Words that hurt.

Sep 07, 2011

What am I doing to myself. I haven't gotten this far for nothing. My husband just said something that really hit home and it hurt. I told him to put hit sleep ap mask on cause he was snoring and he said don't worry if you keep going your going to have one too. Then he sad don't be stupid. Wow that really hurt. But it is so true. Why am I going back to my old habits?I feel like every day I take a step backwards.  It it really true what the pych said that it is all in my head? I just don't know where to start. (Is it my job, my life style, am I just not a happy person?)  I just don't know anymore. I know one thing this  is really hard because I just don't have anyone to talk to anymore now that I have move to Kansas from Michigan. Life just seem to be getting harder for me to ajust too. I am going to be 49 on September 29th and still don't know how to take charge of my life. I just wish someone could tell me how.....
There use to be  days I look at myself in the mirror and said wow. Now I look and say why did this have to happen to me.  I lost 130 pounds now I have only lost 100. I have bat wings and elephant legs fat haning from my tummy and no hope of being able to have plastic surgery. So as I look in the mirror I say why keep going?
Sorry I am venting just had a very bad day  today. Knowone to talk to so I write.

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