Michelle S.
Six, I started my first diet when I was six years old and now at the age of 25 I am having more issues than just my weight. I am not just worried about the way I look anymore which was the main motivation for every diet I have tried in the past. I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy in December 2007 and now am worried about being a good mom for him. How can I be a good mom if I am fat and can’t run around with him or even worse, if I am dead due to my health. I wake up every morning wishing for all of the answers to change the way I feel about my body, if I felt better about myself would I have the strength to go out there and exercise and diet and for once succeed?
I look at my life and on paper it looks great, I have an amazing and supportive husband who loves me regardless of my weight. I have parents that have always supported me in everything I do and I have the most beautiful son in the world. I have a good job and a beautiful home and 2 dogs. But when I look at the nitty gritty I can’t shop where I want to, I lose my breath just going up the stairs and cringe at the pain in my knees when I walk around the block. At one point in my life I wanted nothing more than to be a news anchor but was so embarrassed by my weight that I pursued radio instead. Once I left the industry I went to sales and was told by my boss that “people don’t take you seriously because of your size.” I never want to face that again. I am embarrassed for my son to have me as a mom and dread the day when his friends make fun of his “fat mommy”. I want to be a woman that he can admire and be proud of. I fear for my life if I don’t make a change but the failure at every diet I have ever tried tells me that there has to be more assistance. Topping the scale at 302 I don’t expect the road to a healthier life and a thinner body to be easy, in fact I think it will be the biggest challenge I have ever faced in my life and one that I am ready to embrace.
I am an avid yo-yo dieter; I lose 10 pounds just to gain 20. I have tried so many diets out there and wonder why I can’t find one that has long term effects. I have realized that for some people it takes more than just dieting and exercise to get to a healthy weight which is why I am looking to LapBand surgery to save my life.
I would like to prove to my family that I want nothing more than to be around for a very long time with them. I want to be motivation and inspiration for others who fear for their lives and be a success story as well as be a hot mama!
I am starting my journey and am having my LapBand surgery the day before I turn 26, April 8th. I know this will be hard work but it will be so rewarding. I can’t wait for what is yet to come!
