mkieffer
6/16/2010
Jun 16, 2010
Well, I have not been on this site in over a year. It is amazing how you think you can continue without help from your friends only to find yourself failing on your own. I have gained 15-20 lbs in the past few months and can't seem to get my eating under control again. I'm scared. I don't want to weigh this I want myself back! I know I can do it, I just have to some how summons the courage I once had and get my butt exercising and eating under control.
My son will be getting married on July 31st. He is marrying his high school sweetheart and Lexi is a wonderful girl who we love. My daughter is back from Las Vegas thank goodness, she graduated cosmotology school from Vegas and the completed the hours she needs to work in South Dakota. She will be taking her state boards next month and then hopefully working full time in the field she went to school for.
I hope to be back on here daily to help get my life back...so till next time...
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My son will be getting married on July 31st. He is marrying his high school sweetheart and Lexi is a wonderful girl who we love. My daughter is back from Las Vegas thank goodness, she graduated cosmotology school from Vegas and the completed the hours she needs to work in South Dakota. She will be taking her state boards next month and then hopefully working full time in the field she went to school for.
I hope to be back on here daily to help get my life back...so till next time...
2/5/2009
Feb 05, 2009
Well, it has been a few months since I last posted. Since then, I have fully recovered nicely from my BL w/ augmentation and Brachioplasty. Summer was good and it was nice to go thru summer with out the saggy boobs and arms. I am not a happy with the way my breasts look right now, I think they could have been lifted better, they do look natural, but, I guess we are never fully satisfied. On January 26th, I had my exteded tummy tuck. I again developed a horrible rash from everything they put on me. The tape, gauze, elastic band that holds the drain bulbs, hoses from the drains. Literally everything they put on me I am allergic to. So, after just one week instead of taking out all the staples and re taping me, they took all the take off and only every other staple so the incision stays closed and the rash will heal up. I also was placed on Steroids to get me over the allergic reaction I am having from all of it, can't wait to be done with those, they make me very dizzy and I feel aweful with a speeding heart and nausea, but it is much better than wanting to scratch my brains out. I still have my 2 drains in and am scared to death tohave them removed, but at the same time can't wait to get them out. They are on the back side of each hip and I am always sitting on them or laying on them when I go to bed at night. Now that I don't have gauze and tape around the incertion site, they are really tender also. All in all though I am so happy with the way my tummy turned out. Even with it still swollen and I still have stretch marks on the lower half, it is so nice and flat and there is no wrinkly nasty looking skin.
I think I want to research having my thighs done, but I won't do that until next year if at all. I just don't know if I am supposed to be going through anymore surgeries and this last one really took it out of me more so than the ones in the past. Maybe my body and God is tellingme that enough is enough. I do hate the way my thighs look, but I could live with that since I don't wear short shorts and even in the summer I have always worn shorts with my swim suits. So, I will give it one year and then check into it.
I do want to thank God and I give Him all the credit for everything he has provided for me through this journey. He is the reason I have gone through so smoothly from providing the money to pay for everything in cash and also the recovery. The next person to thank would be my husband. He is my rock, he tries to be so patient with me and he just loves me regardless of what I look like and is always there to support me, never telling me what he thinks I should do, he just says what do you want, then when I tell him, he just says go for it, sounds great. I love him so much and thank God everyday for putting him in my life.
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I think I want to research having my thighs done, but I won't do that until next year if at all. I just don't know if I am supposed to be going through anymore surgeries and this last one really took it out of me more so than the ones in the past. Maybe my body and God is tellingme that enough is enough. I do hate the way my thighs look, but I could live with that since I don't wear short shorts and even in the summer I have always worn shorts with my swim suits. So, I will give it one year and then check into it.
I do want to thank God and I give Him all the credit for everything he has provided for me through this journey. He is the reason I have gone through so smoothly from providing the money to pay for everything in cash and also the recovery. The next person to thank would be my husband. He is my rock, he tries to be so patient with me and he just loves me regardless of what I look like and is always there to support me, never telling me what he thinks I should do, he just says what do you want, then when I tell him, he just says go for it, sounds great. I love him so much and thank God everyday for putting him in my life.
