Minayun
A year and some change later =)
Nov 10, 2012
I'm finally under 200lbs! yayyyy I haven't been under 200lbs in over a decade, way over a decade. For a few months there things were going slowly and I didn't think I was going to get there but after a little bit of a hump to get over I'm losing again. My diabetes is still gone and my A1C is still perfect. It's truly a miracle when a person has Diabetes, as bad as I did and be able to totally have that removed from their life. That is the biggest reason why I had this surgery and it has totally paid off. Not to mention how much better I feel, inside and out. I'm going through other issues in my life right now and have been under a lot of stress, which is why I haven't been on here for a spell. Things are still crazy but I wanted to get on here for an update and I'm going to try my hardest to get on more often.
Very happy =)
Oct 13, 2011
I hadn't weighed in about a month or so, I weighed today, hoping that i was in the 250's and was thrilled to see I was 248! I haven't been in the 40's for a very long time. I am seeing more results now after having a few stalls. I had to go to urgent care today and found out that i have a kidney infection (where I got weighed). they gave me antibiotics and vicodin so I'm hoping to feel better tomorrow. The weight loss helped to take away the pain a little bit =)
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Feeling normal again
Sep 12, 2011
I'm really getting use to my new life, eating what i'm suppose to, even though I could be exercising a lot more. I'm curious to know if i've lost anymore weight. As I've said before, I don't have a scale and don't plan on getting one. If I did have one, I would be weighing non-stop and obsessing over it. Guess I'll find out at the end of Oct. I hope the rest of my week goes as well as it's started out.
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I'm on my way to slimming down but what about my kids?
Aug 30, 2011
My whole weighloss journey is actually going pretty well and I'm starting to get into this new rhythm of eating. I'm curious to see what my weight will be next at my next appt with my surgeon which is 2 months ago. I won't be weighing myself before then unless I have to go to the doctor for anything else.
So, the reason I'm feeling down today is because I was trying some clothes on my 6 year old daughter, for school and hardly any of the clothes fit her anymore. Last year they were all big on her. She is only 6 and she wears a 10/12 size. The worst part is that these are school uniforms and she HAS to wear them. School uniforms don't really look good on a thin child, much less someone who is over weight. I hate that my kids have to wear these uniforms. For my 9 year old son, it's so much easier with him wearing the uniforms but then again he's not over weight like his sister. I feel so sad inside because I love my daughter so much and I don't want to see her having a horrible childhood because she is constantly being made fun of or just for the fact that she could have all kinds of medical problems. Diabetes runs in both sides of the family and so does being overweight. I have to do something to help her before it's too late. When any of my kids ask for something to eat I always say yes and that's totally my fault. When I was young, my mom never bought food for the house. During summers we would be starving all day, just waiting for her to get off of work so we could go get our 1 meal a day, fast food. We were so damn hungry that eating that 1 meal felt like nothing. During school year, it was the same thing and we didn't get lunch money so we didn't eat all day. Not because she didn't have the money. I'll never know why that happened. But i'm not trying to make this post to be all about my past. What I was getting at is that my sister and I were constantly hungry and I hated that feeling. I told myself I would never deprive my kids from food. That I would always have food in the house, keeping it stocked at all time. I never want my kids to feel hunger. That's why it's so hard to tell my kids no. Especially when they cry. I feel like the most horrible mom in the world. My kids both told me before i got the surgery that they love me just the way I am and I definitely love my kids just the way they are but I had to change my life with this surgery so i can be healhier. I need to do the same with my kids. I need to help them be healhier and get more exercise. Please God, show me the way and give me the strenght to say no when it needs to be no. Please don't let my kids think I love them any less. It has to be tough love time.
