3 months out.....blah

Oct 28, 2009

I was 3 months out a few days ago, but oh well. I last weighed myself a couple of weeks ago, and had only lost 1 lb from the previous couple of weeks, so I was mad, and haven't weighed since then. Total weight loss since surgery is 51 lbs

I am a bit dissappointed and depressed. This has been difficult, handling my food addiction, and my carb craze. I need to do better, and I know I am not doing my best, and I am tired of being dissappointed in myself.

Last night I got my hair done, bought a LOT of makeup (when you are starting over, it costs alot!!), and a couple cute shirts. I am having some wows, I have more people telling me they can see the loss. I can fit into pants that I havent' fit into since 2007. I have lots more energy (though not as much as I would like). My fingers and face are noticeably skinnier.

I still feel like this is all surreal, I will be that one DS'r that will stop losing @ the 51 lb mark, and than gain it all back.

I have so many issues I am struggling with. Regret, guilt, shame......I know I will feel better soon, but right now I am just not feeling real good about myself.

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