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I have not posted in a while because I have nothing new to post. I am still trying to figure this thing out! I am never hungry. I am scared because I can eat just about anything without dumping or getting ill!! I have scheduled to visit my nutritionist again to help with a meal plan again! I will get this done! I have lost 3 more pounds; so a total of 41 all together I think. I will be so happy once I am under 200. I am going back to the gym now, so I think that will help!

I have had a cycle now for almost two weeks and am trying to figure out why! I am tired most of the times but started my iron now; so I am getting better.

I have a lot going on personally and professionally. I am working on me overall....

So I guess, here's to me!

Hope everyone is doing well! Miss you guys!

I am certain that is what it is. It is also time of the month so I have gained 2lbs. I am not complaining, but I will be glad when this stall is over.  

So far nothing new to report. Just awaiting to get out of this stall......Happy Sunday everyone!

I am heading back to work in my office tomorrow at CNN. Funny, I am ready a little, but not really. I really just want to stay home and relish in my new lifestyle! I am going to pack my foods for tomorrow....

So I have kinda gotten I course I think already. Not to crazy, but not focused like I was. I have slacked off from cooking and just been grabbing dry tuna, chicken salads,  and Wendy's Chili (a staple for me, but I feel like I am failing. Although I have not had a soda (this was a major issue for me before) or any junk food; everything else is pretty much tolerable to my pouch. This scares me. I still cannot eat much, really like two or three bites but I feel I'm getting to comfortable.....


anyway, just venting!

I was soooo sick yesterday. I felt full and bloat and just miserable. I finally vomited but it was all liquid. I was so confused by that. It was almost like a dry heave, thing.  Is that dumping? I was so uncomfortable. I could not find any place in the house that was comfortable.  Finally at 5 am sat in front of my sofa and fell asleep sitting straight up.

Anyway, I was determine to attend the meeting today and I was able to, but I have been laying around all day. 

I think when I am able to tolerate food, I want to try being a vegetarian. It couldn't be that hard, huh???

Anyway, have a great week everyone. I am starting work tomorrow but from home this week. I am so looking forward to being back in the saddle a little bit!

I am soo unbelievably bloat and have so much gas. I had another upper GI tract Xray today because of it. Yes Barium and all!
Anyhow, they said I do not have any leaks or obstruction. We are still working on locating the source. Its really bugging me because I can barely sip broth and water without instantly feeling full!!!! Its so irritating! Feels so unnatural.

I have to say, never felt better. I had the drain removed at my appointment and my doc Advised me to start birth control immediately and released me to go back to work. WOW! The drain removal was disgusting! Didn't hurt, but overly disgusting.

He kept saying, DO NOT OVEREAT!! I understand the warning but how can I??

Anyway, I'm on my way. and yes, I have lost 25lbs!

I have not been in any pain. But I am exhausted. I did walk yesterday from my condo to my car which is  a considerable distance plus there are steps involved. This morning after walking up getting liquid content in, I have been spending time with my 11 year old hanging out watching movies and playing video games. 

I started drinking organic soy milk today. I can get down about 5 ounces of liquid before feeling full. Hmmm, It all seems too easy? I have thoughts of am I doing it right. I constantly have my instruction sheet near me. I guess I am afraid of failure It seems to easy to eat what I want nowadays!!

Really, I have not experienced any pain. I am at home after spending one night in the hospital and I have not experienced any pain.  I am scared to cough or sneeze, but I am sure that will pass.

Anyhow, I am able to do 1 ounce of something every hour. Taking it very easy. I am so glad to be home!

I will update you more tomorrow and give you every detail.

Thanks everyone for praying for me!

I am headed in. While showering I had the weirdest thought. It was me basically trying to think of life as it is without me....Kinda morbid, I know, so it help me assure myself that everything it gong to be OK. Besides, MY GOD, is my refuge and I am turning this all over to him.

Anyway, I will update my blog as soon as I am able.  Usually, surgery only makes me sleepy initially right afterwards. I am confident that i will be fine!


TTYL, See you on the thin side! POW!!!!!!!!!

I am so excited. I do not know what to expect but I am optimistic.

I will update my blog with my feelings, thoughts, symptoms, pains and what-not!

Can't wait!!!

TTYL-not sure if I will be able to sleep, so I may be back on!