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So, the reason I'm feeling down today is because I was trying some clothes on my 6 year old daughter, for school and hardly any of the clothes fit her anymore. Last year they were all big on her. She is only 6 and she wears a 10/12 size. The worst part is that these are school uniforms and she HAS to wear them. School uniforms don't really look good on a thin child, much less someone who is over weight. I hate that my kids have to wear these uniforms. For my 9 year old son, it's so much easier with him wearing the uniforms but then again he's not over weight like his sister. I feel so sad inside because I love my daughter so much and I don't want to see her having a horrible childhood because she is constantly being made fun of or just for the fact that she could have all kinds of medical problems. Diabetes runs in both sides of the family and so does being overweight. I have to do something to help her before it's too late. When any of my kids ask for something to eat I always say yes and that's totally my fault. When I was young, my mom never bought food for the house. During summers we would be starving all day, just waiting for her to get off of work so we could go get our 1 meal a day, fast food. We were so damn hungry that eating that 1 meal felt like nothing. During school year, it was the same thing and we didn't get lunch money so we didn't eat all day. Not because she didn't have the money. I'll never know why that happened. But i'm not trying to make this post to be all about my past. What I was getting at is that my sister and I were constantly hungry and I hated that feeling. I told myself I would never deprive my kids from food. That I would always have food in the house, keeping it stocked at all time. I never want my kids to feel hunger. That's why it's so hard to tell my kids no. Especially when they cry. I feel like the most horrible mom in the world. My kids both told me before i got the surgery that they love me just the way I am and I definitely love my kids just the way they are but I had to change my life with this surgery so i can be healhier. I need to do the same with my kids. I need to help them be healhier and get more exercise. Please God, show me the way and give me the strenght to say no when it needs to be no. Please don't let my kids think I love them any less. It has to be tough love time.
Eating out with the family for the first time.
Aug 23, 2011
We went to a place called O' Charleys for dinner and I orderd grilled chicken breast with a baked potato with very little butter. It was pretty damn good. I ate about half of the chicken breast and maybe half of my potato. I still couldn't help drooling over my husband's huge bacon cheese burger and fries. That was the first time I've ever eaten there and still had half of my food left. Oh and they have the best hot rolls that they bring out to you before dinner. That's always been the best part of going there lol but I got none this time. I was thinking about having a piece of one but held myself back.
I think I need to start drinking more of the protein powder shakes again because I had one for lunch and it really filled me up more so, than any of the "real food" has. Hoping tomorrow will be another good day
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I think I need to start drinking more of the protein powder shakes again because I had one for lunch and it really filled me up more so, than any of the "real food" has. Hoping tomorrow will be another good day
What's wrong with me?
Aug 22, 2011
Today I had some mac and cheese with tuna mixed in (yeah probably not a good idea to be eating the mac and cheese but it's what everyone else was having and it was just easier)and I ate a nice amount of it, i finished what was on my plate and I kept waiting for the fullness to come and it never did. I've been hungry ever since. I'm scared to eat again because I don't want to be let down with not getting that full feeling. Sometime I wonder if the surgeon even did anything to my insides and it's all a big joke?
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Day 28
Aug 21, 2011
I have to say that life has gotten a bit better now that I can eat more food but it also scares me a bit. Seems like I can eat pretty much anything and my stomach can tolerate it. Not that I've been eating anything bad but when my family is having their dinner and i'm really wanting to eat what they are having, i find it helps if i have just 1 bite of of it. I just hope that someday I don't decide to take another bite and yet another.
I go to my 1 month appt at VSA on thursday. I'm curious to see how much weight I have lost, seeing as though I don't have a scale and don't plan on buying one. I'm not looking forward to the 2 1/2 hour drive there and then back. Hopefully my incision will be healed by then, too. The glue that they put on it in the er fell off today finally but the middle part of it still wasn't healed. I bought some of the butterfly bandaids and it looks like it will heal up nicely now. I've been really slacking on my exercise and getting my protein in but it seems like I never get any me time and the kids are always on me with something. I'm so glad they all start back to school on thursday and i plan on really stepping up my game and getting this weight off.
