michellelynn1971
My name is Michelle. My husband is a wonderful man, who is very supportive of me. We have 3 beautiful children, Austin 14, Jonathan 11, and Emily 22 months. I have not always been overweight. Not until I started having my precious babies. I also found out that I was hypothyroid after my second child, which is now under control with medication. I have gained and lost and gained back well over 130lbs in the past 15 years. I am by no means blaming pregnancy because I didn't gain much with any of my children, in fact, I lost weight...alot of weight after I delivered. It just seems that after each child, I also gain 30-50 lbs. I have tried so many diets and diet pills...with the yo-yo effect. I want to lose weight so bad, but it takes me forever to take off 10lbs and the I get discouraged and you know what happens then. I have told "VERY" few people how much I weight because I am so embarrassed that I have let myself get to this. So, here it goes...I weight 276, which is not my highest. My highest weight was 289. Okay, so now I have it online for the entire world to read....guess that is my 1st step (admitting).
I feel that I have let my weight rob me of myself. I have become a homebody, which is not me at all. I just don't want to go anywhere, because I have started feeling very uncomfortable. Finding clothes has become impossible. Therefore, I don't have many clothes suitable to go out. The old me was very outgoing, the life of the party, love to make people laugh. Now, I put on a front, I am so unhappy with myself. I can't stand to look in the mirror.
The worst thing is that I feel that my health is starting to be effected. I have not been diagnosed with any health problems, except hypothyroid, but, I haven't had a thorough physical in a few years. I need to make an appointment to do that. I just don't want to keep on the way that I am and one day be tagged with a diagnosis of diabetes, high blood pressure/cholestorol, etc.
Now, let me say this...I have insurance, good insurance , but it does not cover WLS. There is an exclusion. So, I have to pay out of pocket, which means alot of saving!!! I WILL DO IT!!! I want to live again and enjoy my life. I want to play with my kids without feeling worn out. I want to have the confidence that I once had.
