Long Time No Update! 5 mo.

Aug 21, 2009

Hope all is well with everyone out there!

I know I am so bad at these updates, I used to do a weekly one on youtube now I am lucky to do one monthly!
I am 5 months post op.  I started out at 315lbs./55.7 BMI.  I now am 231lbs./40.9 BMI. I don't loose my breath while going up the stairs anymore, in fact I can run up them! I am way less fatigued however lately something is going on where I am again~maybe my levels.  Feeling so much better, not as many reactions as I thought I would get but friends are cheering me on and that makes me feel good! I have lost 84 pounds now...84...that in itself is truly awesome! I can't believe it! Somedays I still get irritated with not being able to eat what I want but all in all I would totally do it again in a heartbeat! I am so happy! Its kinda funny, when you are overweight and have all these feelings of who cares, worthlessness, etc. you don't care about the flab, but when you loose weight and that flab gets so jiggly and disgusting thats all you think about! At least for me, I never thought I would want to have plastic surgery like I do.  I hate my body flab and if insurance doesn't pay for a tummy tuck and back fat, I can't have it done, which depresses me so much! Its like I can never be satisfied! Are these normal feelings? Anyone else feeling the same way? AAUUUGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!Anyways, I am doing well and other than the challenge of my teenager and kids going back to school, Life is fair! Take Care All!

<3 Monika

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