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I go to my 1 month appt at VSA on thursday. I'm curious to see how much weight I have lost, seeing as though I don't have a scale and don't plan on buying one. I'm not looking forward to the 2 1/2 hour drive there and then back. Hopefully my incision will be healed by then, too. The glue that they put on it in the er fell off today finally but the middle part of it still wasn't healed. I bought some of the butterfly bandaids and it looks like it will heal up nicely now. I've been really slacking on my exercise and getting my protein in but it seems like I never get any me time and the kids are always on me with something. I'm so glad they all start back to school on thursday and i plan on really stepping up my game and getting this weight off.
Day 21
Aug 15, 2011
Today wasn't the best day. I guess my cravings were just extra strong? My husband, of course, didn't think there was anything in the kitchen to make for dinner and suggested he go to burger king to get him and the kids something and I was trying to tell him, yes we do have things in there to make! But, obviously he just wanted fast food. After I had already been craving everything and anything all day, there was no way i was going to sit in the living room with them while they feasted so I went to my bedroom and closed the door. I felt so very alone in my own home with my own family. It's so weird because before surgery burger king was my least favorite place to eat at but yet today I could have gotten anything on the menu and ate it happily. It must all really be in my head because also before surgery, we ate out all the time and I got so tired of food and nothing really tasted good anymore because we had it all the time. I use to tell myself that I was ready for this surgery because I was literally tired of food. I didn't expect all these cravings still and to be as strong as they are. How I wish I had someone who was going through this, who was here with me, living in my house, eating with me, everyday. It would be so much easier if I didn't feel so alone. I do thank God for my online friends, though because I know it would be so much harder without that support. I know I made the best choice ever by deciding to go through with this surgery. I'm happy for the amount of weight I've lost so far and the best part ever is that my diabetes turned to normal basically overnight. I'm scared, though, that this surgery isn't going to work for me or that everything i've done so far will be for nothing. Everyday I read how hardly anyone has had this surgery and actually kept it off. I don't want to be set up for failure before it's even happened. It's so very sad how much food can affect someones life. I have to have hope that the days will get easier and more "normal". I also have to try my very best to get the rest of my family to eat healthier. That was also my goal from the beginning. I thought it was my husband's, too. Both of my youngest children are getting chunky and protest against eating anything healthy. I love them so much and don't want them heading into the same mess that I went through and am still going through. I hope I can sleep soon. It seems like I can't get myself to fall asleep for anything and when I finally do get there I don't want to wake up. Everything is so much easier when you are asleep.
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Day 17
Aug 12, 2011
Had my first egg today and it was blissful! Never did an egg taste so good. I made two scrambled eggs and thought i'd be able to eat it all but I started to get full after about 1. I was actually scared I would be able to eat them both and wouldn't be full because it didn't look like much. So the rest of the family had pizza grrrr! after that they had icecream! Sometimes I get a little pissed off during these times because they are eating all of this in front of me and not even considering my feelings. Like I said in a previous post, I know I can't expect them to start eating healthy all of a sudden just because of me but it still doesn't stop me from getting mad/aggrivated/hurt. A lot of people who have had the rny have said they lost all their cravings for food and have to force themselves to eat. I was expecting that to be the case with me but it's not. Some days are better than others, of course and I hope everyday gets easier.
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Day 16
Aug 11, 2011
I found some great tasting protein powder today, finally something I can drink and finish and not gag the whole time. I've heard lots of people talk about unjury.com and thought i would give it a try. It has no yucky after taste or anything sooooo happy! I haven't been good about getting my protein in but I think this new stuff will help me. I'm sipping on an isopure right now which is the worst thing yet that i've tasted but it has tons of protein so i'm drinking as much as I can. I'm kind of worried about my incision. It is still leaking stuff but just a little bit and it doesn't look like pus or anything but it just looks hidious. I guess if it doesn't start getting better I will call my surgeons office and drive the 2 and 1/2 hours there. Thats a whole lot better than getting a nasty infection. My kids and my husband had hot dogs and mac n cheese for dinner. That was always a dinner I didn't look forward to before but it smelled soooooo good! I wanted to shove a hot dog down my throat and eat the whole pan of mac n cheese lol but obviously that didn't happen =)
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About Me
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Surgery
07/26/2011
Surgery Date
Mar 03, 2011
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