2nd post

Jul 31, 2009

Well today is my second time blogging, not reallysure what I should write about, things this week have not been so good, I am staying at the same weight which I guess is a good thing, but when your this heavy every day is depressing.  My surgery is set for sept.28th which is not that far away but everyday feels like a year when you want something so badly.  I can't even imagine how long it would have been if i hadn't called for cancellations on the consult and the surgery date.  The worst thing is that I have an amazing husband and kids that love me for who I am and not my weight.  But I hate the way I look.  I feel like I am always eating and never full, so I can't wait till I actually feel full.

Depression has always been a huge issue in my life, growing up I was always overweight or had bad acne and then facial hair, so I have never had a good self esteem.  I guess that I should quite whinning and just be grateful for the good things in my life!  Here's hoping next week will be an easier one!

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