07/02/2008
Jul 02, 2008
Wow, time sure flies!!! I am one month out from having my plastic surgery done. On May 28th I had Brachioplasty and Breast lift w/ augmentation. I am feeling pretty good. It is strange that it has taken so long for recovery this time around, I normally bounce back from surgeries and this time it seems like it is taking forever. I am so glad I have had this done and can't wait till January 2009 to have the bottom half done.
I went to Dr Carver for my plastics. I feel like he really knows what he is doing, very experienced but has no personality. I was scheduled for surgery at 11:00am on the 28th and was supposed to check in at 9:00am. I was just getting ready to take a show when they called and said to come in right away (around 8:00) because they can get me in early. I took a fast shower and we left getting there about 8:20. The people there were very nice and things went very quick, they started my IV, the anestisiologist came in and chatted with me, he was such a friendly person, made me feel really comfortable and was very caring, the doctor came in and marked me then they walked me to the operating room, there they had me lay down, started putting the air compression things on my legs and I was told to just close my eyes so the meds they were giving me didn't make me too dizzy, next thing I know I was being asked if I wanted some toast and 7up and was sitting in a recliner fully dressed. That was a wierd feeling, they told me that they just had to say my name once and I had my eyes open and was all smiles. I don't remember any of it. I know my arms felt really tight and the left one hurt alot. I couldn't feel my chest at all, there was not pain or anything which was great since my left arm was feeling terrible, the nurse gave me some oral pain meds right away and it eased up a lot after about 20 minutes. I ate my toast and drank some 7up, then she asked me if I wanted to use the bathroom. I walked over to the bathroom and couldn't go. When I went back to the room, she said that I had to pee before I could go home and if I couldn't do it on my own I would have to have a cathiter, needless to say, I said to take me back to the restroom and turn on the water. That was all it took. I got to go home. The ride home was fine, my sister-in-law had brought me a huge teddy bear and that really helped to rest my arms on. After I got home, I was still pretty numb and just rested, ate supper and then went to bed. I only had to take my pain meds for the first day after surgery, then went to just extra strength tylenol after that except at night, I took my pain meds so I could get some good sleep at night. My husband stayed with me the first couple of days, then had to run to town on the third day, so I stayed home for an hour and a half. While I was home, my little dog decided that since dad was not home to keep her off of me, she would enjoy the time with me and jumped from the floor, up over the ottoman, up over my knees which were bent up and landed right on my chest.........OMG...........talk about pain. My husband called right at that time to hear me crying, I told him what happend and he came right home. I ended up taking more of the pain meds and everything else seemed to be alright.
My first post-op appointment was in 1 week after having surgery, I was not supposed to shower that whole time..........yuck...........on Sunday, Kyndra helped me wash my hair and Cliff helped me get in the shower and wash up my bottom half with the hand held shower head. I felt so much better. I then did the same thing on Wednesday before my appointment. The appointment went good, they unwrapped my arms and took out all the staples from them which was painful. Cliff had to hold up my arms as they pulled them out, there was about 30 staples in each arm, the only part of my arms that were numb was close to my elbows, the arm pits were the worse!!!, they got done with that and then changed all the tapes on my breasts and arms and I was good to go for another week. When they were changing the tapes the nurse commented on a blood blister I had under my right breast, I didn't think anything about it since it had been covered with gauze, when I got home, Kyndra wanted to see my new boobs, so I opened my bra and she about freeked out, she said Mom, you are bleeding really bad, I looked down and seen all the blood on my bra and went to have Cliff look at it, he said the bra has scrapped all the skin off the blister which was 3 inches long and 2 inches wide. We got it cleaned up and put some neosporine on it and put more gauze on it.
