mary_rn
13 months out
Feb 10, 2009
Hello all!Well it has been another interesting month on the loser's bench. I have only lost 3 pounds this month. 3 pounds is a bummer, but compared to the 169 that I have lost total, how can it be that bad?
Highest weight: 355 lbs
current weight: 186 lbs
Pant size before: 32W after: 12
Shirt size before: 5x after: large or xlarge
The last month did indeed hold some first. I had my first, second and third night of drinking. The first night I had 2 Kahala and milks. The second night, I drank about 5 glasses of wine and had some kahala and milks. The third night was the doozy. I drank about 6 large glasses of wine, and 1/2 of a martini. I was totally wasted.
That is the person that I do not want to be. I think that I like the sober life better. I am not saying that I won't ever have another glass of wine on a pretty day, but going out to just get drunk, is not gonna happen again.
On a serious note, people say that wls make couples divorce and go crazy. Come on you know that you have heard it. I was discussing this with my husband, because rude people always tell him that I will leave him soon. Even I, in a loving and happy marriage, have questions that are unanswered. I do not want to nor will I leave my husband. My questions come from, how would my life be different, how would I be different, if I had been thin, and had anyone I wanted at my fingertips? I do think about those things. My answer to my question to my husband was very simple. I do wonder about my life how it would have been different. There are times when I am saddened about all that I missed out on by being morbidly obese. Looking back and then looking forward, I have gained new perspectives. I may have missed out on alot, but I am not missing out on anything now. I would not change my husband for the world. Our relationship only grows daily.
Well another story, I am still being told that I am too skinny. I find this very intersting. I hope to lose 42 more pounds. I recently started working out with a personal trainer. She thinks she can whip me into shape. I think that she may kill me doing it.
I hope that all is well in OH land. More next month!
Love,
Mary
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About Me
Jerseyville, IL
Location
28.3
BMI
Surgery
01/07/2008
Surgery Date
Jan 01, 2008
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