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Just a lil about me
I am 30 years old. I have been with me husband Chris, a Marine SSgt, for 13 years. We have lived in Pensacola for 2 1/2 years. We have 2 children, Miranda & William. I teach them both at home so you could say I am a stay at home teacher. lol :)
Let's see.......I have been over weight for as long as I can remember. When I was in middle school I was a size 12-14. By the time Chris and I got married I was an 18-20. So it has been a gradual climb to my current size of 26-28.
I come from an over weight family. My mom is currently on the low side of 400. My dad is near 300. My sister fights her weight to stay at 175. I use to criticize the way she did it and to the extremes she would go. Today out of all my family, other than Chris, she is the only one standing by me in my decision to have the bypass.
I remember one day when I was at my grandma's house, she told me that my arm was as big as her leg. I thought to myself what right does she have to say anything to me about my weight, when she is as big as she is. The only difference in herand my size was she was big hips up I was big all over. Now I know she was thanking she was helping me. But it was not good to hear.
It seems like I eat all the time. When I am hungry, when I'm not. I love food No! I hate food. Well at least it is a love-hate relationship.
I have been thinking alot about my weight. Diet and exercise here and there. I told my P.C.M. I was thinking about Bypass surgery. She said she was all for it. So she put in a referral to Tricare. Within five days Dr. Lord's office called to schedule me to attend a seminar.
I want to the seminar. It was very educational. Chris and I talk about it hour upon hour. We weighed all the pros and cons. Still weighing. It is such a big decision. I read all I can find on the prosess but I still don't know all.
The excitement I am feeling is just overwhelming, yet at the same time I am scarred that I don't have enough willpower to succeed. I want to. No, I have to. I am ready to walk and not hurt. I want to play with my kids without feeling like my chest is going to collapse.
So I took that step. I have my first colsultation scheduled with Dr. Lord for Wendesday, May 2.