Each week going back was the same thing, doctor undid the tapes, checked thing over and the nurse came in and taped me back up. I started developing a rash under my breasts, doctor said it was normal from the paper tape they used. On Sunday after the 3rd post op visit, I went in to take a shower and as I washed under my right breast, I had a horrible pain, I finished showering and looked under my breast and there was a hole about the size of a pencil eraser. I had Cliff look at it and he said, yes it is a hole, need to get that taken care of. I called the doctor's office on Monday to get an appointment to get the hole checked and went in on Tuesday. The doctor and nurse came in and the doctor started digging in it with tweezers and scisors and started cutting out stitches. He said it was normal for this to happen in this area since there are so many stiches in there all fighting for room and they were trying to push each other out. After what felt like 10 minutes of digging and cutting, he got the ones out that were causing the problems and said it will take a long time for the hole to close on its own. It was a horrible thing to go through and the pain was the worse from all the digging. I asked about the rash which is now extended from around my ribs on each side, down my ribs and up and over my breasts. It itched like no other, they just said to put cortaid on it and sent me home. After 2 night of no sleep, I started washing the area with liquid dial soad 3x a day, putting a prescription anti-itch ointment that my friend had given me on it and taking benedryl (50mg) at night and finally got some relief. The rash is now pretty much cleared up and the hole is closing nicely. I keep neosporin on a gauze and use my bra to hold it in place so I don't have to put any more tape on me. I have no clue what is going to be like when I have my lower body lift and thigh lift done when they tape me for that. I might have to ask that they use something else.
I will get pictures posted of my surgery as soon as I can figure it out.
That is about it for now and will try and update more later.
I went to Dr Carver for my plastics. I feel like he really knows what he is doing, very experienced but has no personality. I was scheduled for surgery at 11:00am on the 28th and was supposed to check in at 9:00am. I was just getting ready to take a show when they called and said to come in right away (around 8:00) because they can get me in early. I took a fast shower and we left getting there about 8:20. The people there were very nice and things went very quick, they started my IV, the anestisiologist came in and chatted with me, he was such a friendly person, made me feel really comfortable and was very caring, the doctor came in and marked me then they walked me to the operating room, there they had me lay down, started putting the air compression things on my legs and I was told to just close my eyes so the meds they were giving me didn't make me too dizzy, next thing I know I was being asked if I wanted some toast and 7up and was sitting in a recliner fully dressed. That was a wierd feeling, they told me that they just had to say my name once and I had my eyes open and was all smiles. I don't remember any of it. I know my arms felt really tight and the left one hurt alot. I couldn't feel my chest at all, there was not pain or anything which was great since my left arm was feeling terrible, the nurse gave me some oral pain meds right away and it eased up a lot after about 20 minutes. I ate my toast and drank some 7up, then she asked me if I wanted to use the bathroom. I walked over to the bathroom and couldn't go. When I went back to the room, she said that I had to pee before I could go home and if I couldn't do it on my own I would have to have a cathiter, needless to say, I said to take me back to the restroom and turn on the water. That was all it took. I got to go home. The ride home was fine, my sister-in-law had brought me a huge teddy bear and that really helped to rest my arms on. After I got home, I was still pretty numb and just rested, ate supper and then went to bed. I only had to take my pain meds for the first day after surgery, then went to just extra strength tylenol after that except at night, I took my pain meds so I could get some good sleep at night. My husband stayed with me the first couple of days, then had to run to town on the third day, so I stayed home for an hour and a half. While I was home, my little dog decided that since dad was not home to keep her off of me, she would enjoy the time with me and jumped from the floor, up over the ottoman, up over my knees which were bent up and landed right on my chest.........OMG...........talk about pain. My husband called right at that time to hear me crying, I told him what happend and he came right home. I ended up taking more of the pain meds and everything else seemed to be alright.
My first post-op appointment was in 1 week after having surgery, I was not supposed to shower that whole time..........yuck...........on Sunday, Kyndra helped me wash my hair and Cliff helped me get in the shower and wash up my bottom half with the hand held shower head. I felt so much better. I then did the same thing on Wednesday before my appointment. The appointment went good, they unwrapped my arms and took out all the staples from them which was painful. Cliff had to hold up my arms as they pulled them out, there was about 30 staples in each arm, the only part of my arms that were numb was close to my elbows, the arm pits were the worse!!!, they got done with that and then changed all the tapes on my breasts and arms and I was good to go for another week. When they were changing the tapes the nurse commented on a blood blister I had under my right breast, I didn't think anything about it since it had been covered with gauze, when I got home, Kyndra wanted to see my new boobs, so I opened my bra and she about freeked out, she said Mom, you are bleeding really bad, I looked down and seen all the blood on my bra and went to have Cliff look at it, he said the bra has scrapped all the skin off the blister which was 3 inches long and 2 inches wide. We got it cleaned up and put some neosporine on it and put more gauze on it.
