miggy429
2 weeks out- reality check
Jun 24, 2010
I posted a msg about being upset about only losing 16 lbs. Thanks to all who posted back a reality check.
I had a good conversation with my husband about how I need him to be supportive as opposed to how he feels he should be supportive. (He's really been driving me crazy asking "are you sure you should have that? etc). I also had him measure me yesterday, so I have another method of tracking the progress I am making. Going to try pilates again today, tried it last week but I think it was too soon because it made my stomach really sore. I figure if I can bump up my activity every week, I can keep from hitting "stalls" anytime soon. I have such a fear of failing. I haven't been a normal wt since early high school. I can imagine being thin...I do it all the time while I'm treading..lol..I imagine what I will look like, and the things I will do to help me stay motivated. However, I think when push comes to shove, I don't really believe it will ever happen. I can't conceive of ACTUALLY being thin and healthy. Does that sound weird?
I have to stay grounded. I have to keep my expectations real. I have to stay positive. I have to find a way to think "good job" instead of "you could have done better." I have to have faith and stick to the plan.
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I had a good conversation with my husband about how I need him to be supportive as opposed to how he feels he should be supportive. (He's really been driving me crazy asking "are you sure you should have that? etc). I also had him measure me yesterday, so I have another method of tracking the progress I am making. Going to try pilates again today, tried it last week but I think it was too soon because it made my stomach really sore. I figure if I can bump up my activity every week, I can keep from hitting "stalls" anytime soon. I have such a fear of failing. I haven't been a normal wt since early high school. I can imagine being thin...I do it all the time while I'm treading..lol..I imagine what I will look like, and the things I will do to help me stay motivated. However, I think when push comes to shove, I don't really believe it will ever happen. I can't conceive of ACTUALLY being thin and healthy. Does that sound weird?
I have to stay grounded. I have to keep my expectations real. I have to stay positive. I have to find a way to think "good job" instead of "you could have done better." I have to have faith and stick to the plan.
One week post op
Jun 14, 2010
Well, it almost seems difficult to believe it's only been a week. It' seems like much longer. Maybe because I've been all over the place. The surgery, the hospital stay, coming home, feeling like crap, feeling pretty good, needing to crap ( my apologies to all those with tender sensibilities), and then back to feeling like crap because you can't! Oh, and on top of it all, today is my 5 yr wedding anniversary! My hubby got me a card, and some flowers..but...we are obviously not going out for dinner, and we can't stay in for a "romantic evening" * wink wink, because that too is on the list of prohibited activities . Oh well! Guess we'll just have to make up for it next year at a really fancy restaurant (where the portions are always small anyway..lol!) and afterwards who knows....I may be able to figure out Victoria's Secret by then!
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