This is it!

Feb 28, 2010

Im going to do it. Ive decided. I have no idea if I will ever even be approved. But to me the first hurdle was to make up in my own mind that I wanted to.
I require a desperate change in my life. If I dont I know I will succomb to all the horrible disease and death that took members of my family. Diabetes, Heart disease.
I have a beautiful, wonderful family that mean so much to me. I realized that in order to walk, swim, play on the beach, climb the trails in the mountains that I have to lose a considerable amount of weight.
I am allready holding hands with diabetes, metabolic syndrome, extreme joint pain, obstructive sleep apnea and just plain feeling lousy.
One of my favorite things to do is to take a bubble bath. Its a relaxing treat to me that I have enjoyed all of my life. But a couple of weeks ago, following a long bath I could hardly get out of the tub. Talk about having your breath taken away! It was a huge eye opener.
I cant enjoy the day to day things that someone much smaller than I can.
* I struggle to tie my shoes
* I have trouble getting up off the floor
* I cant walk one flight of stairs without being winded
* I cant walk long distances
But its time for a change. I want a long list of things I can do.
I was never overweight until I had my first child. By the end of my second pregnancy it started getting out of control.
I visited all of the weight loss possibilities.
I did WW four times, I tried Atkins, Southbeach, Dr Phil, The Biggest Loser Diet, I tried limiting myself to 35 grams of fat, to under 1200 calories, I tried nothing but exercise. I tried weird soups, only meat, only fruit. The thing is some or all worked to some extent. 5-30 pounds I could lose. Only to gain it back and then slip back down that slope of self defeat.
But when you start getting diagnoses. When the doctor tells you your going to die young if you dont change. You kick yourself for not being able to stomach the magic soup to lose 100+ pounds or why cant you just put the fork down and walk away??
Portion size is a problem for me. I was taught you have to clean your plate. So I did.
But this is it! Ive decided I need a serious tool. I need help! And Im not going to worry what others say. I only need the support of my husband and friends. And I will fly. And Im so thankfl for all of the new friends I am meeting who have been down this WLS road before. I am looking forward to my journey.
God Bless you all and I look forward to getting to know everyone better.

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