Each week going back was the same thing, doctor undid the tapes, checked thing over and the nurse came in and taped me back up. I started developing a rash under my breasts, doctor said it was normal from the paper tape they used. On Sunday after the 3rd post op visit, I went in to take a shower and as I washed under my right breast, I had a horrible pain, I finished showering and looked under my breast and there was a hole about the size of a pencil eraser. I had Cliff look at it and he said, yes it is a hole, need to get that taken care of. I called the doctor's office on Monday to get an appointment to get the hole checked and went in on Tuesday. The doctor and nurse came in and the doctor started digging in it with tweezers and scisors and started cutting out stitches. He said it was normal for this to happen in this area since there are so many stiches in there all fighting for room and they were trying to push each other out. After what felt like 10 minutes of digging and cutting, he got the ones out that were causing the problems and said it will take a long time for the hole to close on its own. It was a horrible thing to go through and the pain was the worse from all the digging. I asked about the rash which is now extended from around my ribs on each side, down my ribs and up and over my breasts. It itched like no other, they just said to put cortaid on it and sent me home. After 2 night of no sleep, I started washing the area with liquid dial soad 3x a day, putting a prescription anti-itch ointment that my friend had given me on it and taking benedryl (50mg) at night and finally got some relief. The rash is now pretty much cleared up and the hole is closing nicely. I keep neosporin on a gauze and use my bra to hold it in place so I don't have to put any more tape on me. I have no clue what is going to be like when I have my lower body lift and thigh lift done when they tape me for that. I might have to ask that they use something else.
I will get pictures posted of my surgery as soon as I can figure it out.
That is about it for now and will try and update more later.
5/7/08
May 07, 2008
Oh my, Oh my, things are changing in my house. I turned 40 on April 25th. That was a big one for me, still not sure how I like that one, getting older sure does suck but I guess it is better than the alternative. I had an awesome birthday party. My husband Cliff and daughter Kyndra set the whole thing up. It was supposed to be a surprise, but I knew about it the whole time. They rented a room at the Quality Inn and had them cater it, then after we had to be out of that room, we went over to the bar and danced all night long. All of the people I love were there and I couldn't have asked for more. I actually wore high heel sandles all night with dancing and everything and my feet didn't hurt once. Then next morning when I woke up my butt and legs were killing me, but I say that is from the awesome workout I got dancing for 6 hours straight. Then to top of the evening, my husband got me a cruise for my 40th and our 20th anniversary which is in June, so that will be exciting. Now I just have to figure out where I want to go and get it planned. It will be good timing since it will be after I have my boobs and arms done, the only thing that would be better would be if I had the tummy tuck also, but I will take what I can get.
My daughter is moving for sure this time. At first she kept saying she was going to Chicago with her friend Ashley, and those plans fell through. Now for sure she will be moving to Las Vegas. She goes there next week to check out the house her friend Danielle and a couple others will be renting, and check things out, then will be moving in July to go to the Euphoria school to do hair. I am so excited for her, but at the same time am scared to have her in such a big city so far away. She is 19 now so I have to accept she would be going out on her own sooner or later, I just wish it would have been later. I just hope she remembers I fully expect her to come back when she is done with school.
I have been having a hard time keeping on track lately. My eating is soooooooo out of control and I think alot of it has to do with the stresses in my life right now. I have been filling in out at the Children's Home in the kitchen, which is hard enough to be cooking and around food all the time, this job that was supposed to be fill in has turned into full time and I am just plain tired. Kyndra moving has me stressed and there has been so added pressures between Cliff and me with is Dad being in the hospital, he had his prostrate removed due to cancer but is doing excellent and it has not spread to any other areas, so that has Cliff on edge which automatically puts me on edge. My upcoming plastics has me a bit nervous also. I also know that the work environment is not the best for me and since I have stopped going to church, my anger is back. I remember being angry all the time before I started going to church and now it is all back. I need to get my but back and on track. I know that will help me, but I am just having a hard time. I also have stopped exercising. LORD help me. I can't do it on my own anymore, I need YOU! I know YOU have always been there and it is me that has turned away, please give me that desire back to know you more. I put all my faith in you that you will help me through this slump. Amen.
