunch is always fish or chicken and maybe if I'm lucky a few veggies, etamame (soy beans) are my favorite but I have to watch them otherwise I'll eat too much and then groan for a while. Dinner is never anything planned. It's hard to have dinner for one. I do have a piece of LF cheese for a snack and recently I discovered beef jerky but have to watch the sodium. I think I need more of a variety to my meals. Any ideas???
September 20, 2007
Sep 19, 2007
I did see my doctor a few weeks ago and everything is going great. I am right on schedule with the weight loss. Which I actually thought was going at a slower pace but then realized from the VSG forum that it was quite normal to lose at a slower rate but safe rate. So now I don't see him until my 6 month post-op. Now that will be exciting to see how much I have lost then. I hope and pray to at least lost 100 pds buy then.
Since 7/23/07 I have gone from a good 26/28 to a size 20. It's a wonderful feeling to go to Dillards (I just love the clearance rack!!) and pick out a 1x and have it fit. It just blows my mind. I'm so use to holding up a skirt or shirt and saying well that won't fit and I need to go to the larger size. Your mind after all those years of being larger knows what will fit and won't when you hold it up. Working in an office setting all day, you can't go around with your skirt falling around your ankles. So I find myself shopping for skirts now that I can take in as time goes by since I know I will only be wearing them for a few months. Shirts or blouses are pretty easy since they look great form fitting or loose. It's the bras that I have a very hard time with. You can't take those darn things in.
All in all things are going smoothly. I do need to exercise more and now that I have wrenched my knee the treadmill is of the past. So now it's on to bike riding or swimming. I NEED to exercise more and haven't yet the energy I thought I would have but then again, I'm 242. So I figure soon I will have that burst of energy a lot of people talk about.
July 13, 2007 pre-op weight 296
Sept 20, 2007 post-op weight 242
August 30, 2007
Aug 30, 2007
I have to look at the bright side though and say to self ... self, at least you are losing and not gaining. It could be worse.
My goal is to be 200 pds by the end of the year. I just pray to the dear Lord that he sees it his way to help me to obtain this goal. After all he is in control and I am just along for the ride.
August 23, 2007
Aug 23, 2007
I don't think that I have been getting enough protein and/or calories and that is why no weight loss. So now I'm going to try and incorporate more of each and see how that goes. Right now I'm lucky if I can get 500 calories down and I haven't been counting the protein, which is not good. I am trying see what other's have done in this same type of situation. I know everyone is different and what works for one might not work for another, but it's worth the try.
