mojomom
First Blog - I'm taking charge of my life
Aug 07, 2011
I'm 1 week in now and can tell you it's been challenging, but I'd have to say well worth it. I'll share a little info on my story.
It's been 10 years of trying everything I could think of to lose weight. I just didn't see my lifestyle changing a lot and felt a surgical solution was the best one. I just seemed to hit a wall. I didn't feel that I could live another day wearing this "fat suit" I've been carrying around for far too long.
I'm a middle aged professional mother. I am very hard working and I'm used to doing things well and with ease, really. This weight issue is one thing I haven't been able to beat, no matter which way I come at it. There isn't a diet you can name I haven't tried. Some I was able to stick with for a while and that was always a good feeling...until I fell off of the food wagon and gained the weight back. Strange thing about those pounds, they always seemed to bring more. As the weight crept up, my activity level tanked. Lethal combination.
A friend of mine got new boobs recently and it was a catalyst for me to take action in my own life. As I thought about it, I realized we all have the right to make the changes we want in our lives.
My husband is the most wonderful man in the world and I was surprised to hear him say he thought I was taking the "easy" way out! EASY?! You have GOT to be kidding me! I explained to him there was nothing easy about trying and failing again and again for 10 years of my life. There is nothing easy about this constant internal struggle. The struggle to plan my days in ways that don't come naturally to me. The struggle to avoid people and interactions as much as I could manage in my personal life.
My daughter is 10 years old now, and I don't want her growing up with an unhealthy mother any more! I haven't ever once taken her to the pool or to the beach. She has never even seen me in a pair of shorts. I avoid appearing in photographs. That's crazy! I want to play tennis with her. I want us to ride our bikes and to go on picnics and to have races and roll down grassy hills together. Instead, I avoid and avoid and avoid. I make excuses for why I can't do things and I throw myself into my work. Then I'm safely "too busy" to do things with her.
People who don't struggle with their weight just don't understand the inner turmoil we heavy folks deal with every day. I have avoided social situations long enough. I'm taking charge of my life.
I'll be back and I hope you'll take these new steps along with me. I wish you well.
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It's been 10 years of trying everything I could think of to lose weight. I just didn't see my lifestyle changing a lot and felt a surgical solution was the best one. I just seemed to hit a wall. I didn't feel that I could live another day wearing this "fat suit" I've been carrying around for far too long.
I'm a middle aged professional mother. I am very hard working and I'm used to doing things well and with ease, really. This weight issue is one thing I haven't been able to beat, no matter which way I come at it. There isn't a diet you can name I haven't tried. Some I was able to stick with for a while and that was always a good feeling...until I fell off of the food wagon and gained the weight back. Strange thing about those pounds, they always seemed to bring more. As the weight crept up, my activity level tanked. Lethal combination.
A friend of mine got new boobs recently and it was a catalyst for me to take action in my own life. As I thought about it, I realized we all have the right to make the changes we want in our lives.
My husband is the most wonderful man in the world and I was surprised to hear him say he thought I was taking the "easy" way out! EASY?! You have GOT to be kidding me! I explained to him there was nothing easy about trying and failing again and again for 10 years of my life. There is nothing easy about this constant internal struggle. The struggle to plan my days in ways that don't come naturally to me. The struggle to avoid people and interactions as much as I could manage in my personal life.
My daughter is 10 years old now, and I don't want her growing up with an unhealthy mother any more! I haven't ever once taken her to the pool or to the beach. She has never even seen me in a pair of shorts. I avoid appearing in photographs. That's crazy! I want to play tennis with her. I want us to ride our bikes and to go on picnics and to have races and roll down grassy hills together. Instead, I avoid and avoid and avoid. I make excuses for why I can't do things and I throw myself into my work. Then I'm safely "too busy" to do things with her.
People who don't struggle with their weight just don't understand the inner turmoil we heavy folks deal with every day. I have avoided social situations long enough. I'm taking charge of my life.
I'll be back and I hope you'll take these new steps along with me. I wish you well.