Ok, I am now drained and must sleep since I have to get up at 5:00am again. I am tired.
My daughter is moving for sure this time. At first she kept saying she was going to Chicago with her friend Ashley, and those plans fell through. Now for sure she will be moving to Las Vegas. She goes there next week to check out the house her friend Danielle and a couple others will be renting, and check things out, then will be moving in July to go to the Euphoria school to do hair. I am so excited for her, but at the same time am scared to have her in such a big city so far away. She is 19 now so I have to accept she would be going out on her own sooner or later, I just wish it would have been later. I just hope she remembers I fully expect her to come back when she is done with school.
I have been having a hard time keeping on track lately. My eating is soooooooo out of control and I think alot of it has to do with the stresses in my life right now. I have been filling in out at the Children's Home in the kitchen, which is hard enough to be cooking and around food all the time, this job that was supposed to be fill in has turned into full time and I am just plain tired. Kyndra moving has me stressed and there has been so added pressures between Cliff and me with is Dad being in the hospital, he had his prostrate removed due to cancer but is doing excellent and it has not spread to any other areas, so that has Cliff on edge which automatically puts me on edge. My upcoming plastics has me a bit nervous also. I also know that the work environment is not the best for me and since I have stopped going to church, my anger is back. I remember being angry all the time before I started going to church and now it is all back. I need to get my but back and on track. I know that will help me, but I am just having a hard time. I also have stopped exercising. LORD help me. I can't do it on my own anymore, I need YOU! I know YOU have always been there and it is me that has turned away, please give me that desire back to know you more. I put all my faith in you that you will help me through this slump. Amen.
Ok, I am now drained and must sleep since I have to get up at 5:00am again. I am tired.
3/26/2008
Mar 26, 2008
I went to a plastic surgeon yesterday and I am scheduled for surgery on May 28th. I am so excited. This round I will be having a breast lift with implants and then brachioplasty (upper arms or bat wings removed). The total cost for this is $13,085 or a break down they gave me was $3,100 for the brachioplasty, lift with implants $4,750, then $1,535 for anesthesia and $4,000 for the operating room. They gave me a $300 discount which is great, but it is pretty silly that almost half of what I am paying for is the anesthesiologist and operating room. But oh well, I am so happy to be having this done that I probably would have paid more. I was originally thinking of going out of town to have it done, but then after meeting with the surgeon and seeing how much it was, I realized that I was very confident in him and it wouldn't save me any money by the time we travel to and from where ever and pay for hotels and go back for post op visits, it just wasn't worth it.
I am anxious to see how I heal from this. I know my husband is anxious to see how soon I can ride my motorcycle afterward. I keep teasing him that now I can just ride on the back of his and show off my new boobs. He said I don't think so, you can ride your own and show them off from there. He so makes me laugh.
Anyways, I have started an exercise routine of using the eliptical 5 days a week and then 3 days using my pilates power gym for strength training. I am hoping that it will help me with my recovery and healing. I just hope I can make this a habit. I am finding that the more I do it, the easier it become and the more I am enjoying it and looking forward to doing it everyday. I have never felt this way before so I think it is a positive sign.
I will continue to post new things about my up coming surgery as they happen.
I am anxious to see how I heal from this. I know my husband is anxious to see how soon I can ride my motorcycle afterward. I keep teasing him that now I can just ride on the back of his and show off my new boobs. He said I don't think so, you can ride your own and show them off from there. He so makes me laugh.
Anyways, I have started an exercise routine of using the eliptical 5 days a week and then 3 days using my pilates power gym for strength training. I am hoping that it will help me with my recovery and healing. I just hope I can make this a habit. I am finding that the more I do it, the easier it become and the more I am enjoying it and looking forward to doing it everyday. I have never felt this way before so I think it is a positive sign.
I will continue to post new things about my up coming surgery as they happen.
Thankfulness and Prayers
Jan 07, 2008
The beginning of a new year. Last year was such a wonderful gift from God, I can't imagine what this year wil bring. He always blesses me and I am ever so humbled by His amazing gifts that He blesses me with. It reminds me of the song "Who am I"
Who am I that the Lord of all the earth would care to know my name... that is the question, who am I. Why does He continue to bless me,......"not because of who I am but because of what You've done. Not because of what I've done, but because of who You are"...... I am a flower quickly fading here today and gone tomorrow. A wave caught in the ocean...." I am nothing and yet You treat me as though I am everything to YOU!!!
This year I am so THANKFUL for the new lease on life God has given me. It is because of Him that I was able to have this surgery and become the healthy person I am today and I am forever grateful for that. I give God all the glory and honor for taking away all the pain and suffering I was living with being a morbidly obese person. With out Him in my life I am nothing. He is the Light unto my path that I will continue to follow until my day on this earth comes to an end I go to live out eternity with the one who loves me, knows me to the very depths of my soul and every corner of my heart.
I give Him all the praise, honor and glory for the family he has blessed me with. For the most awesome husband anyone could ever want. He has accepted me for me, he has never questioned, commented or put down my decissions to have this surgery. He has been ever so supportive. He loved me when I was my highest weight and still loves me for me no matter how I look or how moody I am. He has always let me know how important I am to him and never looked at the way I looked on the outside, he could really only see the inside. I love you Cliff, God truely blessed me the day He introduced me to you. Praise the Lord.
For my children...Casey what an awesome person you are. I love you so much. My prayer for you is that you seek God and become infatuated with getting to know him. That you follow your dreams knowing that God does not answer every prayer and if you find one that He has not answered, it is for the best and was not in His will for your life. The children that you will be teaching in just a couple short years will be so blessed to have such a wonderful male role model in their lives. Just love them and let them know that you are there for them. Remember some of them don't have a positive male influence in their lives and you will be just that for them. Put all of your heart into your job and always give 110% of yourself even if you don't like what you are doing or who you are working for. Remember whoever you are working for, that business is their dream and who are we to crush it. May God bring the perfect woman to your life (even though I believe you have already met her) may she have a quiet spirit, a gentle soul and have a passion for God. May you and her be blessed with many children (I want lots of grandkids). May she be hardworking, caring, giving and beautiful. I love you Casey, you make me very proud.
Kyndra, aka Shorty. What can I say about my princess. I love everything about you, your passion for life and love is amazing. Your moodiness is precious. You have such a caring heart, may it never get broken. I pray that God bless you and that you and learn to forgive those who hurt you and turned you away from our church home. Always know there are those kind of people out there, but as long as you are living your life for God and doing things for His will, no one can ever touch you. You can do anything through Him who gives you strength. May God introduce you to a man who is as passionate for Him as he is for you. May your husband be a strong man of God who loves you with the passion that you will no doubt love him with. May he be a caring, hardworking, honest and trustworthy man. May God bless you with many children (as I told Casey, I want LOTS AND LOTS of grandbabies). You are just as beautiful inside and you are outside. Victoria Secret models have nothing on you. May you follow your dreams and become the best at whatever you finally decide to do in your life. Please always remember to follow God's plan for your life and not your own. You will not get far without Him guiding you. Always give 110% in whatever you do and do it with the passion that you live life with. I love you. You are my princess.
Thank you Lord God for everything in my life! Please continue to search my heart and takeout whatever is unpleasing to you. I love you God. Thank you for everything you have taught me in 2007 and I look forward to a GREAT 2008 with You.
Who am I that the Lord of all the earth would care to know my name... that is the question, who am I. Why does He continue to bless me,......"not because of who I am but because of what You've done. Not because of what I've done, but because of who You are"...... I am a flower quickly fading here today and gone tomorrow. A wave caught in the ocean...." I am nothing and yet You treat me as though I am everything to YOU!!!
This year I am so THANKFUL for the new lease on life God has given me. It is because of Him that I was able to have this surgery and become the healthy person I am today and I am forever grateful for that. I give God all the glory and honor for taking away all the pain and suffering I was living with being a morbidly obese person. With out Him in my life I am nothing. He is the Light unto my path that I will continue to follow until my day on this earth comes to an end I go to live out eternity with the one who loves me, knows me to the very depths of my soul and every corner of my heart.
I give Him all the praise, honor and glory for the family he has blessed me with. For the most awesome husband anyone could ever want. He has accepted me for me, he has never questioned, commented or put down my decissions to have this surgery. He has been ever so supportive. He loved me when I was my highest weight and still loves me for me no matter how I look or how moody I am. He has always let me know how important I am to him and never looked at the way I looked on the outside, he could really only see the inside. I love you Cliff, God truely blessed me the day He introduced me to you. Praise the Lord.
For my children...Casey what an awesome person you are. I love you so much. My prayer for you is that you seek God and become infatuated with getting to know him. That you follow your dreams knowing that God does not answer every prayer and if you find one that He has not answered, it is for the best and was not in His will for your life. The children that you will be teaching in just a couple short years will be so blessed to have such a wonderful male role model in their lives. Just love them and let them know that you are there for them. Remember some of them don't have a positive male influence in their lives and you will be just that for them. Put all of your heart into your job and always give 110% of yourself even if you don't like what you are doing or who you are working for. Remember whoever you are working for, that business is their dream and who are we to crush it. May God bring the perfect woman to your life (even though I believe you have already met her) may she have a quiet spirit, a gentle soul and have a passion for God. May you and her be blessed with many children (I want lots of grandkids). May she be hardworking, caring, giving and beautiful. I love you Casey, you make me very proud.
Kyndra, aka Shorty. What can I say about my princess. I love everything about you, your passion for life and love is amazing. Your moodiness is precious. You have such a caring heart, may it never get broken. I pray that God bless you and that you and learn to forgive those who hurt you and turned you away from our church home. Always know there are those kind of people out there, but as long as you are living your life for God and doing things for His will, no one can ever touch you. You can do anything through Him who gives you strength. May God introduce you to a man who is as passionate for Him as he is for you. May your husband be a strong man of God who loves you with the passion that you will no doubt love him with. May he be a caring, hardworking, honest and trustworthy man. May God bless you with many children (as I told Casey, I want LOTS AND LOTS of grandbabies). You are just as beautiful inside and you are outside. Victoria Secret models have nothing on you. May you follow your dreams and become the best at whatever you finally decide to do in your life. Please always remember to follow God's plan for your life and not your own. You will not get far without Him guiding you. Always give 110% in whatever you do and do it with the passion that you live life with. I love you. You are my princess.
Thank you Lord God for everything in my life! Please continue to search my heart and takeout whatever is unpleasing to you. I love you God. Thank you for everything you have taught me in 2007 and I look forward to a GREAT 2008 with You.
1/7/2008
Jan 07, 2008
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, "Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?"
--Actually, who are you not to be?--
You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
by Marianne Williamson
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, "Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?"
--Actually, who are you not to be?--
You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
by Marianne Williamson
12/4/2007
Dec 04, 2007
I leave tomorrow morning to go to Sioux Falls for my 1 year appointment. How exciting this last year has been. I am down to 165 pounds and feeling great!!! (except for today, I feel like I am coming down with the flu or something)
I will post more after my appointment. Merry Christmas to all!!!
Our Savior is born!!!
I will post more after my appointment. Merry Christmas to all!!!
Our Savior is born!!!
11/12/2007
Nov 12, 2007
WOW!!! time is flying this year and what an awesome ride. Things are going so good, who could ask for anything more. God continues to bless me and my family everyday and I am so thankfull for everything He has provided.
Cliff and I have been having a good time this last month, we (Cliff, my brother Roger, his wife Linda and myself) hauled our Harleys to Daytona Beach, FL for Biketoberfest. We had such a great time. We stayed with my other brother Richard and his wife Terilynn. It was great! I enjoyed the visit with my brother and getting to see the coast by motorcycle. We had such a good time that we are going back in January only flying this time. We are taking my mom with. She has not flown since 9/11 so this will be a huge step for her but my brother is so excited that she is coming his way.
I also will be planning my 1 year post-op appointment. WOW that went fast. I couldn't be happier. I had been stablized at 170, but just this week have dropped to 167. I really would like to get to 150 so I have somewhere to bounce back to if I gain any of this weight back. I am happy with the weight I am at right now, so even if I stayed here, that is just fine with me. I will be checking into plastics this next year, I have decided to start on the top and work my way down. Boobs and arms first, then the lower half, I can' t complain though, I do have the skin, but it has all settled in areas that can be covered with the proper swim suits and clothing. My husband couldn't be happier. He is so funny always telling me what a great butt I have and how sexy I am. He also keeps saying he is waiting for me to dump him and find a young stud. He has been getting picked on by people saying that he is married to a 25 year old and that he is robbing the cradle. I keep telling him that he is not getting rid of me that easy, and that I don't have the time or patience to train another one. I so love him and thank God everyday for giving me such an awesome husband. He really is the best, all you other ladies out there may think you have the best husband, but you just have not met mine yet.
I pray that everyone has the best holidays and I will try to remember to post next month. God Bless all who read this and Happy Thanksgiving.
9/6/2007
Sep 06, 2007
Wow, time sure flies when you're having fun. I have been so busy lately it is unreal. I had quit my job in April and ever since I have been so busy it is scary. In July we had a birthday party for my Mom, she turned 70 this year. Then in August we had a birthday party for my oldest sister as she turned 50. The rally came and went in what seemed like record time. We had a good time riding our Harley's and even getting to ride a day with my friend Becki and her family. It was a great time. Now I am filling in at one of my old jobs in the kitchen. It is so had to work there. There is so much good home made food that it is hard to not eat. If I can't keep control, I will have to just make the decision to not work there. I don't want to do anything to cause myself to fall and gain any weight back.
I am now down to 170 pounds as of this morning. It is so funny how you get into stalls then out of the blue you just start to lose again without trying. That makes me down 102 pounds total in just over 8 months. I still have 20 pounds I would like to lose, but not sure if my body will let me get that far down. It would put me at 150 pounds. I checked to see what I would have to be at just to be in the normal range for my height/weight and I would have to get to 154. I just don't know if it will happen. Even if it does not, I will be just fine where I am at. I really know I will be doing plastics in the future. I need to get rid of some of the excess skin on my arms, stomach and upper thighs plus have my boobs put back into place. There is a Plastic Surgeon here in town that has been advertising laser skin tightening. I thought I would check that out for my arms. We will see.
My husband is so funny. The other day he told me how beautiful I was and how proud of me he was that I had this surgery and lost the weight, he even thanked me for being his wife. AAAHHHH how sweet. I got a good one there. Then he told me not to leave him and find myself some young good looking guy. He is so funny. I reassured him that it was never going to happen then through in there that I didn't have the energy to re-train another one so he was stuck with me. I love him so much and can't believe how God has blessed me with such a wonderful husband.
So, till next time. God Bless all readng this.
I am now down to 170 pounds as of this morning. It is so funny how you get into stalls then out of the blue you just start to lose again without trying. That makes me down 102 pounds total in just over 8 months. I still have 20 pounds I would like to lose, but not sure if my body will let me get that far down. It would put me at 150 pounds. I checked to see what I would have to be at just to be in the normal range for my height/weight and I would have to get to 154. I just don't know if it will happen. Even if it does not, I will be just fine where I am at. I really know I will be doing plastics in the future. I need to get rid of some of the excess skin on my arms, stomach and upper thighs plus have my boobs put back into place. There is a Plastic Surgeon here in town that has been advertising laser skin tightening. I thought I would check that out for my arms. We will see.
My husband is so funny. The other day he told me how beautiful I was and how proud of me he was that I had this surgery and lost the weight, he even thanked me for being his wife. AAAHHHH how sweet. I got a good one there. Then he told me not to leave him and find myself some young good looking guy. He is so funny. I reassured him that it was never going to happen then through in there that I didn't have the energy to re-train another one so he was stuck with me. I love him so much and can't believe how God has blessed me with such a wonderful husband.
So, till next time. God Bless all readng this.
